Think That Big And Be Better

My thoughts in God have been so amazing in 2012 alone. The many conversations, training simulations on “how to BE”, the peaceful walks in places beyond what I ever thought to think. The preparations, the guidance; all so beautiful.

I used to have a crippling fear of death that I wouldn’t sleep for nights. I cured it in my God state.
I judged mySelf to be a worse person than I was so I was afraid to be saved. I’m saved.
I thought I couldn’t BE by mySelf outside of a relationship. I AM.
God knows Im honored to have been blessed with children. My change is greatly reflected in them, as they are my greatest and most consistent creations thus far.

Feeling the changes and noticing subtle differences in this world compared to the old world, I continue to diligently work on blending my dreams into my current reality. I sometimes think they’re just too big or that my dreams are had before its time. That only means the trinkets of this world aint doing much for my particular being these days. What I desire, money can’t afford. Peace, Love, and Harmony. Many desire these beings, so we BE.

I no longer believe that there is an entity separate from me looking to reign hell down on me, other than man. My christ in me is only as faithful and committed as my will is assuredly strong in christ.

I often hear a people griping and arguing about whom to praise, and what race should that whom be. As children we are ignorant. Our parents and grandparents grew up in a time of fear-based doctrine. They only taught us (beat into us their fear). We were taught to praise Jesus the man, whom most assume is of white persuasion. Coming into adulthood we are learned by our environment and experiences that Jesus may or may not be black. I only ever see white light, or golden showers of all the ascended masters I encounter. So for me, the argument is void. My heart tells me that I have to see things for myself to experience, otherwise I’d just still be discussing my life away and not doing what I came here to do.

Then somewhere between the new religious church and the world’s view that church is a hip-hop phrase, most get confused and abandon ship. The line between the two seems to have merged. Did the church step into the world or did the world go into the church?

May I say to all who listen. It is much easier said than done to unlearn something ingrained in us from childhood; but it is doable.

Others projections hinders a people from creating in each his/her own mind. There’s no time like NOW. At the same time that we remove something from ourSelves, something must take its place, lest we feel empty within, or unfulfilled. Fill your emptiness with God. Feel God and let God fill you.

The mind is so powerful, and man knows this! YOU know this! The invader never takes something from its host without giving something back. The give back is not good. An invader also has the ability to paralyze its host/victim, feed off of it, and then either let it die slowly or suddenly cause it a quick death, should it no longer serve its immediate purpose. In other words, the victim doesn’t know its being fed on because its been desensitized.

Victims don’t know they are victims (slaves). They are given a false sense of perception, never knowing the true; unless some particular chord is touch out of nowhere, plucked. They deny the slight feeling. It happens again. Pluck Pluck. They get to listening for it. Pluck Pluck, wake up. They look around and then at themselves, only to see parts missing. The pain hits! What the hell is going on?! Flashes of their old whole Self. What happened?! Why am I here?!  My God! I gotta save mySelf before I die. WHO got me like this?!

Now, upon waking, we first have to fight against that which feeds off us. Some of us may even fight for a while then give up and don’t even work to live for ourSelves anymore.

Those of us that keep fighting eventually learn that in order to save ourselves we have to keep looking within ourselves, removing the poison and adding self-care, to heal our whole Self. At some point, we learn that the stronger we become, the greater our strength and abilities become.

Eventually, the invader understands it no longer has the ability to control you.

Imagine if we all realized that we’re being fed off of and then we answer to that plucking chord in our spine, and then wake up and save ourSelves! The invader would break down and leave. Leaving us to live in peace again.

Think that big and BE more.

Self-Healing: Revelation, Realization, and Forgiveness

If there’s one of a million things I learned of Empaths, being one mySelf, there is one theme that continues to be a problem area for both the skilled and unskilled Empath. As part of being empathic, we engage in another’s persons issues and problems, we take things on as if it’s all our own—to help another soul to be able to heal unto itSelf. When we have an issue or a problem it’s all our own, unto ourselves—to be solved in our God space, as we tend to not want to “burden” others with our problems. On the other hand, many Empaths put their Selves through a personal suffrage, not realizing (for any given length of time) that the problem is not theirs!

