I “dreamed” last night that the water was coming up on shore….the house I was in was being covered in black dirt by some black worker men. I heard a man say “We’re preparing against the storm coming.”
I went to the top floor and looked out the window and the water was coming… there was nothing left.
I saw that there was only one other house that was covered it had a light coming from it. What I saw all I could say was JESUS! My heart skipped a beat and thumped and I fell back from the window.
I had a conversation with an associate…we talked about be single for very long times and how we view ourselves and the kind of relationships we’ve had that caused us to become single, and where are we going now. She recently got back into a relationship…I asked her what is it based on this time, she seemed puzzled. I asked her what their goals are together, she looked at me like “What goals??”
THAT is the next phase I’m going into…as much as humans say marriage is not a goal. Marriage is a goal like any other. And within the marriage are goals that the two people agreed to achieve together. There are people out there who move blindly(seeing what pops up along the way), and there are people who move consciously(creating what they desire along the way). Four seasons suffices to know whether you want to marry a person or not..whether you want to achieve longtime goals with them or not.
Too many sisters fall back into the okkee doke of “It’s been a long time, I’m lonely.” Sex is such a common base that it’s mistaken as a necessary aspect to bond two people…clearly the result is “baby mama/dada” syndrome…it never bonds anything but bodies and fluids. There are only two goals in sex…babies and orgasm. And then play house until one of you catch afire for another body somewhere. Believe I know it. I’m qualified to talk about it. A year is long enough to know whether you’re dating a selfless person or a selfish person. Why? Because selfish people don’t have patience anymore like they use to..if you aint got it or ain’t giving it, they’ll get it somewhere else. And they’ll tell you that! After a year the veil begins to thin into the truth…not what they want you to see…but the TRUTH. And sometimes the truth can be ugly! A lot of selfless people are dating some ugly people! But you ask them..and their ugly man/woman is the most beautiful thing in the world! That’s some strong wool in their mind.
Not to mention the reality shows showing sistahs beating the bloody hell out of each other to be with some dusty male who believes he benefits from his “hoes” unconscious idiocy. Two years and more is too long to fake the funk…the signs are too easy to see when you’ve become conscious. Four seasons is long enough to ask the ultimate question to the brother, “Where are we going from here?”
Right now for me, I’m dodging traffic… I’m conscious enough to see bullshit coming…conscious enough to hear what I can’t see coming. Conscious enough to step back when there’s too much of everything or nothing going on. No rush, I can always chill and write about it. In our reapings are the conscious wisdoms of the ignorance we sowed. If we’re seeking to cross the street, we have to acknowledge what we’re crossing from, lest we think it’s something different only to find out it’s the same thing.
We’re not to call on God to escape from life but help us to consciously grow into our better and best selves.
I am at times in admiration at the power of foregiveness. God knows where we are…and what we’ve gotten ourselves into…and STILL comes to our rescue when we call….at anytime!
When I went deep into expansion I imagined that when Yeshua came through and paid the ransom for his brethren with his own life…that only God in him KNEW what was to become of us….looong before we even got to these places we each are in! He HAD to know! And surely he was greatly concerned in knowing that we would turn our minds away from God at some point; it was studied and measured to be a sure thing…multiple times. Otherwise WHY would Yeshua ask that we be FOREgiven of our lower beings…because we know not what we are doing? They saw it in advance!
Much like many of us “dream” into the future about events…I call them possibilities. Surely had he not asked God in advance to foregive us….we would be catching fire instantly upon sin…and death would come over the land to live. If you’ve ever smelled sulfur…you’ve smelled death. So I say that to say this…the power of FOREgiveness is indeed a God ability!
I’ve heard people say that they can’t forgive so easily…or even at all. That they have to get to give. You really must be able to see another as you want to be seen. Respect as you wanted to be respected. Love as you want to be loved. Teach as you want to be taught. FOREgive as you want to be forgiven. Foregiveness is love. You don’t have to have a whole lot of money before you set another free, after all Yeshua did not pay a literal dime. In showing us how to raise up out of sin and spiritual blindness he paid with his life. And even though Yeshua KNEW the risks and the end result, he STILL took the mission!
That is foregiving love! God had to come down for self to see what was going on with us! When God saw how we were spiritually blinded…God was disgusted but understood better what was going on. The program somewhat changed. Yeshua being the compassionate man that he is was moved by his brethren intent to be good while living in spiritual blindness…we didn’t even know we were blind until we were able to see!
So, he made a plea on behalf of us (remember he asked that we be FOREgiven love even in our sin because we knew not what we were doing, we were spiritually blinded, and when we are loosed, we are judged, washed, cleared, and reborn in our christ heart. All while still living in the world! It doesn’t mean we are now perfect…it just means we are saved from the the wrath of the lords of the world, not our flesh, our souls. Provided we maintain our newer and higher frequencies (I admit is hard at times but doable with self-love and spiritual education, strong supports…because spiritual warfare is reality to being spiritually awakened)), and an agreement was reached via permission of God and council with the lords of the world.
There is a certain amount of time we can be kept spiritually blind before the whole of God’s children MUST be set free, from the lords of the world. And for a long time we’ve been dwelling in sins of the world. For those of us who are coming out of spiritual blindness…we feel that we are “just in time”.
Because the agreement is coming to an end….and with all the negative upsurges happening on this planet….which side do YOU think…isn’t keeping up their end of the contract? One thing that holds true to transformation….after chaos is order. Foregive someone today…whatever it is…it is love. Forgive yourself! Ask God to forgive you too! We all need foregiveness…because we all miss the mark…and sin.
It’s good to know there’s a loving God to rescue you…and show you your sin, guide you better into how to hit the jewels eye right on point…activating wisdom sense, opening up whole other dimensions…revealing possibilities of plenty!
