Tune Up: Check In with God

I think some people serve a God without details and still others serve details without God…if only many people knew how limited they are by focusing on trying not to sin as oppose to simply serving in the better part of themselves and others. I feel some type of way when someone focuses so hard on not sinning (missing the mark) that they don’t realize they never actually live for the hits…the good hits of life. When a person presumes to know where you are in your life in Christ by measuring where their self is…is a sin…a miss…every time. One thing I learned directly from God is “Only God judges all man fairly.”

When I get into the truth of my religious experience (which is different for everyone while the core heart purpose may be the same) people go into denial and onto the notion of telling me what SHOULD be happening while ignoring what IS happening. That’s where false judgement comes in…and the whole “that’s the devil tricking you” or “did you take your meds you sound crazy”. Honestly it causes me to stall or chug along in hesitation–not fully express.

I thank God for being in my life…for being my life. For allowing me in the capacity that I am to travel to other dimensions and interact with all kinds of beings (that would shock some people to white hair) We all get low in our thinking/being daily…we’re human. But the heart…no man knows our hearts…and it is with our hearts that we serve the universe religiously.

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If tomorrow this planet rolled over I wouldn’t care…that doesn’t mean I’m going to neglect the life that I am living right now or purposely be poor so not to feel guilt that others don’t have or not beautify myself to make others feel beautiful. I’d be denying my life and every one of my cocurrent states and every possibility of growing or moving pass the point I stand today…! You see some people don’t want you to grow..they tell you you’re here to live, obey your government, work and die. And hey if you believe it you can achieve it!

I’m continuously uplifting and part of uplifting yourself is you gotta leave your sad stories and your abusive stories and your lonely stories alone. Let the dead bury the dead. So in serving humanity and others religiously we can relate to others but we don’t have to get low with them…and open ourselves to reflect others sins. Because its not us! We can tell our GOOD stories and keep telling them..how we’ve grown and learn to keep growing and enjoy the fruit of our labor. Think about it, if we all keep telling the same stories around and around who’s really growing anywhere out of the “program”?

Check in with God see where you’re at and grow some more but you don’t have to accept being reminded of your sin/s by anyone. Put them type out your life and let the dead bury the dead. Because you…we are living our truths from where WE each are…not from where peoples judgements lie. Knowing all I know, I’m very much infected by human thought viruses. And if I’m not constantly checking in with God, I become sickened mentally and physically. I was made aware of such last night. That I’m somewhat of a lightening rod for selfish and needy humans. A place where they can take and not give. That person understood me to the dot in “i”.

No two sins are alike. My sin is that in caring for others and about how they receive my care and messages…I tend to hold back God in sharing the details. When in all universal honestly, it is God that I need–to be able to give and be replenished without being rendered weakened and sick for lengths of time. Getting caught up in work was my excuse. But there are really no excuses are there? The very thing we are caught up in is the very think God can help us manage and still serve our higher purpose. We all can make time to check in with God. Where are you missing the mark in your life?

I was told last night to “Let it go and let God flow all through it!” I am glad someone told me…cause while I often tell others and myself…I needed to hear it from another like myself–God sent a confirmation. God loves me…and God loves you. God is working on me and I’m grateful. And still I serve. Hopes in that this passage will help you in some area of your life. Bless

Spiritual Dialogue: Vibrational Storms

Problem: I end up in fear every time I plan to go to the dance club. I plan with people and then as the day is coming closer I think of reasons not to go. I think about my responsibilities at home, my family, my job, what the people at the club  will be doing, and what if something goes wrong. Then on the day of, I literally get an anxiety attack, and that becomes my excuse not to go. Then I feel safe again when the time has passed.

As a result, I’ve lost a lot of friends. Is this all in my head or should I really stay away from party clubs? I really do want to be social, make new friends, and have a good time while being responsible.

Solution: You are suffering with inner imbalance. Your external environment seeks to transform your inner peace, while your higher awareness is trying to maintain your inner peace.

