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Tune Up: Check In with God

I think some people serve a God without details and still others serve details without God…if only many people knew how limited they are by focusing on trying not to sin as oppose to simply serving in the better part of themselves and others. I feel some type of way when someone focuses so hard on not sinning (missing the mark) that they don’t realize they never actually live for the hits…the good hits of life. When a person presumes to know where you are in your life in Christ by measuring where their self is…is a sin…a miss…every time. One thing I learned directly from God is “Only God judges all man fairly.”

When I get into the truth of my religious experience (which is different for everyone while the core heart purpose may be the same) people go into denial and onto the notion of telling me what SHOULD be happening while ignoring what IS happening. That’s where false judgement comes in…and the whole “that’s the devil tricking you” or “did you take your meds you sound crazy”. Honestly it causes me to stall or chug along in hesitation–not fully express.

I thank God for being in my life…for being my life. For allowing me in the capacity that I am to travel to other dimensions and interact with all kinds of beings (that would shock some people to white hair) We all get low in our thinking/being daily…we’re human. But the heart…no man knows our hearts…and it is with our hearts that we serve the universe religiously.

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If tomorrow this planet rolled over I wouldn’t care…that doesn’t mean I’m going to neglect the life that I am living right now or purposely be poor so not to feel guilt that others don’t have or not beautify myself to make others feel beautiful. I’d be denying my life and every one of my cocurrent states and every possibility of growing or moving pass the point I stand today…! You see some people don’t want you to grow..they tell you you’re here to live, obey your government, work and die. And hey if you believe it you can achieve it!

I’m continuously uplifting and part of uplifting yourself is you gotta leave your sad stories and your abusive stories and your lonely stories alone. Let the dead bury the dead. So in serving humanity and others religiously we can relate to others but we don’t have to get low with them…and open ourselves to reflect others sins. Because its not us! We can tell our GOOD stories and keep telling them..how we’ve grown and learn to keep growing and enjoy the fruit of our labor. Think about it, if we all keep telling the same stories around and around who’s really growing anywhere out of the “program”?

Check in with God see where you’re at and grow some more but you don’t have to accept being reminded of your sin/s by anyone. Put them type out your life and let the dead bury the dead. Because you…we are living our truths from where WE each are…not from where peoples judgements lie. Knowing all I know, I’m very much infected by human thought viruses. And if I’m not constantly checking in with God, I become sickened mentally and physically. I was made aware of such last night. That I’m somewhat of a lightening rod for selfish and needy humans. A place where they can take and not give. That person understood me to the dot in “i”.

No two sins are alike. My sin is that in caring for others and about how they receive my care and messages…I tend to hold back God in sharing the details. When in all universal honestly, it is God that I need–to be able to give and be replenished without being rendered weakened and sick for lengths of time. Getting caught up in work was my excuse. But there are really no excuses are there? The very thing we are caught up in is the very think God can help us manage and still serve our higher purpose. We all can make time to check in with God. Where are you missing the mark in your life?

I was told last night to “Let it go and let God flow all through it!” I am glad someone told me…cause while I often tell others and myself…I needed to hear it from another like myself–God sent a confirmation. God loves me…and God loves you. God is working on me and I’m grateful. And still I serve. Hopes in that this passage will help you in some area of your life. Bless

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Self Reflection: Don’t Hold It Against Me

Don’t Hold It Against Me

by Hurit Nititka

 

Don’t hold it against me…

because it’s evident that by our truths we are not all created equal.

 

For him…

the color of his skin automatically gets him in, whatever he wants,

no questions asked accept, what denomination would like your money in?

 

For her…

birth should be beautiful but instead they say… look at you, what did you do, you just ruined your life.

It would’ve been acceptable had he made you his wife.

 

For him…

a mistake cost him dearly, now he’s locked upstate,

moms kept warning him to stop….not hard enough,

cause his siblings was hungry, and shit got tough.

He knew the risks and still tried his luck.

 

For her…

family denied her cause she wouldn’t abort

so she moved in with him and the first night they fought,

and the second night, the third night and the fourth.

He beat her so bad she now has a limp, a flinch and nervous cough.

He suddenly lost his job and now she carryin’ TWO kids, and she thinkin’,

would it really have been different if we first got married?

 

And him…

he got struggles but they can’t see through the lives he juggle.

Best at his game, best at his lies, he thinks if he fuck enough girls…

they won’t know he like guys.

 

And them…

they all looks, fucked in all kind of industries, then made a milli…off a book.

But you know what?

If they get fucked hard to the soul they can live their dream,

they finer than pimps in suits sellin’ their scheme.

