Self Revelation: Storm Dream

I “dreamed” last night that the water was coming up on shore….the house I was in was being covered in black dirt by some black worker men. I heard a man say “We’re preparing against the storm coming.”

I went to the top floor and looked out the window and the water was coming… there was nothing left.

I saw that there was only one other house that was covered it had a light coming from it. What I saw all I could say was JESUS! My heart skipped a beat and thumped and I fell back from the window.

Spiritual Dialogue: Vibrational Storms

Problem: I end up in fear every time I plan to go to the dance club. I plan with people and then as the day is coming closer I think of reasons not to go. I think about my responsibilities at home, my family, my job, what the people at the club  will be doing, and what if something goes wrong. Then on the day of, I literally get an anxiety attack, and that becomes my excuse not to go. Then I feel safe again when the time has passed.

As a result, I’ve lost a lot of friends. Is this all in my head or should I really stay away from party clubs? I really do want to be social, make new friends, and have a good time while being responsible.

Solution: You are suffering with inner imbalance. Your external environment seeks to transform your inner peace, while your higher awareness is trying to maintain your inner peace.

What you fear is going “back” to where you use to be and what you use to do…and finding out that people haven’t changed.

Whatever is on that frequency, the people, plants, animals, is because their vibrations match that particular frequency. They are “locked” in that frequency, until they are ready to change. Your fear is actually an indication that you’ve grown or matured beyond that frequency. Your “present” vibrations are contrasting with your “past” frequencies, which never actually go anywhere, you just grow beyond them. Your fear, which is in fact a healthy signal, is telling you to be aware that something is not right between your inner state and in your external environment.

Humans are much like weather systems within a greater system. Sometimes before a pouring rain, is thunder and lightening. Thunder and lightening is caused by two very different temperament systems coming in contact with each other, so it is within humans. Within you may be a peaceful vibration, and  going into certain external vibrations can cause an unbalance in your being, thus the anxiety. The external vibrations are seeking to occupy and take over the same internal space, thus creating your thunder and lightening. The result will be a high or low, or happiness or unhappiness.

You are experiencing an internal/external “battle” within your mpral conscious mind. This “battle” causes unbalance in your whole being, which for many people, can result in mental and/or physical illness, if they are unaware of their inner unbalance.

If you listen to your vibrations warnings and take the steps necessary to redirect your thoughts early, you can void “falling” back into old ways–lower frequencies.

Instead of fighting with yourself about having a good time in old places, try something new…something different than what you did before. Meet new people where you are. Your goal is to enjoy your new life responsibly while being at peace within yourself, and being happy where you are and with the people you are around.

Self-Healing: Revelation, Realization, and Forgiveness

If there’s one of a million things I learned of Empaths, being one mySelf, there is one theme that continues to be a problem area for both the skilled and unskilled Empath. As part of being empathic, we engage in another’s persons issues and problems, we take things on as if it’s all our own—to help another soul to be able to heal unto itSelf. When we have an issue or a problem it’s all our own, unto ourselves—to be solved in our God space, as we tend to not want to “burden” others with our problems. On the other hand, many Empaths put their Selves through a personal suffrage, not realizing (for any given length of time) that the problem is not theirs!

In other words, an Empath “places him/herself in another person’s shoes”, experiences their problem/issue, and then advise a solution. The skilled Empath goes through the process spiritually conditioned, and is therefore ABLE to provide stronger assistance. When the truth is advised, there are no lines to read between other than what is being revealed in oneself, not the advisor. The advisor is simply reflecting one’s self back to them. People have only become more intelligent at hiding their problems in synonymous and false beings. That doesn’t mean their problem can’t be solved. THIS stage is where begins the battle of beings and truth.

We cannot meet ourselves with ego when our truth is revealed to us. We will only continuously come up against a wall and crumble again and again. Until we are willing to accept ourselves and others for who we and they are, we will not realize who we are not, individually, and collectively. So instead of forgiving ALL, we hold ourselves and others in contempt of being. In such a state of being, there is very little chance to healing self. Ego is not above truth. Ego is not truth. Ego forces its hand so as not to feel like its “losing” the battle of BEing. This is why most Empaths do not attempt to help others who do not fully express readiness, willingness, and are desirous in receiving help. Truth does not convince. Truth IS. Ego gets up in arms when truth is revealed.

