Self-Guidance: Using Spiritual Tools To Be Abled

Being saved and born again persons, and light workers and way-showers, part of being enlightened, we understand that others may not do it the same way we did it. We are spiritual soldiers; we’re not here to bring judgment on any man. There is no need to run around screaming at people on the internet or in walking life, losing our own Selves to save another. Jesus was a martyr, because he was destined for that role. He came as a teacher and a way-shower; we are to follow his way, to Self-righteousness, not death. There is no need to judge others for whatever reason you think they’re not doing all they can to save themselves.

Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God.” John 1:12

Everyone makes their own choice, no matter consciously, unconsciously, willingly, or desperate.

“…let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armor of light.” Romans 13:12

All kinds of ones can and will blow all the trumpets, sound the alarms, point and shout. People have turned away from God in this Age; leaving their Selves open to man’s false flags. Keep in mind that darkness is able and does present itself as light. Man believes he has one up on God, in manipulating timelines and weather and such—purposely misguiding many of you into timelines of continued fear and control. Some events are experienced by one, some by few, and still some experiences are shared by many. One must have a strong relationship with God and be sharp with the spiritual tools provided unto their Self. We’ve moved pass hope, NOW is the time for DISCERNMENT and FAITH.

My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.  He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.” Psalm 62:1-2 

The truth is as long as YOU know for yourSelf, your relationship with God. However, some of you are so full of pride (and fear) that you hide your spirituality, even from yourSelf. You don’t practice the word, nor engage in any spiritual strengthening of Self. Continuing like this with surely set you back in confusion at a time when you’ll be called to step up to your intended role; in spirit and in truth. Remember your commitment to God before and after you were saved. Is it not true that in your own times of trouble and desperation that you cried out to God?  You know that you all don’t have to have a troubled or desperate on and off relationship with God. BE re-newed. Like you once were, they are now. Even still, what you are not does tempt you. So it’s only balance that we encourage ourselves for who we ARE and also encourage others for who they can be. Fast, pray, meditate, praise, be kind and love yourself and each other.

“But this kind does not go out except by fasting and by prayer.” Matthew 17:21

Don’t be fooled by images, sounds, and voices. In order not to do that, don’t be led by fear. At present, even God’s children (we are all sons of God through faith in Jesus Christ) are being in confusion. Be led by LOVE. Stay in Love. Be kind. Be patient. Be not envious of what you see others have; unless the spirit has made revelation to you, you don’t know another’s heart. Meet yourself where YOU are at, don’t worry about time. Just get your heart in alignment with God, and no matter what happens, you’ll be taken care of. All things work together for the good of those in accord with God’s purpose.

“Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” Psalm 139:14

If it doesn’t feel right, it isn’t. If it feels threatening, it is. If you get caught out there, be strong in your will. Find your center and go there. And if you need to, find the strength to call out to Jesus the Christed and be saved. No matter you don’t believe right now. In the face of darkness, believe me, you will find faith in Christ. That’s the way you chose to come back unto Christ and to God; through darkness.

“I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.” Psalm 34:4

The problem is many people don’t even know they ARE in darkness. You push your limits of “free will”—until the monster shows up. Then it becomes a process to learn how to fight; because you got comfortable and let your God down; and chose to experience “free will”. A monster is only as big as your will is weak; and coming away from the world your will IS weak. A monster expects you to fight it; it loves that kind of attention. It’s an ever bigger process to learn how to love again. Love yourSelf and God again, have the power of faith in your God, and BE spiritually ABLED. You will overcome those monsters. Bless

“For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.” Psalm 91:11-2

Self-Transformation: My Birthday Wish

Having been through so many transformations in the last 36 years, I must say 2012 has been the biggest and has been the most impactful on my BEing.

I recall being tired toward the end of 2011 because all the time I had here, I had not done what I was supposed to do. I got caught up in the death throes of the world.

Regardless, I was never “left alone”, I called, my God showed up, I was “rescued”, I praised us, and walked back into the valley.

Well, this time I called. Silence. I pleaded. Silence. O crap. I thought, “Whatever, You probably don’t exist anyway, all that was ME!” I became sick. I had a heart attack. When I touched people, I caught a fever. I argued with everyone and about everything. I was far off frequency.

