We suffer with trust issues, because we suffer with control issues. We keep asking for something/someone (why ask for something if you can create it for yourself?)…and before our desired thought fully releases its “seed” into the creative universe we snatch control of the “seed” AND figure we can decide how it should BE-how it starts…grows out…AND finishes. Then if it/they become something unaligned with our desires we build a distrust for it/them! Then we feel “stuck” and develop a negative view of the whole outcome.

I think it was last night…somewhere in the universe…I heard in my thought vibration, “Let it stream. Void trying to control what hasn’t happened yet. Let the manifestation of the thought as IS develop simply by BEing true to you.” That higher directive can be used in every aspect of our life.

I’ve experienced and witnessed so many positive things develop in my life in just the last two years alone-simply because I let go and let God (highest universal frequency) create for me. I have a lovely home (sanctuary) that survived Hurricane Sandy in and of itself, while all around it was havoc (I imagined God put a “mark” on my door or an energy bubble around the whole complex), and also I now have a great career that pays more than I ever negotiated for my experience, skills, and abilities (I was unemployed for two years-loonngg years). My family is growing together positively.

Spiritually, I’m becoming stronger in my faith and growing a sturdy relationship in knowing God as the reason for my being. And I’m being better! My heart’s dialect enables me to tap into different frequencies and vibrations, and various timelines–for pleasure, sight-seeing, school, gatherings or inspiration to create.

Knowing what those seeds produced, I’m convinced that my desire to create a good solid relationship uplifted in love is no further than when I truly choose it to be–if I let go of the idea of how I think it SHOULD be. Just being true to myself will attract what I desire, all I have to do is be open and available.

In the mean time, it may be that we have some aspects of our self that require our attention, for healing purposes. I admit that there are some ways and beings that would benefit to uplift my indwelling love; and there are some ways and beings that I would benefit to purge from my DNA. Thus, I am being true to myself in being able to let go of negative hangups, embrace my higher being and heal–to the benefit of all.

There’s no way we keep saying we’re better off by ourselves than with someone and not feel some sort of negativity about the reason/s behind our statements. That is a form of control in the aspect that we think we’re protecting self from “harm”, when we’re actually attracting “harm” to self and distracting from self what we truly desire. We also say we’re too busy to give passionate love, but find time to greedily partake of others wholehearted passion. And when they’re unavailable we strike out in search of someone who is available to give to us. That is control in the aspect of seeking for something that another possesses while being too selfish in our lower self to create our own abundance–and share.

We will never be satisfied, and will be forever seeking–until we learn to let go of the idea of how others should make us happy and instead create our own abundance of happiness–and share. As we change the greater scheme changes.

When we trust ourselves, surely we can find trust in another. It’s the same with love, compassion, kindness, forgiveness and such. In expanded thought, we DO have the ability to “create” the person we want to be with…BUT to a fault. Because how can we put into another what we do not have in our self? What is that one or two (and more for some) things you can’t seem to find in your relationships and/or that you want in that other person? Whatever it is, create it in YOU first.

But then again, if you’re an energy vampire(admit it to yourself) or have the ability to quickly detach (to void confrontation), than you are one of those who accepts people just as they are…to do what you will to only your benefit, because you either lack consistent clean energy and/or you possess a deficient self creativity “gland”.

However, when you know yourself, you know that whatever you create and then share, there’s plenty more where that came from–the universe in you.

You can create the man or woman IN your dream, but you are the creator OF your dream. Whatever is in you, you have the ability to create in reality-and whatever you put into your creation, will be reflected back to you.

I am grateful to God and all others. Peace Love and Harmony to you.
1/1/2014