Self Reflection: Sadie and Maud

Sadie and Maud

by Gwendolyn Brooks

 

Maud went to college.

Sadie stayed at home.

Sadie scraped life

with a fine-tooth comb.

She didn’t leave a tangle in.

Her comb found every strand.

Sadie was one of the livingest chits

in all the land.

 

Sadie bore two babies

under her maiden name.

Maud and Ma and Papa

nearly died of shame.

 

When Sadie said last so-long

Her girls struck out from home.

(Sadie had left as heritage

Her fine-tooth comb.)

 

 

Maud, who went to college,

is a thin brown mouse.

She is living all alone

In this old house.

 

Willful Relationships: I Love You Now Change

Sistahs…the hardest thing for many of us to admit is….”It’s ME!” Ok granted your man/boyfriend/husband actually is being “wrong” toward you—in any way that wrong may be described. You must realize it is YOU who keeps his negative flow fed; you continually tolerate the pain caused to you (physical, emotional, mental, financial) by allowing what he is doing “wrong” to live in your energy aura. In other words it’s YOU!

Your partner is going to be who he is until he learns to know better AND be better…and he’s going to do what he does…until he learns to do AND does better. Fault lies in the person who thinks they know a person better than that person knows them self…and attempts to change them. You’re implying that there is something wrong with him in the first place. Not the man God sent you…no way!!! (slanted)

What you attempt to see and bring out of them, you must first see and bring out of your self. In other words, for every wrong you see in him, what is it about yourself that limits your thinking to a negative state?

People don’t change according to OUR will— unless they fear us by some distress or threatening state we place them in. Who’s to say even still we are experiencing their truth? How many times have you heard of the prisoner to writes a “confession” under forced pressure? You can try to force someone to “stay” with you but for so long–eventually truth will split from the lie, leaving the lie exposed to address itself.

Who wants to live in a fear-filled relationship disguised as Love when in company of others (who are blind to truth)…but behind closed doors…o boy…you’re tearing his head off about every little thing? From him looking at other humans with his own two eyes…to the tone in which he said hello to someone. Where is the freedom to love and BE as each human with their own will?

SO we can scream and fuss and cry and pout and ask everyone between humans and heaven, “Why won’t he change?!!!” He won’t change even when he does…because YOU haven’t changed in order to see the change in him.

And he’ll move forward without you…because you still harp on his old ways and therefore cannot see the good in him…because you can no longer see your own good. You’re too busy fussing, being angry, and picking fights. You don’t trust him…because you don’t trust yourself. You hate him…because you’ve grown to hate yourself.

And if he does continue to transgress against you, you grow more into contempt, when you really should let go. Letting go is a strong message to ANYONE who hurts you. It says, “I love you but not enough to hurt myself for you.”

SO–your prayer was answered—and he did change…but so did you—for worse. How’s that working out for you where you’re at?

Be There

The greatest love I ever had was the love I could not see. When I felt detached I thought it a dream and fought to see what I could not feel.
But I forgot in all the time I searched to see, I was losing the feeling inside of me. And looked to fill the emptiness with a veil of pretentious.
This whole thing isn’t about moving forward in so much as it is letting go. We can’t take it with us if it ain’t us. Accepting that pains us.
We know better when we get here. Then we forget. Then we remember. We go back. Then come back and then realize we can’t take it back with us.

You don’t know gut wrenching pain until you realize you separated yourself from GodSpirit. But to hear your ancestors did the same. Forgive it.

The Light Chamber

I went into a light chamber last night. I was singing the pain away, and calling Jesus between breaths. I FELT the song I sang in every fiber of my being. It was my song-the more I let go the greater I sang!

It felt like my soul was being sucked with every note I belted out. The depths of my soul was being cleansed. There was a bed there, but I couldn’t lie down, I was too caught up in my spirit.

When you finally sing your own song, you’ll understand-the only way TO survive is in the spirit. You’ll be yourself-in a different light-of your truth.

God is light. God is love.

We Reap What We Sow

One of my dreams last night, I was at a place with some other people as students. We sat high above something of a big space. It was beautiful and some parts one could see their reflection. We were informed that it echoes what we speak. We were told to be mindful of our intentions before were spoke into the echo space, because what we put out would come back. Including our thoughts.

But also, I saw some events from my past in that same space. I forgave all of those people for mocking me, stealing from me, and abusing me, and I forgave myself for being ignorant. We prepared to leave, and some of the people ran to the echo space and said things that would serve only themselves. I used it also but we’ll keep that private. :0)

We Reap What We Sow

One of my dreams last night, I was at a place with some other people as students. We sat high above something of a big space. It was beautiful and some parts one could see their reflection. We were informed that it echoes what we speak. We were told to be mindful of our intentions before were spoke into the echo space, because what we put out would come back. Including our thoughts.
But also, I saw some events from my past in that same space. I forgave all of those people for mocking me, stealing from me, and abusing me, and I forgave myself for being ignorant. We prepared to leave, and some of the people ran to the echo space and said things that would serve only themselves. I used it also but we’ll keep that private. :0)

The Light Overcomes All Illusion

I recalled when the world was much younger, matching my years; everybody was enjoying free will. The entertainment phase of that time boomed right when cable networking appeared. Food was splashed with msg and pretty colors, and the most addictive substance on the market, sugar, was sprinkled on and in everything. Folk were pulled out of nature and into their houses…to watch television…and eat. There was no such thing as recycling yet, and folk went wild with their imaginations; they wanted it, they got credit and they got it.

Nowadays, they’ve been “taught” to recycle their garbage and their beings; just throw away their feelings into the garbage. How else could they “protect” all they’ve acquired; even relationships?

Then came privacy and confidentiality. Privacy gives people a sense of hiding their THINGS and GOING-ONS from view of others. While confidentiality gives people a sense hiding the RESULT/CONSEQUENCE of what those THINGS and GOING-ONS have done to their/others lives. Anything from health, crimes,.habits, drugs, and even relationships and money (including lottery winners). It’s not all negatives.

Throwing away feelings throws away a sense of community. People have become just neighbors, and barely know each other; except to say hello should their eyes mistakenly meet. This is part reason why we who’ve been here all along, are coming to surface, are looked upon as “crazy” or “outsiders”. We say hello. We smile. We hug. We encourage. We notice. And noticing people, and giving compliments causes uncomfortibility—because feelings are stirred. Any heart-felt or spirited connection is abruptly disconnected.

Some of what happens in reference to trickery and formulating illusion on human minds, is sought through movies as entertainment; so they believe that if they didn’t see in the theater, on television or the news—“it ain’t true”. Humans are very suspicious of what’s not drenched in glitz and glamour and money.

In a music video I recently saw, a singer was drugged “into” buying a dream. Recalling my own experience, I thought, “Whew, I’m glad I didn’t do that!” So when I say I suffer because I’m determined, I mean it in the sense that I live in this world but not of it. I work for God. However, I can now easily see how that same statement plays out for the other team as well. I’ve had the opportunity on a few occasions, to have anything I can imagine, in this world. I refused every time. Because at the head of all in THIS world, is just man. I admit, I almost slipped up a few times, having had pen in hand, having been intimidated upon refusal. I’ve seen people I knew of here, over there, and I just think, “Just for THAT, she/he sold their soul??”

We feel tired sometimes being conductors “holding it together” for the sake of HOPING that ALL wake up soon. Now we’ve moved away from hope into FAITH; having increased numbers amongst ourSelves. Because we know the Light overcomes all darknesses.
Be blessed.