Any project I touched, soured and never came to fruition. I couldn’t see people for who they were, so I latched to trust those who presented as light, but got me in corners that I had to fight my way out of—sometimes literally. My gifts were gone.

I was cut off. The phone stopped ringing, the invites stopped, I was cold all the time, even to the touch. With TWO degrees I couldn’t find a job! I was tired and would sleep for days and nights at a time. My daughter would ask for her mommy I’d say, “I am your mommy.” And she would say, “You not my mommy!”

I had an affair with a married man (yes we’re even responsible for our ignorance (lack of information)) and that catapulted myself straight to hell. Ladies! When I tell you the pain and ridicule was indescribable…I mean it!!! It isn’t a hell where you are attacked by righteousness others; you are attacked by others like your self! I didn’t know that at the time though…they presented themselves as righteousness because I was the newest one in hell at that time. They were already there. Gossiping. Their jealousy came from their thinking that I was acting as if I was too good to be around them.


Just like heaven has its qualifications to be amongst likeness, so does hell. But where do you go when you’re too good for hell and not good enough for heaven?

I grappled in the darkness, I used drugs to get up and to lay down. I was a prescription addict for muscle relaxants and Tylenol 3. I’d go about mySelf high on marijuana—thinking no one could tell. Very few people knew—it didn’t matter if no one knew. God knew.

It got so bad, I would be walking down the street and strangers would make statements, “I see you!” or “Your head is uncovered.” One time it was raining and this old lady walked up to me, I lifted my umbrella and she said, “Where are you supposed to be?” I was freaked. I never turned around to see where those people went. I already knew.

I still called mySelf paranoid swearing. Whatever you heard, I heard different. And whatever you saw I saw different. People wearing white robes. And even on the clock. Every time I looked, it said 11:11, or 1:11, 2:11, 3:11 and on…to the T. Someone was trying to get my attention. I refused to answer because I was stubborn. Yet, I yearned to be home again. I cried like a baby when I was alone.

Let me tell you, I wasn’t in church at the alter, as I had done many times since I was a child—first forced. I wasn’t on my knees praying nor was I reading my bible. When Christ came to me, I was on a date. You know, a man/woman date. I was single still.

It wasn’t until after my re-membrance in Christ that I realized, “Prepare your home, and keep my word. I’m coming to you like a thief in the night…only God knows your appointed hour. You’ll know me when I come unto you.” The Light is extraordinary…I was covered in it. Everything was.

My date was an atheist. God came through that man and told me stop second-guessing mySelf, to trust mySelf.

I moaned and cried and my body was in pain for days and nights. I ate only bread and water for three days and nights. God was working on me. That was 1/7/12.

Throughout this year, my faith, my strength, my love, and trust in mySelf, in Christ, and in God has grown and solidified tremendously. I refuse to condemn mySelf under man’s ignorance. I look back and can see how far I’ve walked because I see very little of my old self left.

Heaven’s army has put as much work into me as I was willing to put into mySelf. There were times when I thought I didn’t have the courage to cross the thresholds presented to me, I still had fear so I could not cross over. I did allow others doubts in their minds, beliefs and beings hinder my own Self progress, but God is patient, as I am still a human. Now I listen, I respect, I converse, and I keep moving on my path. I be aware of mySelf over all elses. I received my “gifts” back and more.
Only recently, I had a few dollars and thought I’d spruce up my home. I dreamed mySelf somewhere in the future doing some big things. The thought came to me that there is no future. There is only NOW. So when I woke up, I played on the idea all day; it was later that night that after I wrote an article. The light bulb came on.

The idea came to me, “Buy your wordpress domain now.” I was exxcited! Today, as of my birthday, I’m a certified owner of nine domains. My house still needs sprucing, but it’ll happen in its time. I sponsored my idea. God taught me to don’t sit around waiting for the future; BE in NOW. I have no idea what to do with all of the sites, but when the idea comes to me—I’m on it! In the meantime, I work on them. To empower you unto yourSelf. Bless

You may say anybody can do that, I say yes but can everybody be successful in Christ? I asked for forgiveness unto mySelf, I forgave all who abused mySelf in any way. I couldn’t move forward if I didn’t. I put in truth work with mySelf and others to get here and I’ve been transformed. I’m washed and prepared and dressed in Christ.

