Tune Up: Check In with God

I think some people serve a God without details and still others serve details without God…if only many people knew how limited they are by focusing on trying not to sin as oppose to simply serving in the better part of themselves and others. I feel some type of way when someone focuses so hard on not sinning (missing the mark) that they don’t realize they never actually live for the hits…the good hits of life. When a person presumes to know where you are in your life in Christ by measuring where their self is…is a sin…a miss…every time. One thing I learned directly from God is “Only God judges all man fairly.”

When I get into the truth of my religious experience (which is different for everyone while the core heart purpose may be the same) people go into denial and onto the notion of telling me what SHOULD be happening while ignoring what IS happening. That’s where false judgement comes in…and the whole “that’s the devil tricking you” or “did you take your meds you sound crazy”. Honestly it causes me to stall or chug along in hesitation–not fully express.

I thank God for being in my life…for being my life. For allowing me in the capacity that I am to travel to other dimensions and interact with all kinds of beings (that would shock some people to white hair) We all get low in our thinking/being daily…we’re human. But the heart…no man knows our hearts…and it is with our hearts that we serve the universe religiously.

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If tomorrow this planet rolled over I wouldn’t care…that doesn’t mean I’m going to neglect the life that I am living right now or purposely be poor so not to feel guilt that others don’t have or not beautify myself to make others feel beautiful. I’d be denying my life and every one of my cocurrent states and every possibility of growing or moving pass the point I stand today…! You see some people don’t want you to grow..they tell you you’re here to live, obey your government, work and die. And hey if you believe it you can achieve it!

I’m continuously uplifting and part of uplifting yourself is you gotta leave your sad stories and your abusive stories and your lonely stories alone. Let the dead bury the dead. So in serving humanity and others religiously we can relate to others but we don’t have to get low with them…and open ourselves to reflect others sins. Because its not us! We can tell our GOOD stories and keep telling them..how we’ve grown and learn to keep growing and enjoy the fruit of our labor. Think about it, if we all keep telling the same stories around and around who’s really growing anywhere out of the “program”?

Check in with God see where you’re at and grow some more but you don’t have to accept being reminded of your sin/s by anyone. Put them type out your life and let the dead bury the dead. Because you…we are living our truths from where WE each are…not from where peoples judgements lie. Knowing all I know, I’m very much infected by human thought viruses. And if I’m not constantly checking in with God, I become sickened mentally and physically. I was made aware of such last night. That I’m somewhat of a lightening rod for selfish and needy humans. A place where they can take and not give. That person understood me to the dot in “i”.

No two sins are alike. My sin is that in caring for others and about how they receive my care and messages…I tend to hold back God in sharing the details. When in all universal honestly, it is God that I need–to be able to give and be replenished without being rendered weakened and sick for lengths of time. Getting caught up in work was my excuse. But there are really no excuses are there? The very thing we are caught up in is the very think God can help us manage and still serve our higher purpose. We all can make time to check in with God. Where are you missing the mark in your life?

I was told last night to “Let it go and let God flow all through it!” I am glad someone told me…cause while I often tell others and myself…I needed to hear it from another like myself–God sent a confirmation. God loves me…and God loves you. God is working on me and I’m grateful. And still I serve. Hopes in that this passage will help you in some area of your life. Bless

Spiritual Dialogue: Vibrational Storms

Problem: I end up in fear every time I plan to go to the dance club. I plan with people and then as the day is coming closer I think of reasons not to go. I think about my responsibilities at home, my family, my job, what the people at the club  will be doing, and what if something goes wrong. Then on the day of, I literally get an anxiety attack, and that becomes my excuse not to go. Then I feel safe again when the time has passed.

As a result, I’ve lost a lot of friends. Is this all in my head or should I really stay away from party clubs? I really do want to be social, make new friends, and have a good time while being responsible.

Solution: You are suffering with inner imbalance. Your external environment seeks to transform your inner peace, while your higher awareness is trying to maintain your inner peace.

What you fear is going “back” to where you use to be and what you use to do…and finding out that people haven’t changed.

Whatever is on that frequency, the people, plants, animals, is because their vibrations match that particular frequency. They are “locked” in that frequency, until they are ready to change. Your fear is actually an indication that you’ve grown or matured beyond that frequency. Your “present” vibrations are contrasting with your “past” frequencies, which never actually go anywhere, you just grow beyond them. Your fear, which is in fact a healthy signal, is telling you to be aware that something is not right between your inner state and in your external environment.

