Self-Growth: Graduation!

Omgosh! Last night was so seriously deep. We , and when I say we, I mean all types of being humans and human beings! Some cannot handle strong light so the room was kept in dim lighting and there were plants around the room.

If yall could see the faces and body structures of those beings…some of them were half reptiles Their eyes were yellowish greenish or redish with and without slits.

I got to see one particular one close up…a sistah, her cheeck bones were protruded and her hair was cut short and slicked back. She had tattooed symbols on her body and her skin had scales that reflected light. She was kind of modeling herself…SHE was serious and gorgeous! There were others…male and female. They like the hiphop scene. They fit in well because nobody judges them…the culture is excepting of their look and sometimes odd behaviors.

Then there was a set of sistahs that looked similar to cats. Their eyes were sparkly and slanted…they wore some pretty makeup over them…blues and greens and their cheek bones were puffed up with smaller noses than average humans. They were smaller and rounder in stature.

They were so friendly. Apparently they went to high school with me…I recall a set of twins…one dated a very close friend of mine…she was upset that I “didnt like her”. It wasnt that…she was just so mean! Anyhoo..she asked me how was such and such and who they saw over the years. If I said I didnt recall a person they put a mental image in my head…not that it helped…Lol! I rubbed their heads and faces almost instinctively. Very lovely sistahs.

After the teacher left…the elder women began to come into the room. I flowed out of the room and into the office area where an exact replica of my office was. My coworkers were there gathered on one side….new people began to flow in. One of my coworkers said “Its time to graduate.” I said to a group of three females of varying ages “Um why are yall at my desk??” They were trainees and some of them at bags and suitcases. I called upstairs to reach my boss..she wasnt there. So I called “Sam” my coworker he was there but couldnt answer.

So I went to upstairs and the offices were seriously futuristic style! Glass and frosted glass everywhere! Outside it was raining…but nobody got wet. It was amazing! Lol. So I wanted to complain about my desk being occupied…instead my coworkers and I and everyone else were given cups packaged in sealed plastic that could be broken by only the user. I said to one of my coworkers. “WE’RE BEING DRUG TESTED??” He said “YEP THEY’RE GONNA LET A LOT OF PEOPLE GO.” I was like “Whew! I’M GLAD I DON’T DO DRUGS!”

The bathroom was just as awesome as the rest of the upstairs offices too. By the time the testing was over I exited the building the sun was out…and there were children all over the place singing and the SUN…it was so bright and fresh…there was writing on the ground but I can’t recall what it said even though I read it. BUT I WAS SO HAPPY!!

Man that whole experience was awesome! Quick interpretation:

One…the new trainees with their suitcases were humans with baggage whether emotional physical financial psychological..etc…. too much attachment to SOMETHING. TIME TO LET IT GO!

Two….the drug testing was important. REMEMBER THIS IS THE NEXT TO LAST DAY OF MECURY RETROGRADE…those who have been sustaining in the higher dimensions without SYNTHETIC STIMULANTS ie marijuana…lsd…thc…etc. have been “graduated” to other levels.

What happened to those whose testing came out not clear?…I dont know. BUT I want to encourage you all…if you’re reaching levels of consciousness under the influence of drugs…practice working at the same goal with no drugs.

The short cuts last but so long and the experiencing is not a continual building. You have to fall back down…get high again…and you dont end up where you left off…you just keep looping events or going only as far as the Void–twilight… but even in there you’re too relaxed to address your issues…instead you’re laying around wanting the mysteries to the multi-verses revealed to you just because you ask.

Im not negating your experiences… however…it feels good to have a clear mind…and not an experiment filled with “clouds” or “screens”…thats the smoke and film in your system…you dont even know whats going on cause youre so relaxed or afraid. Try projection and meditation without any substances.

Im sure I can do a whole intrepatation on just this experience alone …itll happen overtime as I apply my life to my purpose and my purpose to our lives.
10/25/2014

SElf-PROGRESS: Mercury Retrograde

This is the last night of MERCURY RETROGRADE….it was focused on addressing and clearing rooted issues that hinder our ability to grow and take on greater opportunities.