What you fear is going “back” to where you use to be and what you use to do…and finding out that people haven’t changed.

Whatever is on that frequency, the people, plants, animals, is because their vibrations match that particular frequency. They are “locked” in that frequency, until they are ready to change. Your fear is actually an indication that you’ve grown or matured beyond that frequency. Your “present” vibrations are contrasting with your “past” frequencies, which never actually go anywhere, you just grow beyond them. Your fear, which is in fact a healthy signal, is telling you to be aware that something is not right between your inner state and in your external environment.

Humans are much like weather systems within a greater system. Sometimes before a pouring rain, is thunder and lightening. Thunder and lightening is caused by two very different temperament systems coming in contact with each other, so it is within humans. Within you may be a peaceful vibration, and  going into certain external vibrations can cause an unbalance in your being, thus the anxiety. The external vibrations are seeking to occupy and take over the same internal space, thus creating your thunder and lightening. The result will be a high or low, or happiness or unhappiness.

You are experiencing an internal/external “battle” within your mpral conscious mind. This “battle” causes unbalance in your whole being, which for many people, can result in mental and/or physical illness, if they are unaware of their inner unbalance.

If you listen to your vibrations warnings and take the steps necessary to redirect your thoughts early, you can void “falling” back into old ways–lower frequencies.

Instead of fighting with yourself about having a good time in old places, try something new…something different than what you did before. Meet new people where you are. Your goal is to enjoy your new life responsibly while being at peace within yourself, and being happy where you are and with the people you are around.

BEing Aware: Karma Doesn’t Have to Last a Lifetime

We all must put in the self-clearing work required–to revoke all agreements that we have made, either consciously or subconsciously to give our soul’s power away to external authorities. We experience unnecessary suffering or limitations, to bear “karmic” burdens that are NOT ours to bear.

This is not a quick process, and I am going through my own version of Karmic clearing on a daily basis. I’m so close within my own truth that sometimes I literally experience a chain of positive events on all “past present future” frequencies of self, when I do/be positive. And just a flip of my energy anywhere outside of my truth will thrust me into a quicksand of aggravation, distrust, causing dislike of self and limited un-thinking. In other words, we have the ability, when we are aware of SELF, to measure KARMA!

Who has time to worry about what “rackup” KARMA is holding when we’re working on ourselves in keeping in synch with our own truth? How does KARMA decide how much reward or punishment to dish out and when? In other words when we’re good, we’re really good, and we’re rewarded–by external forces? …and when we’re bad we’re really bad, and we’re punished–by external forces? Then why are negative forces “allowed” to enslave positive forces? Karma seems to dish that one out unfairly huh?

I AM as I AM. AWARE.

We seek to strike a balance among our many dimensional selves…some negative some positive but all acknowledged and respected.
We’ve come to a place where we know we’re are no longer experiencing “KARMA” but indeed we are experiencing SELF as I AM.

Sometimes we get “locked” into a particular frequency outside of our truth. When we make choices to “come down” and interact with anyone/anything unlike Self-truth, we experience a “sliding scale” of e-motions and/or beings…in other words…sometimes we ego trip…we compete…we compare…we judge(though we do redirect from that place very often)…we lust…we joke…we like material things too. (After all, we are multidimensional beings.) That doesn’t mean we’re going to suffer…for THINKING (contrary to popular fear belief).

We suffer in BEING in our lower frequencies–unaware.

We suffer when we are anywhere outside of our heart’s frequency…not by thinking but by BEING. In the lower frequencies, we do without thinking. In the higher frequencies, we think before being–we are aware. So though we sometimes THINK about “going down” we have plenty of time to not BEcome into our lower frequencies (though we live among so many others living in their lower beings). Our lower thoughts are not feared or hated,  instead, they are acknowledged and redirected back to our truth–where they are ex-posed and forgiven.