Humans are much like weather systems within a greater system. Sometimes before a pouring rain, is thunder and lightening. Thunder and lightening is caused by two very different temperament systems coming in contact with each other, so it is within humans. Within you may be a peaceful vibration, and  going into certain external vibrations can cause an unbalance in your being, thus the anxiety. The external vibrations are seeking to occupy and take over the same internal space, thus creating your thunder and lightening. The result will be a high or low, or happiness or unhappiness.

You are experiencing an internal/external “battle” within your mpral conscious mind. This “battle” causes unbalance in your whole being, which for many people, can result in mental and/or physical illness, if they are unaware of their inner unbalance.

If you listen to your vibrations warnings and take the steps necessary to redirect your thoughts early, you can void “falling” back into old ways–lower frequencies.

Instead of fighting with yourself about having a good time in old places, try something new…something different than what you did before. Meet new people where you are. Your goal is to enjoy your new life responsibly while being at peace within yourself, and being happy where you are and with the people you are around.

Willful Relationships: I Love You Now Change

Sistahs…the hardest thing for many of us to admit is….”It’s ME!” Ok granted your man/boyfriend/husband actually is being “wrong” toward you—in any way that wrong may be described. You must realize it is YOU who keeps his negative flow fed; you continually tolerate the pain caused to you (physical, emotional, mental, financial) by allowing what he is doing “wrong” to live in your energy aura. In other words it’s YOU!

Your partner is going to be who he is until he learns to know better AND be better…and he’s going to do what he does…until he learns to do AND does better. Fault lies in the person who thinks they know a person better than that person knows them self…and attempts to change them. You’re implying that there is something wrong with him in the first place. Not the man God sent you…no way!!! (slanted)

What you attempt to see and bring out of them, you must first see and bring out of your self. In other words, for every wrong you see in him, what is it about yourself that limits your thinking to a negative state?

People don’t change according to OUR will— unless they fear us by some distress or threatening state we place them in. Who’s to say even still we are experiencing their truth? How many times have you heard of the prisoner to writes a “confession” under forced pressure? You can try to force someone to “stay” with you but for so long–eventually truth will split from the lie, leaving the lie exposed to address itself.

Who wants to live in a fear-filled relationship disguised as Love when in company of others (who are blind to truth)…but behind closed doors…o boy…you’re tearing his head off about every little thing? From him looking at other humans with his own two eyes…to the tone in which he said hello to someone. Where is the freedom to love and BE as each human with their own will?

SO we can scream and fuss and cry and pout and ask everyone between humans and heaven, “Why won’t he change?!!!” He won’t change even when he does…because YOU haven’t changed in order to see the change in him.

And he’ll move forward without you…because you still harp on his old ways and therefore cannot see the good in him…because you can no longer see your own good. You’re too busy fussing, being angry, and picking fights. You don’t trust him…because you don’t trust yourself. You hate him…because you’ve grown to hate yourself.

And if he does continue to transgress against you, you grow more into contempt, when you really should let go. Letting go is a strong message to ANYONE who hurts you. It says, “I love you but not enough to hurt myself for you.”

SO–your prayer was answered—and he did change…but so did you—for worse. How’s that working out for you where you’re at?

Think That Big And Be Better

My thoughts in God have been so amazing in 2012 alone. The many conversations, training simulations on “how to BE”, the peaceful walks in places beyond what I ever thought to think. The preparations, the guidance; all so beautiful.

I used to have a crippling fear of death that I wouldn’t sleep for nights. I cured it in my God state.
I judged mySelf to be a worse person than I was so I was afraid to be saved. I’m saved.
I thought I couldn’t BE by mySelf outside of a relationship. I AM.
God knows Im honored to have been blessed with children. My change is greatly reflected in them, as they are my greatest and most consistent creations thus far.

Feeling the changes and noticing subtle differences in this world compared to the old world, I continue to diligently work on blending my dreams into my current reality. I sometimes think they’re just too big or that my dreams are had before its time. That only means the trinkets of this world aint doing much for my particular being these days. What I desire, money can’t afford. Peace, Love, and Harmony. Many desire these beings, so we BE.

I no longer believe that there is an entity separate from me looking to reign hell down on me, other than man. My christ in me is only as faithful and committed as my will is assuredly strong in christ.