In other words, an Empath “places him/herself in another person’s shoes”, experiences their problem/issue, and then advise a solution. The skilled Empath goes through the process spiritually conditioned, and is therefore ABLE to provide stronger assistance. When the truth is advised, there are no lines to read between other than what is being revealed in oneself, not the advisor. The advisor is simply reflecting one’s self back to them. People have only become more intelligent at hiding their problems in synonymous and false beings. That doesn’t mean their problem can’t be solved. THIS stage is where begins the battle of beings and truth.

We cannot meet ourselves with ego when our truth is revealed to us. We will only continuously come up against a wall and crumble again and again. Until we are willing to accept ourselves and others for who we and they are, we will not realize who we are not, individually, and collectively. So instead of forgiving ALL, we hold ourselves and others in contempt of being. In such a state of being, there is very little chance to healing self. Ego is not above truth. Ego is not truth. Ego forces its hand so as not to feel like its “losing” the battle of BEing. This is why most Empaths do not attempt to help others who do not fully express readiness, willingness, and are desirous in receiving help. Truth does not convince. Truth IS. Ego gets up in arms when truth is revealed.

Empaths can and do sometimes make a messy situation messier. They “forget” to come out of the persons shoes and give them back their own experience to continue handling. We sometimes believe that others problems are ours to overcome; they are not. Each one must live their own truth. Live your truth. Each person is responsible for their beings and doings. To seek advice and/or guidance of another is encouraged, however, one must be ready, willing and desire to be ABLE to go through the healing process with their own Self.

Here, I share this no-fail process of Self-Healing. As with anything else, the more of yourself you give to it, the better of your Self you will receive back. Bless


God’s remedy to heal any suffering soul, broken spirit, worn or broken heart, and any relationship is a process:

REVELATION: Opening oneself up to review of his/her faults and/or negative beings; their transgressions.

-REALIZATION: Now knowing and acknowledging to his/her transgressions and accepts his/her responsibility and role he/she played in revealed transgressions.

FORGIVENESS: Asking for forgiveness unto ones God-Head is perhaps the most important part of healing. The bowing of the head acknowledges that one has realized and is sorry for their transgression. against others and/or Self. Forgiveness is a confirmation of agreement between two or more beings to move forward and no longer hold Self or others in a place of negative vibrations; or contempt.


Self-Encouragement: Growing Back UP

There’s a certain placement we come into as we attain higher and higher frequencies.

As we grow in spirit (spiritually), we think better of ourSelves. Those of you on that particular road at this present time….don’t deterred by those things that are of the world. Folk will mock you, shun you, make slander. Keep moving up!

Like, I said before, you’ll come to a point where you’ll have achieved so much evolution with yourSelf—their vibrations and frequencies can’t see you to reach you.

Keep going…don’t be thrown off by nobody else’s vibrations…(if you’re single, you now know the reason). If you’re in a “relationship”…know that opposites do not attract—they clash. Good or bad, LIKE attracts LIKE.

UP can’t be DOWN if it’s UP. BUT, DOWN can pretend it’s UP. UP is within itself— becoming more and more UP! It does still acknowledge its opposite otherwise it wouldn’t BE. Should UP engage with down, that’s what it becomes—DOWN!

Should UP realize one day after being homesick, that it’s out of its element, and not being its true being, which is UP, it must get the sickness of being DOWN out if itself—and be prepared, willing and ABLE to move back up. Begin to live your truth.

UP may be a little shaky and weak at first, but in working within itself and with likenesses, UP gains momentum, strength, and its ability to BEcome itself again.
Down may be holding and clinging and cunning and seemingly convincing, mocking you cause you ain’t DOWN no more, tryna trick you to believe its changed only to fall back DOWN into old ways…but you keep going! Because your ready, willing, and able. Because you’re UP.

Self-Acceptance: Embrace Anticipation And Become A Creator

I made notice over the last few weeks, that issues we’ve all hidden under our surfaces in our hearts, are coming up; and they must be addressed by none other than ourSelves. We’re always given an opportunity to create our own destinies, it comes with the “free will” package. Otherwise we end up experiencing fate.