Many do get “locked” in low frequencies even though it may not be their heart’s intention (because they are not thinking in their higher aware self, just doing…and eventually BEing lowly). The longer those ones stay outside of their truth frequency the more lost they become.

We are experiencing our SELF awareness. There are no rules to our experiences, because we are aware and we create as we go along…and we do it freely–as a sovereign beings.

KARMA need no longer reflect SELF –I am aware. KARMA is an external law outside of SELF. We can easily believe (as I have before this inner realization) that whenever we do something “wrong” this KARMA being is going to “get us back for it–if not right now, then some time into the “future”, when we least expect it. Should we worry over it and tread heavy hearted on ice? No! That’s called guilt or shame–and we do not suffer when we void BEing in lower frequencies that produce guilt and shame.

We are aware of who we are, what we are doing, how we are doing it…we are BEing SELF. No more cycling…no karma. I AM SELF, AWARE.

Creative Power: Make a Wish and Let Go

We suffer with trust issues, because we suffer with control issues. We keep asking for something/someone (why ask for something if you can create it for yourself?)…and before our desired thought fully releases its “seed” into the creative universe we snatch control of the “seed” AND figure we can decide how it should BE-how it starts…grows out…AND finishes. Then if it/they become something unaligned with our desires we build a distrust for it/them! Then we feel “stuck” and develop a negative view of the whole outcome.

I think it was last night…somewhere in the universe…I heard in my thought vibration, “Let it stream. Void trying to control what hasn’t happened yet. Let the manifestation of the thought as IS develop simply by BEing true to you.” That higher directive can be used in every aspect of our life.

I’ve experienced and witnessed so many positive things develop in my life in just the last two years alone-simply because I let go and let God (highest universal frequency) create for me. I have a lovely home (sanctuary) that survived Hurricane Sandy in and of itself, while all around it was havoc (I imagined God put a “mark” on my door or an energy bubble around the whole complex), and also I now have a great career that pays more than I ever negotiated for my experience, skills, and abilities (I was unemployed for two years-loonngg years). My family is growing together positively.

Spiritually, I’m becoming stronger in my faith and growing a sturdy relationship in knowing God as the reason for my being. And I’m being better! My heart’s dialect enables me to tap into different frequencies and vibrations, and various timelines–for pleasure, sight-seeing, school, gatherings or inspiration to create.

Knowing what those seeds produced, I’m convinced that my desire to create a good solid relationship uplifted in love is no further than when I truly choose it to be–if I let go of the idea of how I think it SHOULD be. Just being true to myself will attract what I desire, all I have to do is be open and available.

In the mean time, it may be that we have some aspects of our self that require our attention, for healing purposes. I admit that there are some ways and beings that would benefit to uplift my indwelling love; and there are some ways and beings that I would benefit to purge from my DNA. Thus, I am being true to myself in being able to let go of negative hangups, embrace my higher being and heal–to the benefit of all.

There’s no way we keep saying we’re better off by ourselves than with someone and not feel some sort of negativity about the reason/s behind our statements. That is a form of control in the aspect that we think we’re protecting self from “harm”, when we’re actually attracting “harm” to self and distracting from self what we truly desire. We also say we’re too busy to give passionate love, but find time to greedily partake of others wholehearted passion. And when they’re unavailable we strike out in search of someone who is available to give to us. That is control in the aspect of seeking for something that another possesses while being too selfish in our lower self to create our own abundance–and share.

We will never be satisfied, and will be forever seeking–until we learn to let go of the idea of how others should make us happy and instead create our own abundance of happiness–and share. As we change the greater scheme changes.

When we trust ourselves, surely we can find trust in another. It’s the same with love, compassion, kindness, forgiveness and such. In expanded thought, we DO have the ability to “create” the person we want to be with…BUT to a fault. Because how can we put into another what we do not have in our self? What is that one or two (and more for some) things you can’t seem to find in your relationships and/or that you want in that other person? Whatever it is, create it in YOU first.