I think some people serve a God without details and still others serve details without God…if only many people knew how limited they are by focusing on trying not to sin as oppose to simply serving in the better part of themselves and others. I feel some type of way when someone focuses so hard on not sinning (missing the mark) that they don’t realize they never actually live for the hits…the good hits of life. When a person presumes to know where you are in your life in Christ by measuring where their self is…is a sin…a miss…every time. One thing I learned directly from God is “Only God judges all man fairly.”
When I get into the truth of my religious experience (which is different for everyone while the core heart purpose may be the same) people go into denial and onto the notion of telling me what SHOULD be happening while ignoring what IS happening. That’s where false judgement comes in…and the whole “that’s the devil tricking you” or “did you take your meds you sound crazy”. Honestly it causes me to stall or chug along in hesitation–not fully express.
I thank God for being in my life…for being my life. For allowing me in the capacity that I am to travel to other dimensions and interact with all kinds of beings (that would shock some people to white hair) We all get low in our thinking/being daily…we’re human. But the heart…no man knows our hearts…and it is with our hearts that we serve the universe religiously.
If tomorrow this planet rolled over I wouldn’t care…that doesn’t mean I’m going to neglect the life that I am living right now or purposely be poor so not to feel guilt that others don’t have or not beautify myself to make others feel beautiful. I’d be denying my life and every one of my cocurrent states and every possibility of growing or moving pass the point I stand today…! You see some people don’t want you to grow..they tell you you’re here to live, obey your government, work and die. And hey if you believe it you can achieve it!
I’m continuously uplifting and part of uplifting yourself is you gotta leave your sad stories and your abusive stories and your lonely stories alone. Let the dead bury the dead. So in serving humanity and others religiously we can relate to others but we don’t have to get low with them…and open ourselves to reflect others sins. Because its not us! We can tell our GOOD stories and keep telling them..how we’ve grown and learn to keep growing and enjoy the fruit of our labor. Think about it, if we all keep telling the same stories around and around who’s really growing anywhere out of the “program”?
Check in with God see where you’re at and grow some more but you don’t have to accept being reminded of your sin/s by anyone. Put them type out your life and let the dead bury the dead. Because you…we are living our truths from where WE each are…not from where peoples judgements lie. Knowing all I know, I’m very much infected by human thought viruses. And if I’m not constantly checking in with God, I become sickened mentally and physically. I was made aware of such last night. That I’m somewhat of a lightening rod for selfish and needy humans. A place where they can take and not give. That person understood me to the dot in “i”.
No two sins are alike. My sin is that in caring for others and about how they receive my care and messages…I tend to hold back God in sharing the details. When in all universal honestly, it is God that I need–to be able to give and be replenished without being rendered weakened and sick for lengths of time. Getting caught up in work was my excuse. But there are really no excuses are there? The very thing we are caught up in is the very think God can help us manage and still serve our higher purpose. We all can make time to check in with God. Where are you missing the mark in your life?
I was told last night to “Let it go and let God flow all through it!” I am glad someone told me…cause while I often tell others and myself…I needed to hear it from another like myself–God sent a confirmation. God loves me…and God loves you. God is working on me and I’m grateful. And still I serve. Hopes in that this passage will help you in some area of your life. Bless
Don’t Hold It Against Me
by Hurit Nititka
Don’t hold it against me…
because it’s evident that by our truths we are not all created equal.
For him…
the color of his skin automatically gets him in, whatever he wants,
no questions asked accept, what denomination would like your money in?
For her…
birth should be beautiful but instead they say… look at you, what did you do, you just ruined your life.
It would’ve been acceptable had he made you his wife.
For him…
a mistake cost him dearly, now he’s locked upstate,
moms kept warning him to stop….not hard enough,
cause his siblings was hungry, and shit got tough.
He knew the risks and still tried his luck.
For her…
family denied her cause she wouldn’t abort
so she moved in with him and the first night they fought,
and the second night, the third night and the fourth.
He beat her so bad she now has a limp, a flinch and nervous cough.
He suddenly lost his job and now she carryin’ TWO kids, and she thinkin’,
would it really have been different if we first got married?
And him…
he got struggles but they can’t see through the lives he juggle.
Best at his game, best at his lies, he thinks if he fuck enough girls…
they won’t know he like guys.
And them…
they all looks, fucked in all kind of industries, then made a milli…off a book.
But you know what?
If they get fucked hard to the soul they can live their dream,
they finer than pimps in suits sellin’ their scheme.
And you…
talent for sell…momma said do something better with ya life…
but you didn’t…o well.
A hundred bitches, a hundred lives, and a hundred thousand dollar rides, sir just sign there…
yeah right there on the dotted line.
Now, what denomination would you like your loan in?
So don’t hold it against me for seeing the evidence that our truths are not all created equal.
Black Hole
by Hurit Nitika
Consumed by all and nothing…
Highest greatest widest deepest fullest vessel…NOTHINGNESS.
Nothing IS.
IT is nothing…
until it is born.
Nothing bears all…thought time space matter…
…and nothing.
I was before
I AM.
I will…
…again
be
Nothingness…and all.
Forever.
Sadie and Maud
by Gwendolyn Brooks
Maud went to college.
Sadie stayed at home.
Sadie scraped life
with a fine-tooth comb.
She didn’t leave a tangle in.
Her comb found every strand.
Sadie was one of the livingest chits
in all the land.
Sadie bore two babies
under her maiden name.
Maud and Ma and Papa
nearly died of shame.
When Sadie said last so-long
Her girls struck out from home.
(Sadie had left as heritage
Her fine-tooth comb.)
Maud, who went to college,
is a thin brown mouse.
She is living all alone
In this old house.