The MERCURY RETROGRADE was also focused on what growth we have acquired by “testing” our various higher abilities as lightworkers–in sleepstate and wake state scenarios. Many of us donot have as many issues as we thought…and have grown significantly. We’re just not always aware when and where to appropriately use our abilities…until the afterthought–what we should’ve said or done.

I discovered that I have the ability to detach easy…I think it’s ok. We often hear that people who detach are introverted and/depressed or…something negative. Being ones who live in heart…we tend to give genuinely and more often than not are hurt at some level..because we care. Humans request us then take what they want and then push us away. We then have the ability to detach and heal..AND get back in the water again–so to speak.

While many Watchers from the old empire believe we should stand by and not involve ourselves in human affairs…it is only in us TO be involved…otherwise we feel the sense of suffrage. So really there is a level of admiration toward us–because we’ve taken on the task of FEELING.

SO detachment can be seen as a good ability…we get a chance to rest and/or focus on our own projects for awhile.

Also I’ve found that mind expansion is not as complicated as so many experienced and/or nonexperienced people make it seem. When you become aware that you’re doing it…you realize you’ve been doing it. Every question, every wonder, every thought IS first in the multi-verse.

How many others have had the same idea as you? Or you thought someone “stole” YOUR idea? We’re all out there…we’re just reaching out to what already IS..as it reaches out to us.

First an thought/idea…a possibility…then an intention/desire…focus…work…then manifestation. Inspiration comes from spirit…from within…the multi-verse. Pay attention to inspiring thoughts within you.

Self Reflection: Don’t Hold It Against Me

Don’t Hold It Against Me

by Hurit Nititka

 

Don’t hold it against me…

because it’s evident that by our truths we are not all created equal.

 

For him…

the color of his skin automatically gets him in, whatever he wants,

no questions asked accept, what denomination would like your money in?

 

For her…

birth should be beautiful but instead they say… look at you, what did you do, you just ruined your life.

It would’ve been acceptable had he made you his wife.

 

For him…

a mistake cost him dearly, now he’s locked upstate,

moms kept warning him to stop….not hard enough,

cause his siblings was hungry, and shit got tough.

He knew the risks and still tried his luck.

 

For her…

family denied her cause she wouldn’t abort

so she moved in with him and the first night they fought,

and the second night, the third night and the fourth.

He beat her so bad she now has a limp, a flinch and nervous cough.

He suddenly lost his job and now she carryin’ TWO kids, and she thinkin’,

would it really have been different if we first got married?

 

And him…

he got struggles but they can’t see through the lives he juggle.

Best at his game, best at his lies, he thinks if he fuck enough girls…

they won’t know he like guys.

 

And them…

they all looks, fucked in all kind of industries, then made a milli…off a book.

But you know what?

If they get fucked hard to the soul they can live their dream,

they finer than pimps in suits sellin’ their scheme.

 

And you…

talent for sell…momma said do something better with ya life…

but you didn’t…o well.

A hundred bitches, a hundred lives, and a hundred thousand dollar rides, sir just sign there…

yeah right there on the dotted line.

Now, what denomination would you like your loan in?

 

So don’t hold it against me for seeing the evidence that our truths are not all created equal.

Self-Reflection: Black Hole

Black Hole
by Hurit Nitika

Consumed by all and nothing…
Highest greatest widest deepest fullest vessel…NOTHINGNESS.
Nothing IS.
IT is nothing…
until it is born.
Nothing bears all…thought time space matter…
…and nothing.
I was before
I AM.
I will…
…again
be
Nothingness…and all.
Forever.

Spiritual Dialogue: Checking In

It feels like a lot to bear and sometimes I think it is…though as I might appear to be OK. As I’ve said before, I’ve taught myself to left go of illusion in moments, spend as little time in void as possible, gain the new ledge I require, wake up, write on it, share some, and keep it moving.

I admit…there are consequences to doing that…consequences to not resting…going without grounding for long periods. The body gathers too much energy and it becomes that much harder to release…at lease in an upright manner. The body muscles freeze in pain…and sometimes it vibrates so hard…it burns the hands and feet…or feels like a thousand needles sticking.

…and sometimes I can’t believe some of the things I say…until it solidifies itself as truth…usually through some synchronized event.