Empaths can and do sometimes make a messy situation messier. They “forget” to come out of the persons shoes and give them back their own experience to continue handling. We sometimes believe that others problems are ours to overcome; they are not. Each one must live their own truth. Live your truth. Each person is responsible for their beings and doings. To seek advice and/or guidance of another is encouraged, however, one must be ready, willing and desire to be ABLE to go through the healing process with their own Self.

Here, I share this no-fail process of Self-Healing. As with anything else, the more of yourself you give to it, the better of your Self you will receive back. Bless


God’s remedy to heal any suffering soul, broken spirit, worn or broken heart, and any relationship is a process:

REVELATION: Opening oneself up to review of his/her faults and/or negative beings; their transgressions.

-REALIZATION: Now knowing and acknowledging to his/her transgressions and accepts his/her responsibility and role he/she played in revealed transgressions.

FORGIVENESS: Asking for forgiveness unto ones God-Head is perhaps the most important part of healing. The bowing of the head acknowledges that one has realized and is sorry for their transgression. against others and/or Self. Forgiveness is a confirmation of agreement between two or more beings to move forward and no longer hold Self or others in a place of negative vibrations; or contempt.


Self-Acceptance: Embrace Anticipation And Become A Creator

I made notice over the last few weeks, that issues we’ve all hidden under our surfaces in our hearts, are coming up; and they must be addressed by none other than ourSelves. We’re always given an opportunity to create our own destinies, it comes with the “free will” package. Otherwise we end up experiencing fate.

It isn’t that God wants us to lose anything, we simply are to make new ground for BEing truthful in our hearts, BEing spirited. To build anew we must clear away the old; much like a condemned building. Outside, it may look fine with no noticeable problems, but looking inside, there’s great damage, badly in need of reconstruction. So the building must be gutting and in some causes, completely knocked down. This is when we think in terms that we as humans sometimes have to lose it all in order to find ourSelves. If not all, we often lose things and people very dear to us, ranging from homes to family, relationships of sorts, to jobs, and various in-betweens. However, we can also think of gainful possibilities.

Resistance to acceptance to change causes that hell-like pain. That’s our minds, actually, it’s our egos. It may be that we feel like what, “What did I do to deserve this?!” Maybe something, or maybe nothing. But your vibrations in the universe accepts that it is time for change. Believe it or not, your God-frequency is not centered. We’re expected to be in acceptance to change, even embrace it lovingly, in anticipation, not expectation.

Why anticipation? Simply because when we don’t know what to expect, we anticipate. Anticipation raises our awareness to be ready, willing and able to embrace opportunities, and make them our own. When we are the creators of our own destinies, then we know what to expect. Believing in ourSelves, our abilities, and our powers to create let’s us BE in the highest frequencies of the universe. The higher the frequency, the clearer and more direct and unobstructed the path; and the quicker the manifestation of our desires. THAT is how we can have anything that we desire. Believe it in your best intention for yourSelf, and others. Begin to see it and experience it.

I know it’s easier said than done; this is part of the reasoning to clearing beings that no longer serve to our highest selves. It is very difficult to BE a creator, let alone create, when we are being in low frequencies or vibrations. I’m having to making changes in my own life that was causing so much pain, until I realized, “How bad can it be? I trust that I’m making the right decision.” Making that simple statement from within mySelf raises my vibrations into a higher frequency. The more I affirm my positive state in being, the higher my vibrations, and thus, the more attractive I am to the higher frequencies.

We normally can’t see down the line, because there is none. Not in wake-state. Dreams and visions even give us just a glimpse of possible timelines. It is our duty as dreamweavers to create the best possible timeline to serve our highest being. What we do NOW is how we BE now; and doing gives us a plethora of opportunities to create our better beings; our highest beings, albeit ego. Every moment that we clear ground after a storm, or even feel so much as a “wrong” vibration, is an opportunity for us to stay in alignment with higher frequencies and consistently live our truths.