It isn’t that God wants us to lose anything, we simply are to make new ground for BEing truthful in our hearts, BEing spirited. To build anew we must clear away the old; much like a condemned building. Outside, it may look fine with no noticeable problems, but looking inside, there’s great damage, badly in need of reconstruction. So the building must be gutting and in some causes, completely knocked down. This is when we think in terms that we as humans sometimes have to lose it all in order to find ourSelves. If not all, we often lose things and people very dear to us, ranging from homes to family, relationships of sorts, to jobs, and various in-betweens. However, we can also think of gainful possibilities.

Resistance to acceptance to change causes that hell-like pain. That’s our minds, actually, it’s our egos. It may be that we feel like what, “What did I do to deserve this?!” Maybe something, or maybe nothing. But your vibrations in the universe accepts that it is time for change. Believe it or not, your God-frequency is not centered. We’re expected to be in acceptance to change, even embrace it lovingly, in anticipation, not expectation.

Why anticipation? Simply because when we don’t know what to expect, we anticipate. Anticipation raises our awareness to be ready, willing and able to embrace opportunities, and make them our own. When we are the creators of our own destinies, then we know what to expect. Believing in ourSelves, our abilities, and our powers to create let’s us BE in the highest frequencies of the universe. The higher the frequency, the clearer and more direct and unobstructed the path; and the quicker the manifestation of our desires. THAT is how we can have anything that we desire. Believe it in your best intention for yourSelf, and others. Begin to see it and experience it.

I know it’s easier said than done; this is part of the reasoning to clearing beings that no longer serve to our highest selves. It is very difficult to BE a creator, let alone create, when we are being in low frequencies or vibrations. I’m having to making changes in my own life that was causing so much pain, until I realized, “How bad can it be? I trust that I’m making the right decision.” Making that simple statement from within mySelf raises my vibrations into a higher frequency. The more I affirm my positive state in being, the higher my vibrations, and thus, the more attractive I am to the higher frequencies.

We normally can’t see down the line, because there is none. Not in wake-state. Dreams and visions even give us just a glimpse of possible timelines. It is our duty as dreamweavers to create the best possible timeline to serve our highest being. What we do NOW is how we BE now; and doing gives us a plethora of opportunities to create our better beings; our highest beings, albeit ego. Every moment that we clear ground after a storm, or even feel so much as a “wrong” vibration, is an opportunity for us to stay in alignment with higher frequencies and consistently live our truths.

We want the good of everything, but we fear to release the pain of what is no longer serving to our highest purpose. So many questions come up, so much doubt, shame, anger, and tears! BUT, that comes from a place of Self-judgement. We judge ourSelves based in fear of change and expectation, when really we ought to be embracing the process of anticipation to change.

Attachments, to people and things cause pain at the very thought of having to let go. We set ourselves up because we know better; that nothing in the world lasts forever. The only constant is change. Become into awareness of yourSelf and see your current state for what it is, and know that by guiding your own destiny NOW, changes the past, and creates a better “future” for all.

Self-Transformation: My Birthday Wish

Having been through so many transformations in the last 36 years, I must say 2012 has been the biggest and has been the most impactful on my BEing.

I recall being tired toward the end of 2011 because all the time I had here, I had not done what I was supposed to do. I got caught up in the death throes of the world.

Regardless, I was never “left alone”, I called, my God showed up, I was “rescued”, I praised us, and walked back into the valley.

Well, this time I called. Silence. I pleaded. Silence. O crap. I thought, “Whatever, You probably don’t exist anyway, all that was ME!” I became sick. I had a heart attack. When I touched people, I caught a fever. I argued with everyone and about everything. I was far off frequency.

Any project I touched, soured and never came to fruition. I couldn’t see people for who they were, so I latched to trust those who presented as light, but got me in corners that I had to fight my way out of—sometimes literally. My gifts were gone.

I was cut off. The phone stopped ringing, the invites stopped, I was cold all the time, even to the touch. With TWO degrees I couldn’t find a job! I was tired and would sleep for days and nights at a time. My daughter would ask for her mommy I’d say, “I am your mommy.” And she would say, “You not my mommy!”

