Month: August 2022

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Self-Care: Be Humble and Ask God For Help

My view of success is my knowing that I exist because God exists. My humility and humbleness is knowing my limits and when to ask God for direct intervention.

Psalms 23 says,
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.

This current one world systems reset is hard for me as it is anyone else. Still I go about my work diligent. I think people assume spiritualists have some sort of immunity to insults, hurt, and sickness. We’re spiritualists not X-Men, but even they have weak spots. So nope,nobody’s perfect. There’s that.

This morning, I recalled some time ago, sharing with someone that when I was sick with Covid, it caused me to get my affairs in order. Like, THAT’S how sick I was. Their response was,

“I don’t know that I could’ve done what you did.”

What?

“Called out.”

Oh, so you’re one of those people who claim we never see you and wonder woman in the same room. Oh so you’ve never been humble. Oh wow..okay. So I’m talking to someone who worships themselves. Got it.

Humble is knowing your time. Not being silent….just knowing your time. Humility is knowing other people’s time and respecting it. They get mixed up–like twin sisters, identifiable by interacting with their way of being.

Chile, I done told Elizabeth I was coming home and this person worried about me calling out from work. They didn’t care that I was sick. They cared that I was the only supervisor on shift at that time, and that I called out. Hence these grown people employees wouldn’t be able to monitor themselves at.work.from.home🤨.during a world lock down. As if I didn’t grapple with that issue before falling into a half coma and having to call out in the middle of the day after already being sick for two days prior…this was the peak and I was down for the count. You know what I mean if you were a first-rounder. I can’t work with a mack truck IN my chest.

I was quite surprised that their mind was so focused on leadership that even if they were that sick they would’ve called themselves being there for others and not themselves. Chile the pride! No even a great leader…but just a good leader knows when to tap out.

That’s when I knew I had to get in closer with God. Re-dedicate my life to God and renew my leadership vows (Wayshower vows); for me and mine, with the revelation that people are trying to go at life on their own. The system reset also is forcing us to look at humanity through enhanced eyes and mind. We need God in this. We always have…we were just young and closed minded and having a good time in a new land for some time.

When you feel that you have no options and there are no new ideas flowing into your mind, heart and body, a tell-tell sign of a Godless life is in your response to others humility,

“I don’t know that I can do that.”

Imagine God responding to you in such when you ask for something. Or just even someone you trust responding in such a manner. Yeah that’s disappointing and discouraging.

We can’t rid ourselves of people who are discouraging and tend to stomp on anything of value beyond themselves. I often purposely ask God to provide peace to still my mind in the midst of so many ideas and so many options. They are all right for me, otherwise I wouldn’t be thinking of them. However we can’t do everything at once. Discouraging people will have you keep great ideas to yourself, until they can find a way to take the credit.

This is why it’s important to write. I had no idea that so many people hate writing or are fearful to write, or in their words, can’t write! Even if no one ever sees. As a self-taught reader and writer, I can’t imagine my life without writing. God shows up. I.wrote.THIS.life.just.to.figure.out.how.to.help.my.share.of.humanity. Did we all not…? And so everywhere we go that’s where we are.

For goals that I’ve written 10 years ago, some have been achieved and some are coming back up as I transition into the next leg of my life. What we sow we reap. Every idea wants to be chosen. I simply rewrite them toward the top of my lists if they aren’t chosen. 😆

Anyway, getting to PEACE! God will help us along in life by stirring our minds and hearts in the direction we need to go…if we’re focused and open.

A closed hand cannot give or receive. Neither can a closed mind and a closed heart. Never slap people in the face with your left hand if you know your heart isn’t in the right place. It’s going to show, eventually. Much like that person when I shared that story. They may have a high title at work, but that heart needs work.

Anyway, the best part of being humble before God is when we sleep, and God takes us to the STILL place..the place of PEACE. I’m thinking of the song Still Waters Run Deep by Aretha Franklin…don’t trouble the waters just let it be. Sail on sail on by, your time has come to shine, all of your dreams are on their way! You can even go with Anita Baker’s, “Sweet Love”, and sway as she talks with God about having peace. Anita was my idol growing up…having grown up in foster care herself…blossoming into one of the Queens of Soul…cause she gets it. She knows where I’m coming from. She’s been there…a displaced child of God.

The place where the water is actually a sea of crystals so bright, and sand so soft it feels like walking on air. The two suns are so yellow and crispy bright but the temperature feels fit to skin. The people doing their own thing and the obsidian mountains are so high in the background. And we just walk or sit, and our window opens and there we are doing and being…our desires. We feel every exact feeling and emotion. WE ARE ‘I AM’ BEING OURSELVES! The CRADLING–which I’ve come to calling this majestic energy–is a most amazing and overwhelming feeling–imagine that of a baby snuggling in our own arms..and we know they are safe with us and so we relax feeling safe with them..and most times end up asleep. You ever slept in your sleep?

