In order to experience our highest experience of Self, something we have to do is “let it go”. I was dwelling in love (nature) this evening when something I saw shook my core, and it triggered a childhood memory. I became frightened and honestly, I wanted to cry…and I’m sure I will…in private. But whether in public or in private, in order to let that experience go, I cannot deny the feelings that come up. I cannot be afraid to address the issue and allow it to linger inside me; only to be triggered again and again by some other experiences. Keeping my feelings inside will only cause me dis-ease in my mind and can also manifest illnesses in my body, such as, stress, headaches, pains and such. As the storm comes up, the longer I “don’t let it bother me”, the greater it will rage. Since I don’t want a raging storm inside of me, I must face it and embrace it. I must go with it.
THE ONLY THING WORST THAN NOT LOVING YOURSELF IS NEGLECTING YOURSELF.
How do I do that, considering that I may face many storms throughout my life? I traverse storms by not being afraid; by WANTING to experience the good in me—and FEEL LOVE within myself. By overcoming fear, I will be transformed. I will use love to empower me to overcome storms and transform them into teachable moments. The more I empower mySelf with gratitude, with patience, and with understanding of mySelf—the more I can transform and become my highest expression of Self. Now instead of experiencing raging storms, it make just rain, or drizzle, or I make experience just a clouded moment—provided, I address my issues as they come up. When I feel issues come up that do not/no longer serve to the betterment of my highest BEing, I don’t deny them. I embrace those feelings, and acknowledge them for serving their purpose, bless the feeling and let it go. Bless
There is a hard shell that encompasses your heart—placed there by you. You may be thinking that you’re protecting yourself from pain—from heartbreak. When, in fact, you’re suffocating your heart. You’re not allowing yourself to FEEL anything. You’re afraid to feel! Ignoring your own feelings is not the same as letting stuff go. And you won’t let stuff go because you’re afraid to not have something to complain about, you’re afraid to not have something to blame others for, or make them responsible for why you are unable to BE. YOU are afraid to let go. And even though you cry, scream, and wrench in pain….you refuse to let it go.
Giving into your FEELINGS or allowing yourSelf to FEEL what you experience is a way to overcome dis-ease of the heart. Until you admit that you’re angry, or sad, or afraid, you will continue to experience the issues that surround those feelings until you do—and not only within yourself, but also outside of yourself. You already judge yourSelf very harshly, and even when it isn’t so, you think others are judging you. You’ve come to a point where you’ve polluted yourSelf with THINGS—in order to seek outside approval, or validation from others. You don’t want your feelings addressed, but you want to be loved for how many things you have and how much they cost. It literally pains you to seek validation from others, but you need someone to blame when experiences don’t work out in your favor. You’ve already judged yourSelf unable to live up to your own approval, so you acquire more THINGS, never quite being satisfied, because you think another being has upped you one. Thus, you have a cycle of void experiences; being detached from your emotions. Let it go.
BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE.
Fall back, into love with yourSelf. Trust yourSelf to know that no one is doing anything to you that you did not ask for. Become aware and attract something better for yourSelf. Desire it. You may say to people that you are fine—but in your heart you hurt. You envy. You despise. You hate. Yet, you can’t figure out why others “treat” you this way or that. Because in your heart, you won’t let it go. What you are experiencing IS your heart’s desire! You want a peaceful, loving, and understanding world. That’s good that you say you want it, however you have to not just think it, not just say it—you have to FEEL it! Believe it! Live it!
Be the ONE. Be the one to let it go. Be the one to ask forgiveness for holding yourSelf hostage. Be the one to mean it—to live it. Be the one to let all that “stuff” go, and fall back into love with yourSelf. Only then can you begin to feel true love in others.