I work in the universe, for God. So do many of you, you just have to acknowledge, that it IS and has been God all along who runs this whole function. Not you by yourself, not me by myself. Not governments. God, Self, Spirit—together makes the whole BEing human a miracle.

I’m thankful, grateful, awesome and Lord knows, I do some nonsense to my Self again—-well I’m not. I love mySelf too much. I love God even more. My God is merciful and glorious, forgiving all loving yet stern in will.

So here it is, my last birthday in the Age of Pisces. I’m moving into a peaceful, all-loving state. Age of Aquarius. The world is all kinds of experiences, and mother earth herself, withstood mans nonsense. She’s shaking it off and moving up. Many humans are shaking it off and moving up.

You know, someone asked me recently, “How do you know it’s GOD speaking to you though?” I could’ve quoted the whole bible, and brought the spirit forth, and he STILL wouldn’t have believed me! That’s how the world works! Even in our seemingly holy friends, who jump about in church, and throw their hands up only in a crowded room, on one day of a week–THERE too, sits temptation to give up on ourSelves! God does NOT temp us! God IS and IS NOT. There is no in between…like today you feeling Godly but yesterday God was tempting you…NO! You were tempting yourSelf! So you FEEL like you want to tempt another! You can’t be anybody on their own path just because you want to glorify yourself. Some folk have wounds so deep and some have only scraps in the world. Be patient with your Self.

You can’t ACT Godly…well you can but why when you can BE Godly? I use to act Godly when I was in the world and folk who was acting just as foolish loved it! And when you don’t say a certain word or run find something in scripture (or better yet, you find a scripture that goes AGAINST YOUR moral beliefs) or they just didn’t get the holy ghost on cue..and their foot just didn’t have that extra step like the pastor’s… know! You hear folk saying, “That’s not how God acts!”, or “The devil is a liar!” Well of course the devil’s a liar…and you get credit for pointing that out! Put you lack tools to upright your brethren! Live your truth! If you believe that your truth isn’t God….so be it! Still every knee will bow and every tongue will confess.

Many of us can explain religion, but can we explain God? The prophets and teachers and messengers come to warn you, bring you into awareness of your BEings, against yourSelf and against God; you fear yet you still indulge. We come to show you the way back unto the light. If you continually quote John’s experience, or Paul’s, or any other and sitting around waiting for those same exact things to happen to you, what can you say you’ve done with YOUR life? Besides wait? Come out of the church buildings, sitting and waiting and BE the church. God is for ALL. ALL has his works.

I’m so satisfied with everything, if I died, I’m still waking up in heaven. I just beat y’all to the punch on housing! Lighten up. Death is a part of living life.

Seriously though…take it how you want to but my truth is God exists…and only in hell would we forget the very essence of our spirits. Happy birthday to me. My wish is for you to find your way back. I love you, so does Jesus Christ, his team, and so does God.

Self-Encouragement: Single Parenting

BEing a single parent with almost no support system other than mySelf has had its challenges, and still does. Until my children are older and have greater sense of Self-guidance, I stay in parent-training with mySelf. Here I share a really good conversation (unedited) that I had with mySelf, and I did feel encouraged. Bless


You allow yourselves as humans and as parents to live under dictatorship of the absent parent movements, and the world’s.

Figure a way to acquire your needs and wants without said absent parent. Figure a way to lessen your dependence on your government, if not completely. We could get into a whole discussion about this planet’s numerous violations against universal laws; but not at this time.

Your writing is a beautiful, in-depth description of your human experience—lacking shame, and you’re able to cultivate guidance for those unsure of where they are in the present. Share it now. Everything that is happening is happening NOW. Remember, sponsor your own idea and work the details along the way. You’ve been creating less negative reflections and creating more positive ones. Share the many reflections of you and manifest your highest BEing. You’ve been doing less negative reflections and BEing a more positive Self. Either way, you create who you want to be.

You must be honest. Speak up. Do the opposite of fighting for money, love, sex and seeking others to fulfill your life, live your own truth! You’ve come the long way, but you’re here. And you’re progressively living NOW. Remember, God, Self, then all others. Otherwise, you’re living a lie your whole life—to think it’s any order other than.

You may not bust out with whatever others consider top-notch on the scene. But again, neither are they! Many of your so-called celebrity gurus are actually distracting humans from their Selves. They drive an economic market at helping themselves; humans pay them to tell them to do what they donot do themselves. They get paid for nothing. You may have little money, so what! Truth prevails. BE comfortable…more comfortable. Trust yourSelf. You will have to guide others more, to get back them back on their feet, or path. Especially with the recent storm that came upon your town. Still stay braced in readiness.