Then upon waking we continue to feel this energy..and if we accept.it.into.our energy… all is well. We are refreshed and renewed. And when the spirit of infirmary comes gossiping and nosing around, trying to make changes where they have no business or being discouraging, we are able reject and redirect them without a thought.

The adventure begins when we begin seeing (synchronicities) signs of heaven in our waking life…and that is the road we follow. The ideas are vivid and the most promising road becomes enlightened into our minds. Some say they see a golden road in their sleep..which I have also seen at least twice and did produce a portrait some years ago. The road to the next possibility. At least that childhood “myth” is true. Aye ask God for peace if you just find that you have to tap out and need to renew your strength. Write it down, speak it, paint it, make music, whatever it is that you do from the heart naturally. It’s a good time to get your affairs in order anyway. So do that too.

Psalms 23 says,
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.

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Self-Elevation: I Gotta Move On

The best way to have the destinies you want is to build them. They may not fit for the present you….but your future is benefiting a head up on the work you do today.

We don’t know that we’ll be ready to take flight 3, 5 or 7 years from now. We just know we are content where we just arrived, because we also prepared for the place we’re in now. We are content all the way through. And then just like that God calls us to prepare for our next destination (assignment). We wish to have a smooth transition but some people just have their feelings invested in us and we in them. But not all feelings are mutually good.

Being content with “this is it” is okay for some, but most certainly does not jive for the explorer type personality. God takes advantage of the mind that is open to the many dimensions (some call them mansions) in his house.

Having had the pleasure and stress 😬 of working in my depth CONSCIOUSLY for the past 11 years…NOT PERFECT (cause you have to place disclaimers for people who point and try to remove steps ahead of you while pointing out errors behind you). Some want you stuck right where you are as long as they won’t do the work themselves…they think communion with God is a competition. Spiritual living is a personal (not secret) relationship with God.

Most people who hate you either have never spoken to you in their life, are gossiping on heresay, or have envy of you. However the opinion of a few does not negate the truth of the many.

I’m glad I was building in secret…that’s my boundary, though I should not have to. Your favorite actor or rapper openly spills all over their fans…leaving their fans to deal with problems that aren’t even theirs. And y’all love it…as long as y’all don’t have to focus on yourselves. Thus the mass imbalance of the social climate. Too much battling over other people instead of working on ourselves and helping other people.🤨

I don’t have to make a new start, I just put on the crown I earned over years of unseen hard work. Through my own soul’s dark night, I still showed up. Through my own private losses and grievances I still showed up. Some folks say being ONE way is what makes a solid person. Feels kind of concrete to me…and how does one get into concrete?…they break it apart with heavy blows. Y’all not gonna be abusing me trying to pound problems on me that aren’t mine. Own your own life and your hang ups.

You’d think as a person who grew in fostercare that I should be loveless, have walls in walls, and butt hurt and distrust just dripping everywhere in everything. Nah my soul and my serotonin is top-notch…in spite of, still I love. I speak well, I eat well and so I sleep well. Walls aren’t my thang, some walls yes. With some people yes. Unfortunately many of us learned error by fire when it came to who we let behind our walls. I’m just building boundaries as I get closer to God. My brother Yeshua started out like we’re gonna help everybody, and when not everybody not only didn’t want help but “attacked” him in several places, he started to build boundaries.

He even told his peoples, cool when you’re ready to talk come to me, but don’t think you’re gonna go around me behind my back and I don’t know. He wasn’t paranoid, he knew what was up! Some people did rock with him on the low. He even told Peter bro I know you gonna act like you don’t know me when you get in front of Caesar and nem…it’s cool though. I forgive you.

Yeshua had to distance himself from certain people and even then whom called themselves friends. He kept his most trusted person unknown to most and acknowledged by the few who knew. He was ridiculed for communing with the obvious downtrodden but good of heart type people’s. By the way, the daemon disguised as his bff that deceived him, ended up demising himself. Extreme…but people who do you dirty behind your back do suffer with emotional and mental Illness about it. Ruining people’s lives is inhuman! Especially just for the favor of bigger devils.

Only God can deal them types as you go about your assignment. God doesn’t hide you…he fills your table with a feast for your enemies to further envy.

We can go through the scriptures and find several instances of envy and deceit toward Yeshua as he went about his assignment.

Romans, Luke, Mark, John, Timothy, and on.

Nonetheless….embracing my multidimensional being is my own assignment for myself as I prepare for what God has for me next. My abilities seem to be good for people to serve their own purposes, however when I use my talents to serve my own interests….to elevate ME….folks get out of sorts. I’m recently being called fake, standoffish, agressive, unhinged, crazy. All the things they called Yeshua when ever he wasn’t doing something they were comfortable with. Whenever he prepared to move on.

When Yeshua fed the people they were happy, when he healed Jairus daughter at Galilee Lake folks were surprised and some got upset, and when he needed periodic breaks folks got upset. He didn’t ask for breaks he took breaks. He knew his tolerance in a dark world.

Our loyalty is to God, and it is through God’s will that we work where we are, until it is time to move on.

Watch who’s clapping for you, who’s smiling with you and who’s encouraging and who’s following up.