I had an affair with a married man (yes we’re even responsible for our ignorance (lack of information)) and that catapulted myself straight to hell. Ladies! When I tell you the pain and ridicule was indescribable…I mean it!!! It isn’t a hell where you are attacked by righteousness others; you are attacked by others like your self! I didn’t know that at the time though…they presented themselves as righteousness because I was the newest one in hell at that time. They were already there. Gossiping. Their jealousy came from their thinking that I was acting as if I was too good to be around them.


Just like heaven has its qualifications to be amongst likeness, so does hell. But where do you go when you’re too good for hell and not good enough for heaven?

I grappled in the darkness, I used drugs to get up and to lay down. I was a prescription addict for muscle relaxants and Tylenol 3. I’d go about mySelf high on marijuana—thinking no one could tell. Very few people knew—it didn’t matter if no one knew. God knew.

It got so bad, I would be walking down the street and strangers would make statements, “I see you!” or “Your head is uncovered.” One time it was raining and this old lady walked up to me, I lifted my umbrella and she said, “Where are you supposed to be?” I was freaked. I never turned around to see where those people went. I already knew.

I still called mySelf paranoid swearing. Whatever you heard, I heard different. And whatever you saw I saw different. People wearing white robes. And even on the clock. Every time I looked, it said 11:11, or 1:11, 2:11, 3:11 and on…to the T. Someone was trying to get my attention. I refused to answer because I was stubborn. Yet, I yearned to be home again. I cried like a baby when I was alone.

Let me tell you, I wasn’t in church at the alter, as I had done many times since I was a child—first forced. I wasn’t on my knees praying nor was I reading my bible. When Christ came to me, I was on a date. You know, a man/woman date. I was single still.

It wasn’t until after my re-membrance in Christ that I realized, “Prepare your home, and keep my word. I’m coming to you like a thief in the night…only God knows your appointed hour. You’ll know me when I come unto you.” The Light is extraordinary…I was covered in it. Everything was.

My date was an atheist. God came through that man and told me stop second-guessing mySelf, to trust mySelf.

I moaned and cried and my body was in pain for days and nights. I ate only bread and water for three days and nights. God was working on me. That was 1/7/12.

Throughout this year, my faith, my strength, my love, and trust in mySelf, in Christ, and in God has grown and solidified tremendously. I refuse to condemn mySelf under man’s ignorance. I look back and can see how far I’ve walked because I see very little of my old self left.

Heaven’s army has put as much work into me as I was willing to put into mySelf. There were times when I thought I didn’t have the courage to cross the thresholds presented to me, I still had fear so I could not cross over. I did allow others doubts in their minds, beliefs and beings hinder my own Self progress, but God is patient, as I am still a human. Now I listen, I respect, I converse, and I keep moving on my path. I be aware of mySelf over all elses. I received my “gifts” back and more.
Only recently, I had a few dollars and thought I’d spruce up my home. I dreamed mySelf somewhere in the future doing some big things. The thought came to me that there is no future. There is only NOW. So when I woke up, I played on the idea all day; it was later that night that after I wrote an article. The light bulb came on.

The idea came to me, “Buy your wordpress domain now.” I was exxcited! Today, as of my birthday, I’m a certified owner of nine domains. My house still needs sprucing, but it’ll happen in its time. I sponsored my idea. God taught me to don’t sit around waiting for the future; BE in NOW. I have no idea what to do with all of the sites, but when the idea comes to me—I’m on it! In the meantime, I work on them. To empower you unto yourSelf. Bless

You may say anybody can do that, I say yes but can everybody be successful in Christ? I asked for forgiveness unto mySelf, I forgave all who abused mySelf in any way. I couldn’t move forward if I didn’t. I put in truth work with mySelf and others to get here and I’ve been transformed. I’m washed and prepared and dressed in Christ.

I work in the universe, for God. So do many of you, you just have to acknowledge, that it IS and has been God all along who runs this whole function. Not you by yourself, not me by myself. Not governments. God, Self, Spirit—together makes the whole BEing human a miracle.

I’m thankful, grateful, awesome and Lord knows, I do some nonsense to my Self again—-well I’m not. I love mySelf too much. I love God even more. My God is merciful and glorious, forgiving all loving yet stern in will.