I often hear a people griping and arguing about whom to praise, and what race should that whom be. As children we are ignorant. Our parents and grandparents grew up in a time of fear-based doctrine. They only taught us (beat into us their fear). We were taught to praise Jesus the man, whom most assume is of white persuasion. Coming into adulthood we are learned by our environment and experiences that Jesus may or may not be black. I only ever see white light, or golden showers of all the ascended masters I encounter. So for me, the argument is void. My heart tells me that I have to see things for myself to experience, otherwise I’d just still be discussing my life away and not doing what I came here to do.

Then somewhere between the new religious church and the world’s view that church is a hip-hop phrase, most get confused and abandon ship. The line between the two seems to have merged. Did the church step into the world or did the world go into the church?

May I say to all who listen. It is much easier said than done to unlearn something ingrained in us from childhood; but it is doable.

Others projections hinders a people from creating in each his/her own mind. There’s no time like NOW. At the same time that we remove something from ourSelves, something must take its place, lest we feel empty within, or unfulfilled. Fill your emptiness with God. Feel God and let God fill you.

The mind is so powerful, and man knows this! YOU know this! The invader never takes something from its host without giving something back. The give back is not good. An invader also has the ability to paralyze its host/victim, feed off of it, and then either let it die slowly or suddenly cause it a quick death, should it no longer serve its immediate purpose. In other words, the victim doesn’t know its being fed on because its been desensitized.

Victims don’t know they are victims (slaves). They are given a false sense of perception, never knowing the true; unless some particular chord is touch out of nowhere, plucked. They deny the slight feeling. It happens again. Pluck Pluck. They get to listening for it. Pluck Pluck, wake up. They look around and then at themselves, only to see parts missing. The pain hits! What the hell is going on?! Flashes of their old whole Self. What happened?! Why am I here?!  My God! I gotta save mySelf before I die. WHO got me like this?!

Now, upon waking, we first have to fight against that which feeds off us. Some of us may even fight for a while then give up and don’t even work to live for ourSelves anymore.

Those of us that keep fighting eventually learn that in order to save ourselves we have to keep looking within ourselves, removing the poison and adding self-care, to heal our whole Self. At some point, we learn that the stronger we become, the greater our strength and abilities become.

Eventually, the invader understands it no longer has the ability to control you.

Imagine if we all realized that we’re being fed off of and then we answer to that plucking chord in our spine, and then wake up and save ourSelves! The invader would break down and leave. Leaving us to live in peace again.

Think that big and BE more.
Bless

Self-Healing: Revelation, Realization, and Forgiveness

If there’s one of a million things I learned of Empaths, being one mySelf, there is one theme that continues to be a problem area for both the skilled and unskilled Empath. As part of being empathic, we engage in another’s persons issues and problems, we take things on as if it’s all our own—to help another soul to be able to heal unto itSelf. When we have an issue or a problem it’s all our own, unto ourselves—to be solved in our God space, as we tend to not want to “burden” others with our problems. On the other hand, many Empaths put their Selves through a personal suffrage, not realizing (for any given length of time) that the problem is not theirs!

In other words, an Empath “places him/herself in another person’s shoes”, experiences their problem/issue, and then advise a solution. The skilled Empath goes through the process spiritually conditioned, and is therefore ABLE to provide stronger assistance. When the truth is advised, there are no lines to read between other than what is being revealed in oneself, not the advisor. The advisor is simply reflecting one’s self back to them. People have only become more intelligent at hiding their problems in synonymous and false beings. That doesn’t mean their problem can’t be solved. THIS stage is where begins the battle of beings and truth.

We cannot meet ourselves with ego when our truth is revealed to us. We will only continuously come up against a wall and crumble again and again. Until we are willing to accept ourselves and others for who we and they are, we will not realize who we are not, individually, and collectively. So instead of forgiving ALL, we hold ourselves and others in contempt of being. In such a state of being, there is very little chance to healing self. Ego is not above truth. Ego is not truth. Ego forces its hand so as not to feel like its “losing” the battle of BEing. This is why most Empaths do not attempt to help others who do not fully express readiness, willingness, and are desirous in receiving help. Truth does not convince. Truth IS. Ego gets up in arms when truth is revealed.