Not to say I don’t trust myself…its just new to me as old as it might be to the ancestral realms…it be heavy at times…the realizations…and the awakenings. And a good amount of that time I thinking how much I put myself through…how much I messed up.

I rarely get upset with those who blinded us to the truth…cause then I’d still be giving them my attention…to their benefit and my detriment. I try to tell others but like myself…there are so many awakenings and realizations to go through…for all of us. Don’t get stuck on any one truth…because another one…a newer one is surely going to usurp that current one.

Still others like myself are fast-tracking…I have yet to admit the realization to the reason…if I slow down and focus on the details of why, I might fool myself into believing I can’t do it.

As we view the various groups traveling together…they travel as one external being..but in a fearful manner called SAFE. While there may be safety in numbers externally…everyone is not on the same path internally. Internally many still hold tight to illusion while externally appearing to have moved into higher frequencies. Our energies tell us otherwise. Internally, many still have yet to answer to themselves.

Knowledge and experience are two different things…many are sharing knowledge…few are sharing their experiences…proving internal fear…of ridicule..or something, someone or other. Or self.

And so this is part reason why I travel alone…and meet others at intervals. Though I also admit…I don’t stay around long enough…I feel because much like in wake state…I also carry dual duties in sleep state. I’m working on me and still having to show others the way.

By the time someone gets my message I done moved on in my journey…not saying I don’t mind back-tracking though. I probably just need to utilize more tools to set the message out front.

Resources have come about enabling us to imprint guidance into the ether via the writing, video, and such.

Thanks. Thank you. Much.

BEing Aware: Karma Doesn’t Have to Last a Lifetime

We all must put in the self-clearing work required–to revoke all agreements that we have made, either consciously or subconsciously to give our soul’s power away to external authorities. We experience unnecessary suffering or limitations, to bear “karmic” burdens that are NOT ours to bear.

This is not a quick process, and I am going through my own version of Karmic clearing on a daily basis. I’m so close within my own truth that sometimes I literally experience a chain of positive events on all “past present future” frequencies of self, when I do/be positive. And just a flip of my energy anywhere outside of my truth will thrust me into a quicksand of aggravation, distrust, causing dislike of self and limited un-thinking. In other words, we have the ability, when we are aware of SELF, to measure KARMA!

Who has time to worry about what “rackup” KARMA is holding when we’re working on ourselves in keeping in synch with our own truth? How does KARMA decide how much reward or punishment to dish out and when? In other words when we’re good, we’re really good, and we’re rewarded–by external forces? …and when we’re bad we’re really bad, and we’re punished–by external forces? Then why are negative forces “allowed” to enslave positive forces? Karma seems to dish that one out unfairly huh?

I AM as I AM. AWARE.

We seek to strike a balance among our many dimensional selves…some negative some positive but all acknowledged and respected.
We’ve come to a place where we know we’re are no longer experiencing “KARMA” but indeed we are experiencing SELF as I AM.

Sometimes we get “locked” into a particular frequency outside of our truth. When we make choices to “come down” and interact with anyone/anything unlike Self-truth, we experience a “sliding scale” of e-motions and/or beings…in other words…sometimes we ego trip…we compete…we compare…we judge(though we do redirect from that place very often)…we lust…we joke…we like material things too. (After all, we are multidimensional beings.) That doesn’t mean we’re going to suffer…for THINKING (contrary to popular fear belief).

We suffer in BEING in our lower frequencies–unaware.

We suffer when we are anywhere outside of our heart’s frequency…not by thinking but by BEING. In the lower frequencies, we do without thinking. In the higher frequencies, we think before being–we are aware. So though we sometimes THINK about “going down” we have plenty of time to not BEcome into our lower frequencies (though we live among so many others living in their lower beings). Our lower thoughts are not feared or hated,  instead, they are acknowledged and redirected back to our truth–where they are ex-posed and forgiven.

Many do get “locked” in low frequencies even though it may not be their heart’s intention (because they are not thinking in their higher aware self, just doing…and eventually BEing lowly). The longer those ones stay outside of their truth frequency the more lost they become.

We are experiencing our SELF awareness. There are no rules to our experiences, because we are aware and we create as we go along…and we do it freely–as a sovereign beings.