So here it is, my last birthday in the Age of Pisces. I’m moving into a peaceful, all-loving state. Age of Aquarius. The world is all kinds of experiences, and mother earth herself, withstood mans nonsense. She’s shaking it off and moving up. Many humans are shaking it off and moving up.

You know, someone asked me recently, “How do you know it’s GOD speaking to you though?” I could’ve quoted the whole bible, and brought the spirit forth, and he STILL wouldn’t have believed me! That’s how the world works! Even in our seemingly holy friends, who jump about in church, and throw their hands up only in a crowded room, on one day of a week–THERE too, sits temptation to give up on ourSelves! God does NOT temp us! God IS and IS NOT. There is no in between…like today you feeling Godly but yesterday God was tempting you…NO! You were tempting yourSelf! So you FEEL like you want to tempt another! You can’t be anybody on their own path just because you want to glorify yourself. Some folk have wounds so deep and some have only scraps in the world. Be patient with your Self.

You can’t ACT Godly…well you can but why when you can BE Godly? I use to act Godly when I was in the world and folk who was acting just as foolish loved it! And when you don’t say a certain word or run find something in scripture (or better yet, you find a scripture that goes AGAINST YOUR moral beliefs) or they just didn’t get the holy ghost on cue..and their foot just didn’t have that extra step like the pastor’s… know! You hear folk saying, “That’s not how God acts!”, or “The devil is a liar!” Well of course the devil’s a liar…and you get credit for pointing that out! Put you lack tools to upright your brethren! Live your truth! If you believe that your truth isn’t God….so be it! Still every knee will bow and every tongue will confess.

Many of us can explain religion, but can we explain God? The prophets and teachers and messengers come to warn you, bring you into awareness of your BEings, against yourSelf and against God; you fear yet you still indulge. We come to show you the way back unto the light. If you continually quote John’s experience, or Paul’s, or any other and sitting around waiting for those same exact things to happen to you, what can you say you’ve done with YOUR life? Besides wait? Come out of the church buildings, sitting and waiting and BE the church. God is for ALL. ALL has his works.

I’m so satisfied with everything, if I died, I’m still waking up in heaven. I just beat y’all to the punch on housing! Lighten up. Death is a part of living life.

Seriously though…take it how you want to but my truth is God exists…and only in hell would we forget the very essence of our spirits. Happy birthday to me. My wish is for you to find your way back. I love you, so does Jesus Christ, his team, and so does God.

Self-Encouragement: Single Parenting

BEing a single parent with almost no support system other than mySelf has had its challenges, and still does. Until my children are older and have greater sense of Self-guidance, I stay in parent-training with mySelf. Here I share a really good conversation (unedited) that I had with mySelf, and I did feel encouraged. Bless


You allow yourselves as humans and as parents to live under dictatorship of the absent parent movements, and the world’s.

Figure a way to acquire your needs and wants without said absent parent. Figure a way to lessen your dependence on your government, if not completely. We could get into a whole discussion about this planet’s numerous violations against universal laws; but not at this time.

Your writing is a beautiful, in-depth description of your human experience—lacking shame, and you’re able to cultivate guidance for those unsure of where they are in the present. Share it now. Everything that is happening is happening NOW. Remember, sponsor your own idea and work the details along the way. You’ve been creating less negative reflections and creating more positive ones. Share the many reflections of you and manifest your highest BEing. You’ve been doing less negative reflections and BEing a more positive Self. Either way, you create who you want to be.

You must be honest. Speak up. Do the opposite of fighting for money, love, sex and seeking others to fulfill your life, live your own truth! You’ve come the long way, but you’re here. And you’re progressively living NOW. Remember, God, Self, then all others. Otherwise, you’re living a lie your whole life—to think it’s any order other than.

You may not bust out with whatever others consider top-notch on the scene. But again, neither are they! Many of your so-called celebrity gurus are actually distracting humans from their Selves. They drive an economic market at helping themselves; humans pay them to tell them to do what they donot do themselves. They get paid for nothing. You may have little money, so what! Truth prevails. BE comfortable…more comfortable. Trust yourSelf. You will have to guide others more, to get back them back on their feet, or path. Especially with the recent storm that came upon your town. Still stay braced in readiness.