Empaths can and do sometimes make a messy situation messier. They “forget” to come out of the persons shoes and give them back their own experience to continue handling. We sometimes believe that others problems are ours to overcome; they are not. Each one must live their own truth. Live your truth. Each person is responsible for their beings and doings. To seek advice and/or guidance of another is encouraged, however, one must be ready, willing and desire to be ABLE to go through the healing process with their own Self.

Here, I share this no-fail process of Self-Healing. As with anything else, the more of yourself you give to it, the better of your Self you will receive back. Bless

 

God’s remedy to heal any suffering soul, broken spirit, worn or broken heart, and any relationship is a process:

REVELATION: Opening oneself up to review of his/her faults and/or negative beings; their transgressions.

-REALIZATION: Now knowing and acknowledging to his/her transgressions and accepts his/her responsibility and role he/she played in revealed transgressions.

FORGIVENESS: Asking for forgiveness unto ones God-Head is perhaps the most important part of healing. The bowing of the head acknowledges that one has realized and is sorry for their transgression. against others and/or Self. Forgiveness is a confirmation of agreement between two or more beings to move forward and no longer hold Self or others in a place of negative vibrations; or contempt.

Bless

Self-Realization: After Revelation Is Realization And Then Forgiveness

Last night, I dreamed I went into my past. There was this apartment (actually, it looked like a combination of my first three apartments) that was mostly dark and a few males were there, and some friends, lying around watching television, hanging outside the apartment, smoking weed and cigarettes. I went into the bedroom and there were dressers and closets everywhere. For the strangest reason no one wanted me to go near them, but I felt a need to look at what was inside.

I opened the drawers and saw things of mine. I opened the closets and saw things of mine (I don’t know how I knew they were but they were). They were some of the most expensive silk clothing pieces with the most amazing patterns and colors hanging in the closets. The dressers held my personal things and jewelry that lit up the room. I couldn’t believe my things were stored in such a dark place! The men kept trying to keep me from looking through everything. I got a bag and began taking my belongings back. I started feeling a sense of freedom and power with every item I picked up and put in the bag. People started to disappear or walk out.

There was a man there who came and sat at my feet. I looked in the mirror and caught his eyes staring at me, they were the blackest eyes but they were shiny in my light. He tried to distract me with his physical self, and my body began to sway, and then he got behind me. I attempted to move my body away from him but he leaned on me and his body was heavy. I said, “No.”, and he disappeared. I prepared to leave with my bag, and I woke up.

I thought on the dream while lying there staring at the ceiling. I thought about how my things lit up the dark room and how powerful I felt touching my belongings again. AGAIN?! Then it hit me! I realized what was happening and I couldn’t believe it but I did. I didn’t come into this world filthy and full of sin. I was good until I caused mySelf to be distracted by the physical-ness of man and ALLOWED him to take anything he wanted of me. What a revelation!

Over the last few days, I’d been praying somewhere between a fog and being awake. Not necessarily on my knees but wherever I may be sitting, standing, and even in my bed. I was asking to be shown what I did with wrong mySelf in all these years, and where did I lose mySelf at.

It’s strange how I found a part of mySelf stuck in some dark apartment somewhere “guarded” by some lowly beings. Honestly, you know what I thought? “How the fuck could I have allowed mySelf to even lay with such filthy creatures?!” I’m not regretful, becaused I asked. That means I was ready to face my mistakes. I don’t have a feeling to sit in regret. God knew it would happen and was happening, I just had to find mySelf and realize for mySelf what I was doing, and clean mySelf up and get back right with God. After my realization moment I walked around my house in the dark. I drank some water and found my way to the couch and prayed. Afterward, I went back to sleep.

I dreamed that I attempted to team up with some women that I know in this world, to create a childcare business. It was more like I was watching mySelf. I watched how the women teamed up behind my back to figure to get more money without me knowing and would eventually cut me out of the business. Then I was on a staircase that led off to both the left and the right. I don’t know where they led to, but I had to make a decision. I woke up.

This morning I observed mySelf, “I’m floating around here feeling completely light-headed. I turn my head; everything has to catch up with my view. Granted I have a lil nasty cold but this is unusual, I feel so light. Yesterday I thought I felt the ground move under my feet.” I broke out in tears crying and asked God for forgiveness. It really sucks that I was so distracted from my path. God is a good God to show me where I went wrong and who wronged me, I wanted to know—I needed to know. Some of my past boyfriends have asked me to forgive them in dream-state and in wake state. I just always said ok. I’d always blamed myself anyway for being so stupid for being with them. But I realize now, that if nobody does anything wrong but ourselves, who or what is the point of forgiveness?