But then again, if you’re an energy vampire(admit it to yourself) or have the ability to quickly detach (to void confrontation), than you are one of those who accepts people just as they are…to do what you will to only your benefit, because you either lack consistent clean energy and/or you possess a deficient self creativity “gland”.

However, when you know yourself, you know that whatever you create and then share, there’s plenty more where that came from–the universe in you.

You can create the man or woman IN your dream, but you are the creator OF your dream. Whatever is in you, you have the ability to create in reality-and whatever you put into your creation, will be reflected back to you.

I am grateful to God and all others. Peace Love and Harmony to you.
1/1/2014

Be There

The greatest love I ever had was the love I could not see. When I felt detached I thought it a dream and fought to see what I could not feel.
But I forgot in all the time I searched to see, I was losing the feeling inside of me. And looked to fill the emptiness with a veil of pretentious.
This whole thing isn’t about moving forward in so much as it is letting go. We can’t take it with us if it ain’t us. Accepting that pains us.
We know better when we get here. Then we forget. Then we remember. We go back. Then come back and then realize we can’t take it back with us.

You don’t know gut wrenching pain until you realize you separated yourself from GodSpirit. But to hear your ancestors did the same. Forgive it.

Think That Big And Be Better

My thoughts in God have been so amazing in 2012 alone. The many conversations, training simulations on “how to BE”, the peaceful walks in places beyond what I ever thought to think. The preparations, the guidance; all so beautiful.

I used to have a crippling fear of death that I wouldn’t sleep for nights. I cured it in my God state.
I judged mySelf to be a worse person than I was so I was afraid to be saved. I’m saved.
I thought I couldn’t BE by mySelf outside of a relationship. I AM.
God knows Im honored to have been blessed with children. My change is greatly reflected in them, as they are my greatest and most consistent creations thus far.

Feeling the changes and noticing subtle differences in this world compared to the old world, I continue to diligently work on blending my dreams into my current reality. I sometimes think they’re just too big or that my dreams are had before its time. That only means the trinkets of this world aint doing much for my particular being these days. What I desire, money can’t afford. Peace, Love, and Harmony. Many desire these beings, so we BE.

I no longer believe that there is an entity separate from me looking to reign hell down on me, other than man. My christ in me is only as faithful and committed as my will is assuredly strong in christ.

I often hear a people griping and arguing about whom to praise, and what race should that whom be. As children we are ignorant. Our parents and grandparents grew up in a time of fear-based doctrine. They only taught us (beat into us their fear). We were taught to praise Jesus the man, whom most assume is of white persuasion. Coming into adulthood we are learned by our environment and experiences that Jesus may or may not be black. I only ever see white light, or golden showers of all the ascended masters I encounter. So for me, the argument is void. My heart tells me that I have to see things for myself to experience, otherwise I’d just still be discussing my life away and not doing what I came here to do.

Then somewhere between the new religious church and the world’s view that church is a hip-hop phrase, most get confused and abandon ship. The line between the two seems to have merged. Did the church step into the world or did the world go into the church?

May I say to all who listen. It is much easier said than done to unlearn something ingrained in us from childhood; but it is doable.

Others projections hinders a people from creating in each his/her own mind. There’s no time like NOW. At the same time that we remove something from ourSelves, something must take its place, lest we feel empty within, or unfulfilled. Fill your emptiness with God. Feel God and let God fill you.

The mind is so powerful, and man knows this! YOU know this! The invader never takes something from its host without giving something back. The give back is not good. An invader also has the ability to paralyze its host/victim, feed off of it, and then either let it die slowly or suddenly cause it a quick death, should it no longer serve its immediate purpose. In other words, the victim doesn’t know its being fed on because its been desensitized.

Victims don’t know they are victims (slaves). They are given a false sense of perception, never knowing the true; unless some particular chord is touch out of nowhere, plucked. They deny the slight feeling. It happens again. Pluck Pluck. They get to listening for it. Pluck Pluck, wake up. They look around and then at themselves, only to see parts missing. The pain hits! What the hell is going on?! Flashes of their old whole Self. What happened?! Why am I here?!  My God! I gotta save mySelf before I die. WHO got me like this?!