You’d be surprised at how many people are living the very things they say they hate—lies! The holiday shopping numbers did not suffer, regardless to what your media reports. Homeless people are suffering. Hungry people are suffering. Those numbers grow constantly. EVERYONE is responsible for such BEings. When they come to embrace those things with understanding, then will they begin to know their own Selves in truth; they can put love into that which they are, are not, that which they caused, and at the same time, bless it and let it go.

You’re experiencing your own creations by way of storms. Some massive, some personal storms, many both. When something is left unattended, a storm develops. Storms are necessary. Yes, they cause destruction; and they also leave behind new ground—to build on.

Build on that foundation right there. Get your mind out of what once was. Avoid making dead-end scenarios from past experiences, you know, “what could have, should have, would have, if only he/she/I had/had not….” Meet yourself where you’re at and not where you THINK others want to see you (not necessarily where they praise you to be). Humans crave to be seen for whom they are, yet they refuse to let go of others thoughts of who they once were, or should be, so they find great difficulty in accepting their Selves. They find difficulty accepting themselves for what is, so they develop jealousies, ill will, hatred and pain and such toward others—they forget about “what goes around comes around” —until their own selves are experiencing those very pains and more.

You’d be surprised; I acquired one degree while receiving welfare, and the other while working. I kept those two journeys’ a “secret”; all while others, including my family, mocked and chastised me and categorized me as a “welfare baby momma”. Humans often are “taught” (usually on the vein of a musical beat or some culturally unconscious movie) to project whole creations of Self-destructive “trigger words”, like “baby-momma” or “baby daddy”, to the masses reality; to their Self-destruction. I still can’t say for sure what that word constitutes (it depends on the beholder). It’s one of negative vibration of mockery, envy, and anger—and needs to be put out of existence.

That must be done by those who created it or fate takes over. That’s another conversation.

I took my bachelor finals with my youngest son on my lap, even to the disagreement of other students. The professors understood; they used me as a teachable moment. The students felt like somehow in a three hour window, that my son would “catch” a disease—he almost did—a strong strain of discrimination.

Humans will find a way to BE uncomfortable, if it means causing the elimination of even just one “competitor” out the game. They glorify their material attributes. They need to SEE things to believe things. When you are spirited, you believe it to see it. Faith is your net, cast it out to manifest what you desire. The stronger your net, the further and wider it spreads out into the unniverse. How do you think Jesus fed thousands? His brethren had only a few fish and some loaves; he cast out a faith “net” and received (manifested) to his heart’s desire—to feed a people. Grow your faith; make strong your net, strong enough to weather storms.

Imagine when I gave out invites! Lolol the faces!!! I hid my cap and gown until I got to the ceremony, and I hid it back on the block. I did welcome the personal praise of strangers though. I walked across that graduation stage with others who had just as many struggles as me. But they lacked gusto to speak up, and despised me for doing so. When folk found out, even my family, I graduated from welfare baby momma to “think she better than somebody”. Go figure huh?

Speaking for up yourSelf keeps you in the greater game; the one so few dare to attempt and even fewer last. Silence holds disunion to light. Speak in earnest; meditate in spirit and in truth. Those who despise today praise tomorrow and curse the past.

As single parents, we’ll always be sought to be degraded, especially when we rise above. That means we’re one less family unit to blame for “living off peoples paychecks”. One day they’ll be no one to blame but the true villains. We aren’t any different than anybody else—we just do what we do with kids behind us. So in a sense we’re held to a higher standard. We’re directly responsible for molding lives other than our own—to be raised and evolved to the betterment of theirSelves and others. We want to be able to do that without being blamed for everyone else’s projections. In the meantime, the rich continues to pay the middle class to blame the poor as the ones stealing from them.

Live your life without seeking approval of the world. Let it be exposed that you’re not only DOING what you feel, but that you’re FEELING what you’re doing and you are BEing what you feel. And so, in essence, you experience what you BE. There will be others who will FIND anything about you to believe it’s to their detriment, even though it is not so. Still, live for yourSelf. Live for God so that ALL may receive. Is that not why you’re here?