We want the good of everything, but we fear to release the pain of what is no longer serving to our highest purpose. So many questions come up, so much doubt, shame, anger, and tears! BUT, that comes from a place of Self-judgement. We judge ourSelves based in fear of change and expectation, when really we ought to be embracing the process of anticipation to change.

Attachments, to people and things cause pain at the very thought of having to let go. We set ourselves up because we know better; that nothing in the world lasts forever. The only constant is change. Become into awareness of yourSelf and see your current state for what it is, and know that by guiding your own destiny NOW, changes the past, and creates a better “future” for all.

Self-Transformation: My Birthday Wish

Having been through so many transformations in the last 36 years, I must say 2012 has been the biggest and has been the most impactful on my BEing.

I recall being tired toward the end of 2011 because all the time I had here, I had not done what I was supposed to do. I got caught up in the death throes of the world.

Regardless, I was never “left alone”, I called, my God showed up, I was “rescued”, I praised us, and walked back into the valley.

Well, this time I called. Silence. I pleaded. Silence. O crap. I thought, “Whatever, You probably don’t exist anyway, all that was ME!” I became sick. I had a heart attack. When I touched people, I caught a fever. I argued with everyone and about everything. I was far off frequency.

Any project I touched, soured and never came to fruition. I couldn’t see people for who they were, so I latched to trust those who presented as light, but got me in corners that I had to fight my way out of—sometimes literally. My gifts were gone.

I was cut off. The phone stopped ringing, the invites stopped, I was cold all the time, even to the touch. With TWO degrees I couldn’t find a job! I was tired and would sleep for days and nights at a time. My daughter would ask for her mommy I’d say, “I am your mommy.” And she would say, “You not my mommy!”

I had an affair with a married man (yes we’re even responsible for our ignorance (lack of information)) and that catapulted myself straight to hell. Ladies! When I tell you the pain and ridicule was indescribable…I mean it!!! It isn’t a hell where you are attacked by righteousness others; you are attacked by others like your self! I didn’t know that at the time though…they presented themselves as righteousness because I was the newest one in hell at that time. They were already there. Gossiping. Their jealousy came from their thinking that I was acting as if I was too good to be around them.


Just like heaven has its qualifications to be amongst likeness, so does hell. But where do you go when you’re too good for hell and not good enough for heaven?

I grappled in the darkness, I used drugs to get up and to lay down. I was a prescription addict for muscle relaxants and Tylenol 3. I’d go about mySelf high on marijuana—thinking no one could tell. Very few people knew—it didn’t matter if no one knew. God knew.

It got so bad, I would be walking down the street and strangers would make statements, “I see you!” or “Your head is uncovered.” One time it was raining and this old lady walked up to me, I lifted my umbrella and she said, “Where are you supposed to be?” I was freaked. I never turned around to see where those people went. I already knew.

I still called mySelf paranoid swearing. Whatever you heard, I heard different. And whatever you saw I saw different. People wearing white robes. And even on the clock. Every time I looked, it said 11:11, or 1:11, 2:11, 3:11 and on…to the T. Someone was trying to get my attention. I refused to answer because I was stubborn. Yet, I yearned to be home again. I cried like a baby when I was alone.

Let me tell you, I wasn’t in church at the alter, as I had done many times since I was a child—first forced. I wasn’t on my knees praying nor was I reading my bible. When Christ came to me, I was on a date. You know, a man/woman date. I was single still.

It wasn’t until after my re-membrance in Christ that I realized, “Prepare your home, and keep my word. I’m coming to you like a thief in the night…only God knows your appointed hour. You’ll know me when I come unto you.” The Light is extraordinary…I was covered in it. Everything was.

My date was an atheist. God came through that man and told me stop second-guessing mySelf, to trust mySelf.

I moaned and cried and my body was in pain for days and nights. I ate only bread and water for three days and nights. God was working on me. That was 1/7/12.

