SELF-DETERMINATION: Relationship Goals: Where Are We Going?

I had a conversation with an associate…we talked about be single for very long times and how we view ourselves and the kind of relationships we’ve had that caused us to become single, and where are we going now. She recently got back into a relationship…I asked her what is it based on this time, she seemed puzzled. I asked her what their goals are together, she looked at me like “What goals??”

THAT is the next phase I’m going into…as much as humans say marriage is not a goal. Marriage is a goal like any other. And within the marriage are goals that the two people agreed to achieve together. There are people out there who move blindly(seeing what pops up along the way), and there are people who move consciously(creating what they desire along the way). Four seasons suffices to know whether you want to marry a person or not..whether you want to achieve longtime goals with them or not.

Too many sisters fall back into the okkee doke of “It’s been a long time, I’m lonely.” Sex is such a common base that it’s mistaken as a necessary aspect to bond two people…clearly the result is “baby mama/dada” syndrome…it never bonds anything but bodies and fluids. There are only two goals in sex…babies and orgasm. And then play house until one of you catch afire for another body somewhere. Believe I know it. I’m qualified to talk about it. A year is long enough to know whether you’re dating a selfless person or a selfish person. Why? Because selfish people don’t have patience anymore like they use to..if you aint got it or ain’t giving it, they’ll get it somewhere else. And they’ll tell you that! After a year the veil begins to thin into the truth…not what they want you to see…but the TRUTH. And sometimes the truth can be ugly! A lot of selfless people are dating some ugly people! But you ask them..and their ugly man/woman is the most beautiful thing in the world! That’s some strong wool in their mind.

Not to mention the reality shows showing sistahs beating the bloody hell out of each other to be with some dusty male who believes he benefits from his “hoes” unconscious idiocy. Two years and more is too long to fake the funk…the signs are too easy to see when you’ve become conscious. Four seasons is long enough to ask the ultimate question to the brother, “Where are we going from here?” 

Right now for me, I’m dodging traffic… I’m conscious enough to see bullshit coming…conscious enough to hear what I can’t see coming. Conscious enough to step back when there’s too much of everything or nothing going on. No rush, I can always chill and write about it. In our reapings are the conscious wisdoms of the ignorance we sowed. If we’re seeking to cross the street, we have to acknowledge what we’re crossing from, lest we think it’s something different only to find out it’s the same thing.

We’re not to call on God to escape from life but help us to consciously grow into our better and best selves.

Don’t Be Led Astray

I dreamed that I was at the church I went to as a youth. My adopted father was there (who is deceased but I talk to during pivotal moments in my life). It had been announced that Jesus Christ was coming. The church was packed, and there were deacons there clearing the halls saying, “Jesus Christ is Coming!” I was standing at the back seats where I always sat. I was so glad because this meant that all of us who sat at the back of the church would be the first ones to see him coming. I was thinking that he would see me or I would touch his robe. A woman who stood behind me (which would’ve been in front of me originally) tried to distract me about my clothing (a dress with red and blue flowers). She gave me a read tie and I ran off to put it on, but halfway to the bathroom, I realized I would miss Jesus, so I dropped the tie and ran back. She was not happy. The hall lights were turned out. I thought it didn’t matter, we would know him by his light. People were clapping so loud and singing….and we were waiting…I woke up.

*In writing this dream, I see several areas that can easily match biblical  scripture. Yet, I also see so personal growth.

We easily become distracted by things that people in the world say is best for us. Do I believe this to be a prophecy dream? It doesn’t matter.

What I DO believe is that we should keep our “houses” in order, and not be distracted, to be able to experience the Light for ourselves. The council of Heaven has never led me astray. Not once.

I had a guide to prepare me for Hurricane Sandy (though I didn’t know that’s what was coming at those times). When the storm was over, my house was not touch even though it sits at the water. All others around me flooded out or worse. Sometimes I just stare at the water in silence, causing myself a headache trying to expand my mind to comprehend God.

But I know what I do know because the heavens councils know I desire to go to where God is. Of course, I must focus on NOW, HERE, in order to that. I’m in love with God. People still ask or look at my house and don’t get it. That’s God loving me too!

That’s how it’s been my whole life. Except I’ve been intently listening since 12/25/11; now I have journals and typed papers of “dreams” and experiences. And I’m so grateful to be a traveler.