KARMA need no longer reflect SELF –I am aware. KARMA is an external law outside of SELF. We can easily believe (as I have before this inner realization) that whenever we do something “wrong” this KARMA being is going to “get us back for it–if not right now, then some time into the “future”, when we least expect it. Should we worry over it and tread heavy hearted on ice? No! That’s called guilt or shame–and we do not suffer when we void BEing in lower frequencies that produce guilt and shame.

We are aware of who we are, what we are doing, how we are doing it…we are BEing SELF. No more cycling…no karma. I AM SELF, AWARE.

Creative Power: Make a Wish and Let Go

We suffer with trust issues, because we suffer with control issues. We keep asking for something/someone (why ask for something if you can create it for yourself?)…and before our desired thought fully releases its “seed” into the creative universe we snatch control of the “seed” AND figure we can decide how it should BE-how it starts…grows out…AND finishes. Then if it/they become something unaligned with our desires we build a distrust for it/them! Then we feel “stuck” and develop a negative view of the whole outcome.

I think it was last night…somewhere in the universe…I heard in my thought vibration, “Let it stream. Void trying to control what hasn’t happened yet. Let the manifestation of the thought as IS develop simply by BEing true to you.” That higher directive can be used in every aspect of our life.

I’ve experienced and witnessed so many positive things develop in my life in just the last two years alone-simply because I let go and let God (highest universal frequency) create for me. I have a lovely home (sanctuary) that survived Hurricane Sandy in and of itself, while all around it was havoc (I imagined God put a “mark” on my door or an energy bubble around the whole complex), and also I now have a great career that pays more than I ever negotiated for my experience, skills, and abilities (I was unemployed for two years-loonngg years). My family is growing together positively.

Spiritually, I’m becoming stronger in my faith and growing a sturdy relationship in knowing God as the reason for my being. And I’m being better! My heart’s dialect enables me to tap into different frequencies and vibrations, and various timelines–for pleasure, sight-seeing, school, gatherings or inspiration to create.

Knowing what those seeds produced, I’m convinced that my desire to create a good solid relationship uplifted in love is no further than when I truly choose it to be–if I let go of the idea of how I think it SHOULD be. Just being true to myself will attract what I desire, all I have to do is be open and available.

In the mean time, it may be that we have some aspects of our self that require our attention, for healing purposes. I admit that there are some ways and beings that would benefit to uplift my indwelling love; and there are some ways and beings that I would benefit to purge from my DNA. Thus, I am being true to myself in being able to let go of negative hangups, embrace my higher being and heal–to the benefit of all.

There’s no way we keep saying we’re better off by ourselves than with someone and not feel some sort of negativity about the reason/s behind our statements. That is a form of control in the aspect that we think we’re protecting self from “harm”, when we’re actually attracting “harm” to self and distracting from self what we truly desire. We also say we’re too busy to give passionate love, but find time to greedily partake of others wholehearted passion. And when they’re unavailable we strike out in search of someone who is available to give to us. That is control in the aspect of seeking for something that another possesses while being too selfish in our lower self to create our own abundance–and share.

We will never be satisfied, and will be forever seeking–until we learn to let go of the idea of how others should make us happy and instead create our own abundance of happiness–and share. As we change the greater scheme changes.

When we trust ourselves, surely we can find trust in another. It’s the same with love, compassion, kindness, forgiveness and such. In expanded thought, we DO have the ability to “create” the person we want to be with…BUT to a fault. Because how can we put into another what we do not have in our self? What is that one or two (and more for some) things you can’t seem to find in your relationships and/or that you want in that other person? Whatever it is, create it in YOU first.

But then again, if you’re an energy vampire(admit it to yourself) or have the ability to quickly detach (to void confrontation), than you are one of those who accepts people just as they are…to do what you will to only your benefit, because you either lack consistent clean energy and/or you possess a deficient self creativity “gland”.

However, when you know yourself, you know that whatever you create and then share, there’s plenty more where that came from–the universe in you.

You can create the man or woman IN your dream, but you are the creator OF your dream. Whatever is in you, you have the ability to create in reality-and whatever you put into your creation, will be reflected back to you.

I am grateful to God and all others. Peace Love and Harmony to you.
1/1/2014