Now, upon waking, we first have to fight against that which feeds off us. Some of us may even fight for a while then give up and don’t even work to live for ourSelves anymore.

Those of us that keep fighting eventually learn that in order to save ourselves we have to keep looking within ourselves, removing the poison and adding self-care, to heal our whole Self. At some point, we learn that the stronger we become, the greater our strength and abilities become.

Eventually, the invader understands it no longer has the ability to control you.

Imagine if we all realized that we’re being fed off of and then we answer to that plucking chord in our spine, and then wake up and save ourSelves! The invader would break down and leave. Leaving us to live in peace again.

Think that big and BE more.
Bless

Self-Being: Embrace Your Whole Self And Keep Peace Within

When a young child sees its shadow, he/she becomes defensive and attempts to “get rid of it”. Children throw air punches, stomp at it, and even shout at their shadows.
Children are light-workers within their own rights. They encompass truth, love, joy, compassion, empathy, and such. In my dreams, I often see circles of dancing and singing children at the top of something as the sun rises in the east. On one occasion, I was encircled by many of them as they singed and danced—the light was so warm. I danced with them. We were all in a peaceful place.
Children who become alarmed at seeing their shadows become into a momentary state of encountering physical darkness (not night time). They’re alarmed because the environment is light and suddenly this dark thing is attached to them—doing everything they do—without a face or anything else of matter—other than darkness.
I’ve observed this “struggle” in my own children at one time or another; and as well as other children. Avoid calling the child names or snapping at them. Give them about two minutes to interact with their selves. Just observe quietly(unless they begin to attack their physical self, which I’ve seen children ripping at clothing and more). Then intervene by bringing them back into a peaceful state. Explain to them that their shadow doesn’t go anywhere, even when they can’t see it. It’s a part of their being.
There’s a lesson to be learned about embracing ones own lightness as well as darkness to keep Self-peace, within and without. ALL IS and IS NOT. ALL is light and dark, up and down, here and there, and everywhere and nowhere. One must embrace that which they ARE NOT as much as that which they ARE. Fighting against yourSelf will only leave you to always have something to be distracted by other than the betterment of yourSelf—your peace.
Acknowledge your dark side as well as your light side. Your ego is still there, its just that NOW your life is guided by your higher beings; your positive Self. This higher being raises your frequencies. Ego loves a fight, to be noticed—to be in control to serve itself through your ignorance; and it is ego that keeps your frequencies low.
To obtain and keep peace within yourSelf, acknowledge your light and dark selves. Bless your whole Self and also bless those beings that do not serve to evolve your higher Self—and let them go, and avoid seeking those things out again. Live your truth. Bless
Gem:
When one is thinking about/doing something, there’s a certain vibration or energy that works specifically with thought processing—I like to think of it as God‘s will coming in before my actions. If the though does not match the vibrations of ones higher self,  a “battle” with their ego happens. A lot of Self convincing to down right ignorance goes on during a “ego battle”.
Now, if you decide to go with your higher self (higher vibrations)…you continue on to prosper in peace and joy and love; time is not a factor. Simple as that!
If you decide to go with your ego….well now. Let’s see:
You get an instant false feel-good gratification—until the thing you chose is taken away or used up. Then you have emotional imbalances/dis-eases (regret, shame, guilt, depression, anger, etc. Then you smack your forehead, “I KNEW better! I shouldn’t have done that! Damn, I should’ve listened to mySelf!!” Now you either wallow in more dis-ease with your yourself, blame yourSelf for not being strong and dwell in self-pity, OR,  you’ll get up, admit to yourself you were wrong, ask for forgiveness unto yourself and God. Go start again on the higher chord or choose something else to better yourself.
Either way, it’s still your choice, but why all the unnecessary pain if you know better?
Bless