Throughout this year, my faith, my strength, my love, and trust in mySelf, in Christ, and in God has grown and solidified tremendously. I refuse to condemn mySelf under man’s ignorance. I look back and can see how far I’ve walked because I see very little of my old self left.

Heaven’s army has put as much work into me as I was willing to put into mySelf. There were times when I thought I didn’t have the courage to cross the thresholds presented to me, I still had fear so I could not cross over. I did allow others doubts in their minds, beliefs and beings hinder my own Self progress, but God is patient, as I am still a human. Now I listen, I respect, I converse, and I keep moving on my path. I be aware of mySelf over all elses. I received my “gifts” back and more.
Only recently, I had a few dollars and thought I’d spruce up my home. I dreamed mySelf somewhere in the future doing some big things. The thought came to me that there is no future. There is only NOW. So when I woke up, I played on the idea all day; it was later that night that after I wrote an article. The light bulb came on.

The idea came to me, “Buy your wordpress domain now.” I was exxcited! Today, as of my birthday, I’m a certified owner of nine domains. My house still needs sprucing, but it’ll happen in its time. I sponsored my idea. God taught me to don’t sit around waiting for the future; BE in NOW. I have no idea what to do with all of the sites, but when the idea comes to me—I’m on it! In the meantime, I work on them. To empower you unto yourSelf. Bless

You may say anybody can do that, I say yes but can everybody be successful in Christ? I asked for forgiveness unto mySelf, I forgave all who abused mySelf in any way. I couldn’t move forward if I didn’t. I put in truth work with mySelf and others to get here and I’ve been transformed. I’m washed and prepared and dressed in Christ.

I work in the universe, for God. So do many of you, you just have to acknowledge, that it IS and has been God all along who runs this whole function. Not you by yourself, not me by myself. Not governments. God, Self, Spirit—together makes the whole BEing human a miracle.

I’m thankful, grateful, awesome and Lord knows, I do some nonsense to my Self again—-well I’m not. I love mySelf too much. I love God even more. My God is merciful and glorious, forgiving all loving yet stern in will.

So here it is, my last birthday in the Age of Pisces. I’m moving into a peaceful, all-loving state. Age of Aquarius. The world is all kinds of experiences, and mother earth herself, withstood mans nonsense. She’s shaking it off and moving up. Many humans are shaking it off and moving up.

You know, someone asked me recently, “How do you know it’s GOD speaking to you though?” I could’ve quoted the whole bible, and brought the spirit forth, and he STILL wouldn’t have believed me! That’s how the world works! Even in our seemingly holy friends, who jump about in church, and throw their hands up only in a crowded room, on one day of a week–THERE too, sits temptation to give up on ourSelves! God does NOT temp us! God IS and IS NOT. There is no in between…like today you feeling Godly but yesterday God was tempting you…NO! You were tempting yourSelf! So you FEEL like you want to tempt another! You can’t be anybody on their own path just because you want to glorify yourself. Some folk have wounds so deep and some have only scraps in the world. Be patient with your Self.

You can’t ACT Godly…well you can but why when you can BE Godly? I use to act Godly when I was in the world and folk who was acting just as foolish loved it! And when you don’t say a certain word or run find something in scripture (or better yet, you find a scripture that goes AGAINST YOUR moral beliefs) or they just didn’t get the holy ghost on cue..and their foot just didn’t have that extra step like the pastor’s… know! You hear folk saying, “That’s not how God acts!”, or “The devil is a liar!” Well of course the devil’s a liar…and you get credit for pointing that out! Put you lack tools to upright your brethren! Live your truth! If you believe that your truth isn’t God….so be it! Still every knee will bow and every tongue will confess.

Many of us can explain religion, but can we explain God? The prophets and teachers and messengers come to warn you, bring you into awareness of your BEings, against yourSelf and against God; you fear yet you still indulge. We come to show you the way back unto the light. If you continually quote John’s experience, or Paul’s, or any other and sitting around waiting for those same exact things to happen to you, what can you say you’ve done with YOUR life? Besides wait? Come out of the church buildings, sitting and waiting and BE the church. God is for ALL. ALL has his works.

