Hey y’all this Sunday rising is a rather mind-sobering mood..I’m not complaining, it’s a good thing.
I’m out here like Father for(e)give me for being an asshole and not wearing my glasses that time. I pressured myself to pre-form…when I wasn’t even ready. Most people take their glasses off to see, I have to put mine on. That’s how I see what my father wants me to SEE.
Y’all ever did that? Engage in something prematurely? How could you not see the real horizon through the mirage in your face? Because you weren’t wearing your glasses…your righted mind! Your awareness and insight was off course!
In the future, wait. Give it another 24 hours. Let the heatwave simmer down.
Self Foregiveness and Self Responsibility have been my theme this month. My father god reminded me this rising about a discussion we had back on 12/20/12 in the Great Room. Sometimes we have to go back to the basics, no matter how far we’ve come.
Oddly, during that same sleep work, I saw the sun explode. So many people were burned up. I wasn’t and I walked right through the fire and falling ambers. THAT event was rather symbolic because my life HAD changed from that night forward. The process of Self-Healing had begun. As with anything else, the more of yourself you give to your DARKSelf, the better of your LIGHTSelf you will receive back. God’s remedy to heal any suffering soul, broken spirit, worn or broken heart, and any phase of a relationship is a process to be worked at with discipline:
–REVELATION: Opening oneself up to review of his/her faults and/or negative beings; their transgressions.
-REALIZATION: Now knowing and acknowledging to his/her transgressions and accepts his/her responsibility and role he/she played in revealed transgressions.
–FORGIVENESS: Asking for forgiveness unto ones God-Head is perhaps the most important part of healing. The bowing of the head acknowledges that one has realized and is sorry for their transgression against others and/or Self. Forgiveness is a confirmation of agreement with Self and/or between two or more beings, to move forward and no longer hold Self or others in a place of negative vibrations; or contempt nor condemnation.
Make a lovely day.
I would hate for anybody to assume that I hate them just cause I don’t engage anymore. I’m a fore-giving person. However, fore-giving doesn’t mean makeup and move forward.
Foregiveness means I’m giving myself CLOSURE to ANY situation that is proving to be be counter-productive to my goals and desires, to my integrity, beFORE I fuck up any further. My fore-giving is about ME. Just like the rest of whatever I got going on. Why would I dwell in darkness, harm my own wellness and hand someone else my healing?
My foregiving is about me. This is not some thing y’all gonna hear a common person say. I’m not common…this is why its so easy for me to share. I don’t worry about not being me. I just be me…in whatever capacity. Be you. If you have some shit to get out your chest in order to be you…do that. Your heart..do that…your mind…do that…your body…do that. And do it as quickly as possible. So you can have closure amd move in the next best thing.
Living your best life is not getting a thing and showing it off. Living your best life is a process of waking up, taking responsibility for your energy ouput and intake, overcoming the mis-takes, foregiving yourself, and enjoying the successes of whatever comes out of it at the time. It going to happen over and over through your life!
If you leave your foregiving and healing up to others, they will never let it go. They will never let YOU let it go…and they will work at tarnishing your character and always attempt to make themselves look good by making you look bad. And you shouldn’t have to spend good energy convincing other people that your not that bad. If someone of fucking with you, it’s because they’re afraid of you. That’s it, plain and simple.
I’m the confidante to several persons who lack the ability to foregive themselves. And believe me, it’s heavy shit. But I’M here for me…and people see that, and trust me to be there for them. As much as I share, I’m still a very private person.
Foregiving is for YOU to move ON with YOUR life…not forward with the bullshit packed away.