 

And you…

talent for sell…momma said do something better with ya life…

but you didn’t…o well.

A hundred bitches, a hundred lives, and a hundred thousand dollar rides, sir just sign there…

yeah right there on the dotted line.

Now, what denomination would you like your loan in?

 

So don’t hold it against me for seeing the evidence that our truths are not all created equal.

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Spiritual Dialogue: Vibrational Storms

Problem: I end up in fear every time I plan to go to the dance club. I plan with people and then as the day is coming closer I think of reasons not to go. I think about my responsibilities at home, my family, my job, what the people at the club  will be doing, and what if something goes wrong. Then on the day of, I literally get an anxiety attack, and that becomes my excuse not to go. Then I feel safe again when the time has passed.

As a result, I’ve lost a lot of friends. Is this all in my head or should I really stay away from party clubs? I really do want to be social, make new friends, and have a good time while being responsible.

Solution: You are suffering with inner imbalance. Your external environment seeks to transform your inner peace, while your higher awareness is trying to maintain your inner peace.

What you fear is going “back” to where you use to be and what you use to do…and finding out that people haven’t changed.

Whatever is on that frequency, the people, plants, animals, is because their vibrations match that particular frequency. They are “locked” in that frequency, until they are ready to change. Your fear is actually an indication that you’ve grown or matured beyond that frequency. Your “present” vibrations are contrasting with your “past” frequencies, which never actually go anywhere, you just grow beyond them. Your fear, which is in fact a healthy signal, is telling you to be aware that something is not right between your inner state and in your external environment.

Humans are much like weather systems within a greater system. Sometimes before a pouring rain, is thunder and lightening. Thunder and lightening is caused by two very different temperament systems coming in contact with each other, so it is within humans. Within you may be a peaceful vibration, and  going into certain external vibrations can cause an unbalance in your being, thus the anxiety. The external vibrations are seeking to occupy and take over the same internal space, thus creating your thunder and lightening. The result will be a high or low, or happiness or unhappiness.

You are experiencing an internal/external “battle” within your mpral conscious mind. This “battle” causes unbalance in your whole being, which for many people, can result in mental and/or physical illness, if they are unaware of their inner unbalance.

If you listen to your vibrations warnings and take the steps necessary to redirect your thoughts early, you can void “falling” back into old ways–lower frequencies.

Instead of fighting with yourself about having a good time in old places, try something new…something different than what you did before. Meet new people where you are. Your goal is to enjoy your new life responsibly while being at peace within yourself, and being happy where you are and with the people you are around.

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Willful Relationships: I Love You Now Change

Sistahs…the hardest thing for many of us to admit is….”It’s ME!” Ok granted your man/boyfriend/husband actually is being “wrong” toward you—in any way that wrong may be described. You must realize it is YOU who keeps his negative flow fed; you continually tolerate the pain caused to you (physical, emotional, mental, financial) by allowing what he is doing “wrong” to live in your energy aura. In other words it’s YOU!

Your partner is going to be who he is until he learns to know better AND be better…and he’s going to do what he does…until he learns to do AND does better. Fault lies in the person who thinks they know a person better than that person knows them self…and attempts to change them. You’re implying that there is something wrong with him in the first place. Not the man God sent you…no way!!! (slanted)

What you attempt to see and bring out of them, you must first see and bring out of your self. In other words, for every wrong you see in him, what is it about yourself that limits your thinking to a negative state?

People don’t change according to OUR will— unless they fear us by some distress or threatening state we place them in. Who’s to say even still we are experiencing their truth? How many times have you heard of the prisoner to writes a “confession” under forced pressure? You can try to force someone to “stay” with you but for so long–eventually truth will split from the lie, leaving the lie exposed to address itself.

Who wants to live in a fear-filled relationship disguised as Love when in company of others (who are blind to truth)…but behind closed doors…o boy…you’re tearing his head off about every little thing? From him looking at other humans with his own two eyes…to the tone in which he said hello to someone. Where is the freedom to love and BE as each human with their own will?

SO we can scream and fuss and cry and pout and ask everyone between humans and heaven, “Why won’t he change?!!!” He won’t change even when he does…because YOU haven’t changed in order to see the change in him.

And he’ll move forward without you…because you still harp on his old ways and therefore cannot see the good in him…because you can no longer see your own good. You’re too busy fussing, being angry, and picking fights. You don’t trust him…because you don’t trust yourself. You hate him…because you’ve grown to hate yourself.

And if he does continue to transgress against you, you grow more into contempt, when you really should let go. Letting go is a strong message to ANYONE who hurts you. It says, “I love you but not enough to hurt myself for you.”