Watch who gets upset when you’re ready to go. They don’t really want God’s love nor ever really appreciated your contribution, if it were not so, how do they shift so easy, when they claimed to be solid people🤨? That’s fake to me. Nothing worse than a shifty person pretending to be solid…and God is revealing them, at home, in schools, in the work place, and in the church. You gotta move on. Now they wanna talk to you…nah…rise above just like Yeshua when he goes to the “mountain” and devil is so much into ego to challenge Yeshua to prove he’s the son of God…nah GET BEHIND ME DEVIL!

All you children of God… get in your bag, stay in your bag and move on!

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Self-Mindfulness: The Cloud Will Determine Your Livelihood

I recently attended a job interview. Though the exchange seemed to be human-interactive, emails and assessments sent by whom I thought to be a real person. It turned out an algorithm will determine whether I get the job or not, based on trigger words in my resume and my answers on the assessment. My natural curiosity made me move to inquire. When a real human did not showup to the “interactive review”, I called the actual company and inquired. I was told by a human that someone will contact me if I get the job. Wait..so a human doesn’t determine that??🤔 The HR person could not answer my questions because she hadn’t yet seen my resume; the emails I interacted with signed by “Greg” and “Samantha” were from a cloud in the virtual air. I want to know more.😲

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Self-Preparation: Our Daily Bread

How many of us are transitioning into Bethlehem while in unfavorable conditions? We are spiritually hungry but feeding our stomachs. We are depressed and laughing at memes to make us happy..when what we lack is VATILIY. We are working and seeking approval for a job well done to boost our pride. We are grieving, we are struggling in different ways, we are too guiding others in their journeys, we are being human. Yet we are different. We can say we are imperfect while shifting through ups and downs.

In the highs and lows is our harvest. Prosperity brings onlookers and enemies during highs, but the land is scarce of support during the lows–the planning(planting) season.

There are those around us who have given themselves roles of deciding how much human we can be and when…at their own will. If we just do a little more of this, or less of that, how, and in what tone. We can’t pivot if we can’t move about without fair judgement.

God adds extra to our ordinary without even looking at our resumes. God gets past our awkwardness, our non-perfect personalities, and uses our nondescript selves to change lives.

When we question ourselves at the hesitation of others who don’t know what to do with us, God says, “Only I judge fairly.”

We think in the times of trouble that God hides us….nope. We are pushed to make change! Change requires that we MOVE.

I remember what I’ve been through and marvel at the grounds I stand on today. What I’ve been through has always been tools of empowerment to help others help themselves, even sometimes while I’m in my experiences, I am there for others. I’ve stopped asking God why so many years ago. God has taken me through dimensions of fires, and every time I think yes this is it…nope! I get to multitasking
…building my ark and getting rest before the incoming CHANGES.

Think about what you’ve been through; do you think those who judge you could have even lasted through what you’ve been through?? God works with the authentic spirit, the unfit the different and indifferent being…not the manufactured being. God calls the different to make a difference.

God took unfit layman/women and made them Kings and Queens of nations. Surely God can promote you to your purpose. God doesn’t care if you are not run of the mill, not ideal, and not ready. God is your determination to make it and does get very involved in our affairs. So trust in God to know that you don’t have to hide for fear of judgement or something being taken away from you.

It is our will that God’s will be done.

God says,”Stand up and show yourself so you can pivot! I will feed you nourishment, you will not lack, I will give you your daily bread.”

Beth-el-em(House of Bread)

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Self-Empowerment: Judge Your Own Self

Coming out with your hidden successes will reveal to you more about people places and things currently around you than anyone could ever tell you about yourself. If everybody seems to know you…are you truly seeing yourself through your eyes or others? From which point in your life?

What is your answer if God asks, “Tell me about yourself?”

We are absolutely never as bad as people judge us. Open your destiny and be engulfed by your own light. Nobody judges the past…they judge what they see right in front of them and even that can be skewed, without knowing the past and no inclination of a future.

People grimace at physical scars…but have no idea how they got there.

I’m not wearing scars yet people grimace at my revealation of having been raised through the foster system. Then suddenly they change up on me as if a thousand scars suddenly appeared…and then with the closed off comments.

“Oh! You don’t look like it!” 😐
“I’m so sorry!”😐
“That’s terrible you had to go through that!”😐

I’m like,
What does foster care look like?🤨
Why are you apologizing?🤨
Who said it was terrible?🤨

The appropriate open-ended response would be (if at all),

“What was that like?”🤔

Curiosity would ask,
“Tell me more.”🤔☕

This is why I say,
Be your own judge…you know what you’ve been through, have done and have not done, and are doing. The best way to consciously have the future you desire is to work at it now…whether publicly or in private.

If you see a rock planted in the dirt that doesn’t mean there’s nothing under earth to trip you up. If you see a boulder planted in the dirt, that doesn’t mean there’s deep problems under earth.

Reach back and share with the people that struggled with you and encouraged you and helped you out of those dark places…then launch yourself forward into your season!