Now I truly can forgive others without them even being present. Honestly, I couldn’t forgive anyone without knowing what I was forgiving them for. The process is to look at what of our highest expressions were prevented from manifesting, or taken from our Being after we REALIZE who we are being at present is REVEALED to us. As we gather back the different aspects of ourselves, and come back into our own true Self, we ask FORGIVENESS and forgive every transgression against ourselves and God. Otherwise, we spend our whole lives doing what others are doing, and matching Jones’s and being competitive and will end up in nothingness.

As much as I want to be around others and have a great social time and even become into a personal relationship with a man—it just isn’t God’s will at this time.  I’m cleaning my life up so I cannot be jumping back and forth over the fence. I won’t be tempted to do anything outside of my Self, even if I never have another friend in this world. There’s a whole new life for me somewhere else (yet it’s my old life at the same time), in some other time. I fell somewhere through something, into this nonsense. I really don’t want to go back home with any “lowly vibrations” of this world.

After revelation is realization and then forgiveness. After my wrong was revealed to me, I realized I had gone against God and I asked for forgiveness of me and all my past selves.. I also forgive whoever knowingly and unknowingly wronged me against my God. Bless

Self-Being: Embrace Your Whole Self And Keep Peace Within

When a young child sees its shadow, he/she becomes defensive and attempts to “get rid of it”. Children throw air punches, stomp at it, and even shout at their shadows.
Children are light-workers within their own rights. They encompass truth, love, joy, compassion, empathy, and such. In my dreams, I often see circles of dancing and singing children at the top of something as the sun rises in the east. On one occasion, I was encircled by many of them as they singed and danced—the light was so warm. I danced with them. We were all in a peaceful place.
Children who become alarmed at seeing their shadows become into a momentary state of encountering physical darkness (not night time). They’re alarmed because the environment is light and suddenly this dark thing is attached to them—doing everything they do—without a face or anything else of matter—other than darkness.
I’ve observed this “struggle” in my own children at one time or another; and as well as other children. Avoid calling the child names or snapping at them. Give them about two minutes to interact with their selves. Just observe quietly(unless they begin to attack their physical self, which I’ve seen children ripping at clothing and more). Then intervene by bringing them back into a peaceful state. Explain to them that their shadow doesn’t go anywhere, even when they can’t see it. It’s a part of their being.
There’s a lesson to be learned about embracing ones own lightness as well as darkness to keep Self-peace, within and without. ALL IS and IS NOT. ALL is light and dark, up and down, here and there, and everywhere and nowhere. One must embrace that which they ARE NOT as much as that which they ARE. Fighting against yourSelf will only leave you to always have something to be distracted by other than the betterment of yourSelf—your peace.
Acknowledge your dark side as well as your light side. Your ego is still there, its just that NOW your life is guided by your higher beings; your positive Self. This higher being raises your frequencies. Ego loves a fight, to be noticed—to be in control to serve itself through your ignorance; and it is ego that keeps your frequencies low.
To obtain and keep peace within yourSelf, acknowledge your light and dark selves. Bless your whole Self and also bless those beings that do not serve to evolve your higher Self—and let them go, and avoid seeking those things out again. Live your truth. Bless
Gem:
When one is thinking about/doing something, there’s a certain vibration or energy that works specifically with thought processing—I like to think of it as God‘s will coming in before my actions. If the though does not match the vibrations of ones higher self,  a “battle” with their ego happens. A lot of Self convincing to down right ignorance goes on during a “ego battle”.
Now, if you decide to go with your higher self (higher vibrations)…you continue on to prosper in peace and joy and love; time is not a factor. Simple as that!
If you decide to go with your ego….well now. Let’s see:
You get an instant false feel-good gratification—until the thing you chose is taken away or used up. Then you have emotional imbalances/dis-eases (regret, shame, guilt, depression, anger, etc. Then you smack your forehead, “I KNEW better! I shouldn’t have done that! Damn, I should’ve listened to mySelf!!” Now you either wallow in more dis-ease with your yourself, blame yourSelf for not being strong and dwell in self-pity, OR,  you’ll get up, admit to yourself you were wrong, ask for forgiveness unto yourself and God. Go start again on the higher chord or choose something else to better yourself.
Either way, it’s still your choice, but why all the unnecessary pain if you know better?
Bless