SO–your prayer was answered—and he did change…but so did you—for worse. How’s that working out for you where you’re at?

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BEing Aware: Karma Doesn’t Have to Last a Lifetime

We all must put in the self-clearing work required–to revoke all agreements that we have made, either consciously or subconsciously to give our soul’s power away to external authorities. We experience unnecessary suffering or limitations, to bear “karmic” burdens that are NOT ours to bear.

This is not a quick process, and I am going through my own version of Karmic clearing on a daily basis. I’m so close within my own truth that sometimes I literally experience a chain of positive events on all “past present future” frequencies of self, when I do/be positive. And just a flip of my energy anywhere outside of my truth will thrust me into a quicksand of aggravation, distrust, causing dislike of self and limited un-thinking. In other words, we have the ability, when we are aware of SELF, to measure KARMA!

Who has time to worry about what “rackup” KARMA is holding when we’re working on ourselves in keeping in synch with our own truth? How does KARMA decide how much reward or punishment to dish out and when? In other words when we’re good, we’re really good, and we’re rewarded–by external forces? …and when we’re bad we’re really bad, and we’re punished–by external forces? Then why are negative forces “allowed” to enslave positive forces? Karma seems to dish that one out unfairly huh?

I AM as I AM. AWARE.

We seek to strike a balance among our many dimensional selves…some negative some positive but all acknowledged and respected.
We’ve come to a place where we know we’re are no longer experiencing “KARMA” but indeed we are experiencing SELF as I AM.

Sometimes we get “locked” into a particular frequency outside of our truth. When we make choices to “come down” and interact with anyone/anything unlike Self-truth, we experience a “sliding scale” of e-motions and/or beings…in other words…sometimes we ego trip…we compete…we compare…we judge(though we do redirect from that place very often)…we lust…we joke…we like material things too. (After all, we are multidimensional beings.) That doesn’t mean we’re going to suffer…for THINKING (contrary to popular fear belief).

We suffer in BEING in our lower frequencies–unaware.

We suffer when we are anywhere outside of our heart’s frequency…not by thinking but by BEING. In the lower frequencies, we do without thinking. In the higher frequencies, we think before being–we are aware. So though we sometimes THINK about “going down” we have plenty of time to not BEcome into our lower frequencies (though we live among so many others living in their lower beings). Our lower thoughts are not feared or hated,  instead, they are acknowledged and redirected back to our truth–where they are ex-posed and forgiven.

Many do get “locked” in low frequencies even though it may not be their heart’s intention (because they are not thinking in their higher aware self, just doing…and eventually BEing lowly). The longer those ones stay outside of their truth frequency the more lost they become.

We are experiencing our SELF awareness. There are no rules to our experiences, because we are aware and we create as we go along…and we do it freely–as a sovereign beings.

KARMA need no longer reflect SELF –I am aware. KARMA is an external law outside of SELF. We can easily believe (as I have before this inner realization) that whenever we do something “wrong” this KARMA being is going to “get us back for it–if not right now, then some time into the “future”, when we least expect it. Should we worry over it and tread heavy hearted on ice? No! That’s called guilt or shame–and we do not suffer when we void BEing in lower frequencies that produce guilt and shame.

We are aware of who we are, what we are doing, how we are doing it…we are BEing SELF. No more cycling…no karma. I AM SELF, AWARE.

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Self-Healing: Reflection, Acceptance, Placement, Healing

Have you ever been in a situation where you’re in some sort of pain, and tears keep coming up to the rim of your eyelids? As overwhelming the pain you’re feeling is, you really don’t want to cry in public (whether it’s of embarrassment or inappropriate timing), so you look up toward the sky and swallow your tears…and your spirit groans quietly. And you do this repeatedly while you dwell in feeling sorry and pity for yourself.

I’ve been in that position as well. In fact, it was very recent. It seems my relationships with friends of years are coming to abrupt emotionally painful ends; AND even frenzy among my family members. If it’s not me pulling painfully pulling myself away, it’s someone painfully pushing me away. I even notice it on a global scale; via media and/or witnessing sudden fights break out between strangers, over something so little as, one is offended for being cut in front of on a boarding bus line.

Not to deviate, but I believe there’s a grander event going on—to humanity as a whole. With all of the universal and planetary upsetting which as been happening in greater and stronger waves, relations of all sorts are being tried and measured for “heart-felt” authenticity–true love. True love knows no pain. All that is in LIKENESS frequencies and vibrations are being “rearranged” back unto their true placement, or state of being.

It kinds of reminds me of a big ball of string. It only becomes more messy and more tightened as it gets toward the center. Take heed, the chaos does get smaller and eventually disappear; with a touch of love and patience—and possibly woven into something more beautiful, based in that same loving patience, in peace.