You’d be surprised at how many people are living the very things they say they hate—lies! The holiday shopping numbers did not suffer, regardless to what your media reports. Homeless people are suffering. Hungry people are suffering. Those numbers grow constantly. EVERYONE is responsible for such BEings. When they come to embrace those things with understanding, then will they begin to know their own Selves in truth; they can put love into that which they are, are not, that which they caused, and at the same time, bless it and let it go.

You’re experiencing your own creations by way of storms. Some massive, some personal storms, many both. When something is left unattended, a storm develops. Storms are necessary. Yes, they cause destruction; and they also leave behind new ground—to build on.

Build on that foundation right there. Get your mind out of what once was. Avoid making dead-end scenarios from past experiences, you know, “what could have, should have, would have, if only he/she/I had/had not….” Meet yourself where you’re at and not where you THINK others want to see you (not necessarily where they praise you to be). Humans crave to be seen for whom they are, yet they refuse to let go of others thoughts of who they once were, or should be, so they find great difficulty in accepting their Selves. They find difficulty accepting themselves for what is, so they develop jealousies, ill will, hatred and pain and such toward others—they forget about “what goes around comes around” —until their own selves are experiencing those very pains and more.

You’d be surprised; I acquired one degree while receiving welfare, and the other while working. I kept those two journeys’ a “secret”; all while others, including my family, mocked and chastised me and categorized me as a “welfare baby momma”. Humans often are “taught” (usually on the vein of a musical beat or some culturally unconscious movie) to project whole creations of Self-destructive “trigger words”, like “baby-momma” or “baby daddy”, to the masses reality; to their Self-destruction. I still can’t say for sure what that word constitutes (it depends on the beholder). It’s one of negative vibration of mockery, envy, and anger—and needs to be put out of existence.

That must be done by those who created it or fate takes over. That’s another conversation.

I took my bachelor finals with my youngest son on my lap, even to the disagreement of other students. The professors understood; they used me as a teachable moment. The students felt like somehow in a three hour window, that my son would “catch” a disease—he almost did—a strong strain of discrimination.

Humans will find a way to BE uncomfortable, if it means causing the elimination of even just one “competitor” out the game. They glorify their material attributes. They need to SEE things to believe things. When you are spirited, you believe it to see it. Faith is your net, cast it out to manifest what you desire. The stronger your net, the further and wider it spreads out into the unniverse. How do you think Jesus fed thousands? His brethren had only a few fish and some loaves; he cast out a faith “net” and received (manifested) to his heart’s desire—to feed a people. Grow your faith; make strong your net, strong enough to weather storms.

Imagine when I gave out invites! Lolol the faces!!! I hid my cap and gown until I got to the ceremony, and I hid it back on the block. I did welcome the personal praise of strangers though. I walked across that graduation stage with others who had just as many struggles as me. But they lacked gusto to speak up, and despised me for doing so. When folk found out, even my family, I graduated from welfare baby momma to “think she better than somebody”. Go figure huh?

Speaking for up yourSelf keeps you in the greater game; the one so few dare to attempt and even fewer last. Silence holds disunion to light. Speak in earnest; meditate in spirit and in truth. Those who despise today praise tomorrow and curse the past.

As single parents, we’ll always be sought to be degraded, especially when we rise above. That means we’re one less family unit to blame for “living off peoples paychecks”. One day they’ll be no one to blame but the true villains. We aren’t any different than anybody else—we just do what we do with kids behind us. So in a sense we’re held to a higher standard. We’re directly responsible for molding lives other than our own—to be raised and evolved to the betterment of theirSelves and others. We want to be able to do that without being blamed for everyone else’s projections. In the meantime, the rich continues to pay the middle class to blame the poor as the ones stealing from them.

Live your life without seeking approval of the world. Let it be exposed that you’re not only DOING what you feel, but that you’re FEELING what you’re doing and you are BEing what you feel. And so, in essence, you experience what you BE. There will be others who will FIND anything about you to believe it’s to their detriment, even though it is not so. Still, live for yourSelf. Live for God so that ALL may receive. Is that not why you’re here?