I’m so satisfied with everything, if I died, I’m still waking up in heaven. I just beat y’all to the punch on housing! Lighten up. Death is a part of living life.

Seriously though…take it how you want to but my truth is God exists…and only in hell would we forget the very essence of our spirits. Happy birthday to me. My wish is for you to find your way back. I love you, so does Jesus Christ, his team, and so does God.

Self Empowerment: Let Go and Feel Again

In order to experience our highest experience of Self, something we have to do is “let it go”. I was dwelling in love (nature) this evening when something I saw shook my core, and it triggered a childhood memory. I became frightened and honestly, I wanted to cry…and I’m sure I will…in private. But whether in public or in private, in order to let that experience go, I cannot deny the feelings that come up. I cannot be afraid to address the issue and allow it to linger inside me; only to be triggered again and again by some other experiences. Keeping my feelings inside will only cause me dis-ease in my mind and can also manifest illnesses in my body, such as, stress, headaches, pains and such. As the storm comes up, the longer I “don’t let it bother me”, the greater it will rage. Since I don’t want a raging storm inside of me, I must face it and embrace it. I must go with it.


How do I do that, considering that I may face many storms throughout my life? I traverse storms by not being afraid; by WANTING to experience the good in me—and FEEL LOVE within myself. By overcoming fear, I will be transformed. I will use love to empower me to overcome storms and transform them into teachable moments. The more I empower mySelf with gratitude, with patience, and with understanding of mySelf—the more I can transform and become my highest expression of Self. Now instead of experiencing raging storms, it make just rain, or drizzle, or I make experience just a clouded moment—provided, I address my issues as they come up. When I feel issues come up that do not/no longer serve to the betterment of my highest BEing, I don’t deny them. I embrace those feelings, and acknowledge them for serving their purpose, bless the feeling and let it go. Bless


There is a hard shell that encompasses your heart—placed there by you. You may be thinking that you’re protecting yourself from pain—from heartbreak. When, in fact, you’re suffocating your heart. You’re not allowing yourself to FEEL anything. You’re afraid to feel! Ignoring your own feelings is not the same as letting stuff go. And you won’t let stuff go because you’re afraid to not have something to complain about, you’re afraid to not have something to blame others for, or make them responsible for why you are unable to BE. YOU are afraid to let go. And even though you cry, scream, and wrench in pain….you refuse to let it go.

Giving into your FEELINGS or allowing yourSelf to FEEL what you experience is a way to overcome dis-ease of the heart. Until you admit that you’re angry, or sad, or afraid, you will continue to experience the issues that surround those feelings until you do—and not only within yourself, but also outside of yourself. You already judge yourSelf very harshly, and even when it isn’t so, you think others are judging you. You’ve come to a point where you’ve polluted yourSelf with THINGS—in order to seek outside approval, or validation from others. You don’t want your feelings addressed, but you want to be loved for how many things you have and how much they cost. It literally pains you to seek validation from others, but you need someone to blame when experiences don’t work out in your favor. You’ve already judged yourSelf unable to live up to your own approval, so you acquire more THINGS, never quite being satisfied, because you think another being has upped you one. Thus, you have a cycle of void experiences; being detached from your emotions. Let it go.


 Fall back, into love with yourSelf. Trust yourSelf to know that no one is doing anything to you that you did not ask for. Become aware and attract something better for yourSelf. Desire it. You may say to people that you are fine—but in your heart you hurt. You envy. You despise. You hate. Yet, you can’t figure out why others “treat” you this way or that. Because in your heart, you won’t let it go. What you are experiencing IS your heart’s desire! You want a peaceful, loving, and understanding world. That’s good that you say you want it, however you have to not just think it, not just say it—you have to FEEL it! Believe it! Live it!

Be the ONE. Be the one to let it go. Be the one to ask forgiveness for holding yourSelf hostage. Be the one to mean it—to live it. Be the one to let all that “stuff” go, and fall back into love with yourSelf. Only then can you begin to feel true love in others.