Back to the purpose of this article. How to Self-Heal. What I discovered throughout all of my painful “breakups” was that it’s really hard for me to talk to other people about my TRUE feelings. People cringe when others expel emotions from the heart. Not everyone is heart-centered. So, what happens when you’re in emotional pain and it appears there’s no one there with a shoulder to cry on? Go within, and heal your own self.

Indeed yes! Think about it. Even if there was someone with a good strong shoulder (or ear), they will not feel the core of your pain—everyone has a empathetic limit (unless they’re a glutton for pain, then you should be questioning your sudden energy loss whenever they leave your presence. Those are empathic vampyres). Even when an animal is treated for physical wounds—the treatment is limited to cleansing and a dressing. The animal methodically licks itself to aid in its own healing.

We humans are somewhat similar in addressing our emotional issues. In order relieve pain, we habitually do one of two things (some people do both depending on circumstances). One is, dwell in self-pity, not necessarily needing another’s presence, but the more people the more pity. Yes, they have a pity-party (a form of narcissism).

The other common habit is, convincing themselves and everyone around them that they fine, while attributing sudden breakdowns to work or home related stress, depending where they’re at during such a state. Many people have “made it work” on those habits, and others for years.

Another self-neglectful habit comes to mind; emotional eating. Eating until the pain is forgotten. This method usually, unbeknownst to the self, involves eating dull neutral-colored foods when alone, ie. ice cream, cookies, chips—and brightly colored foods when in company, ie decorative foods, cheeses, breads, and fast foods.

Self-healing begins by accepting that you’re wounded in some sort of way. It’s ok to have pain and cry, wince or whimper. In fact, in one of those are good signs. You’re acknowledging that you’re uncomfortable in some sort of way.
Pain definitely does not make people feel good. And one can “put on face” but for so long. Ego loves pain. It needs someone to blame outside ourselves. Pain can be and is used as an emotional crutch.

Pain lasts no longer than your willingness to accept it and then place yourself in position/s to overcome it—and do. Self-healing works. Since we must interact with other people in this world, we will experience many different degrees of pain from time to time; those being emotional, physical, mental, psychological, and neglect.

Self-healing brings about some beneficial self-upliftments. You’ll gain in the ability to accept responsibility for un/intentional pain, to yourself and/or others. You’ll embrace the want to forgive without condemnation. Not only will you begin to develop clearer foresight and insight, but also the time it takes you to heal may become lessened with regular practice. You’ll even feel more confidence to be able to approach new experiences without triggering painful memories; some you may even forget!

It’s important to make Self-healing a regular practice. Just like we attract positive energies, we can and do accumulate negative energies; and in most cases, the longer one neglects their well-being, the harder it can be to heal old wounds. So practice these powerful keys; reflection, acceptance, placement, and healing—often. Until they become a way of life.

My healing self is becoming me, so I’m not just talking to talk, but I’m walking the walk. As I clear away the grand illusion of pain-dependency and self-neglect, a newness is becoming more and more revealed in me. And I see myself happy in this newness. So as things may be coming up in degrees of chaos, I feel like I already overcame it all; I’m just working on the details. Bless

SELF-REFLECTION: The purpose of this key is to realize and review our thoughts and actions, without becoming stuck, or self-judging. Our goal is to learn from them, where we neglected obvious signs or moved in unawareness (without beating ourselves up). From our mistakes, we are able to learn to activate more constructive thoughts and beings in our lives.

ACCEPTANCE: This key unlocks the ability for one to be able and do take responsibility for any thoughts or actions in which the result/s did not come in accord with the betterment of self and/or others.

PLACEMENT: This key is very important, not necessarily more important than the others-they all work in conjunction. I mean very important in a sense of, how important is it to you that you begin self-healing RIGHT NOW. This key actually opens up “portals” to what ever place it is that you feel you need to be to begin removing the pain out of yourself. Many people don’t consciously realize when they’re in placement-state; they often try to busy themselves out of one thing and move busily into another. That is very distracting.

I will explain placement by example. Say you want to purge of a failed relationship. Do you tend to keep looking at photos and old texts, and/or other items of that person— and think , cry, think, and cry harder, then fall asleep in memory lane—only to wake up feeling crashed?

You may have REFLECTED on where you went wrong, and you’ve ACCEPTED that the relationship is over. However, you continue to hold THINGS in order to hold onto memories in pity. PLACEMENT is committing to yourself to be able to LET GO and move forward. Clearing your space (your room, home, office, etc.) of memoranda PLACES you farther from pain and closer to healing. That was the portal!

The act of clearing rearranges your energies to begin healing. Some people need to travel physically to clear and some meditate to clear. Just be committed to continue moving forward—with a knowing that the pain will pass.

HEALING: Most people would think healing is to simply feel better; I did too. But get this! Healing IS to feel better; but it is also to KNOW better in order to DO better in order to BE better! You’re not in unnecessary pain anymore. You know what it is and you know what processes of self-neglect and/or unawareness took you there. You now know, by practicing insight, foresight, and self-awareness, you can do more constructive activities, empowering yourself to be a better person—to live being a healed person.

Bravo! We are a team aren’t we! And if you read to this far…I know you had some uncomfortable moments, some “o my goodness that’s me” moments, some “this is some good stuff!” moments. But most of all, my goal is to enlighten you to something about yourself that you may not have been aware of. YOU have the power to heal yourself! I encourage you to love yourself and uplift yourself, encourage yourself, and have regular communion with God. This raises your energy vibrations into a higher love; a joyous and healthy love. God bless you!

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It’s Dreamwork On The Side

This should suffice (for now). :0)

I could explain 5D and timelines and multi-dimensional travelers to you (in mass cut and paste understanding, not necessarily experience) or I could explain it to you through individual experience (but that would introduce you to a one-sided limited view of multi-dimensional travelers as a whole).

However, I also prefer to be out in the open so as not to have to repeat myself continually in in-boxed messages. In the mean time, you may want to read “Our Ultimate Reality” by Adrian P. Cooper (He is the closest truth I know of at explaining our multi-dimensional lives). Am I worried about who ever “THEY” is? No. Been there, done that. I work only for God.

I never was one for myself to get the quick answers from mouths. I enjoy research and investigation. I might’ve been such had I not a terrible experience with law enforcement in my past. I look often to my higher self for answers and references, which often drops in my view by “coincidence but not”. So I only know to encourage others to SEEK for their selves whatever they desire, though I may make reference points as it’s only right to guide; I’m an empathic way-shower, it is my duty. I pretty much know whether people are seriously interested or going for an ego battle. Either way, they learn something about me and their selves. As well, I.

I pieced together who I am and why I am here. I absolutely never expected any one else to do it because they only told me or others more lies, Yes ,even my so-called family (black sheep that I am yet provider to many). Sometimes, I think growing up in foster care was blessing. I never really attached to anyone I couldn’t vibe with—that was practically everyone—probably why I was in so many homes. I only learned to do wrong to people from those people doing wrong to me.

I have a habit of telling the truth (some call it “DANG!” every so often) or saying nothing at all. I let others tell what their mouths speak. I’m patient with truth as truth is patient with me. Truth could take years to be shown and known, as I learned from young. I do also have an impatient side but I leave that up to God…cause lord knows! A blessing could be a curse on the same token.

Recently, I had the opportunity and pleasure to indulge in higher energetic levels with very close company. I was opened to a whole other aspect of myself (to be embraced and manifested in 3D) that left even me in the willows weeping when I was alone (with joy of course). Since then I cannot seem to find the “right” foods to nourish my system…I’m working at it. Oh, I’m not against marijuana use, though some would believe I am. I just know from past experiences, it’s tended to enhance my natural abilities or “activate” dormant ones. I figured it had to be happening to others–maybe not. Maybe they just smoke to be cool and depressed from their spirits, or whatever. BUT when in Rome…lol! I just have to be able to vibe with Rome.

Anyway, I’m still regular ol me with responsibilities like most other people—I just do dream work on the side. Yeah, yeah people write us off as nuts, but ask them if they ever dreamed. Ask them if they ever woke up feeling inspired or brand new. Still some travelers wake up tired because they do so much work. There is no specific people to travel through dimensions, all it requires is Self-activation and regular spiritual and energetic conditioning. Vibrations and frequencies has a lot to do with too, we work out there as fearless beings; warriors. We get back here, it’s trash day, we can’t find our car keys, the kids are running about, the boss is a pain, and spiders freak us out.

People are going to be stepping up and embracing their Selves and “new-found” skills and abilities. And many will stay hidden, as they are now. It’s nothing off the charts, it’s not a miracle, nor is it too good to be true. 3D atmosphere is too dense for all the excitement you see on the screen, so don’t expect or challenge people to “show themselves” in some elaborate aggressive manner. There’s other spaces for that. Besides, we only seek to co-create love, peace and harmony, in the spirit of truth. Empathy, compassion, healing, active listening, kindness, love, hugs, smiles and such is what we give.

My friends that know me, know. God bless them for understanding my need for space and long periods of time to myself.

Bless

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