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Self-Healing: Revelation, Realization, and Forgiveness

If there’s one of a million things I learned of Empaths, being one mySelf, there is one theme that continues to be a problem area for both the skilled and unskilled Empath. As part of being empathic, we engage in another’s persons issues and problems, we take things on as if it’s all our own—to help another soul to be able to heal unto itSelf. When we have an issue or a problem it’s all our own, unto ourselves—to be solved in our God space, as we tend to not want to “burden” others with our problems. On the other hand, many Empaths put their Selves through a personal suffrage, not realizing (for any given length of time) that the problem is not theirs!

In other words, an Empath “places him/herself in another person’s shoes”, experiences their problem/issue, and then advise a solution. The skilled Empath goes through the process spiritually conditioned, and is therefore ABLE to provide stronger assistance. When the truth is advised, there are no lines to read between other than what is being revealed in oneself, not the advisor. The advisor is simply reflecting one’s self back to them. People have only become more intelligent at hiding their problems in synonymous and false beings. That doesn’t mean their problem can’t be solved. THIS stage is where begins the battle of beings and truth.

We cannot meet ourselves with ego when our truth is revealed to us. We will only continuously come up against a wall and crumble again and again. Until we are willing to accept ourselves and others for who we and they are, we will not realize who we are not, individually, and collectively. So instead of forgiving ALL, we hold ourselves and others in contempt of being. In such a state of being, there is very little chance to healing self. Ego is not above truth. Ego is not truth. Ego forces its hand so as not to feel like its “losing” the battle of BEing. This is why most Empaths do not attempt to help others who do not fully express readiness, willingness, and are desirous in receiving help. Truth does not convince. Truth IS. Ego gets up in arms when truth is revealed.

Empaths can and do sometimes make a messy situation messier. They “forget” to come out of the persons shoes and give them back their own experience to continue handling. We sometimes believe that others problems are ours to overcome; they are not. Each one must live their own truth. Live your truth. Each person is responsible for their beings and doings. To seek advice and/or guidance of another is encouraged, however, one must be ready, willing and desire to be ABLE to go through the healing process with their own Self.

Here, I share this no-fail process of Self-Healing. As with anything else, the more of yourself you give to it, the better of your Self you will receive back. Bless

 

God’s remedy to heal any suffering soul, broken spirit, worn or broken heart, and any relationship is a process:

REVELATION: Opening oneself up to review of his/her faults and/or negative beings; their transgressions.

-REALIZATION: Now knowing and acknowledging to his/her transgressions and accepts his/her responsibility and role he/she played in revealed transgressions.

FORGIVENESS: Asking for forgiveness unto ones God-Head is perhaps the most important part of healing. The bowing of the head acknowledges that one has realized and is sorry for their transgression. against others and/or Self. Forgiveness is a confirmation of agreement between two or more beings to move forward and no longer hold Self or others in a place of negative vibrations; or contempt.

Bless

Self-Realization: After Revelation Is Realization And Then Forgiveness

Last night, I dreamed I went into my past. There was this apartment (actually, it looked like a combination of my first three apartments) that was mostly dark and a few males were there, and some friends, lying around watching television, hanging outside the apartment, smoking weed and cigarettes. I went into the bedroom and there were dressers and closets everywhere. For the strangest reason no one wanted me to go near them, but I felt a need to look at what was inside.

I opened the drawers and saw things of mine. I opened the closets and saw things of mine (I don’t know how I knew they were but they were). They were some of the most expensive silk clothing pieces with the most amazing patterns and colors hanging in the closets. The dressers held my personal things and jewelry that lit up the room. I couldn’t believe my things were stored in such a dark place! The men kept trying to keep me from looking through everything. I got a bag and began taking my belongings back. I started feeling a sense of freedom and power with every item I picked up and put in the bag. People started to disappear or walk out.

There was a man there who came and sat at my feet. I looked in the mirror and caught his eyes staring at me, they were the blackest eyes but they were shiny in my light. He tried to distract me with his physical self, and my body began to sway, and then he got behind me. I attempted to move my body away from him but he leaned on me and his body was heavy. I said, “No.”, and he disappeared. I prepared to leave with my bag, and I woke up.

I thought on the dream while lying there staring at the ceiling. I thought about how my things lit up the dark room and how powerful I felt touching my belongings again. AGAIN?! Then it hit me! I realized what was happening and I couldn’t believe it but I did. I didn’t come into this world filthy and full of sin. I was good until I caused mySelf to be distracted by the physical-ness of man and ALLOWED him to take anything he wanted of me. What a revelation!

Over the last few days, I’d been praying somewhere between a fog and being awake. Not necessarily on my knees but wherever I may be sitting, standing, and even in my bed. I was asking to be shown what I did with wrong mySelf in all these years, and where did I lose mySelf at.

It’s strange how I found a part of mySelf stuck in some dark apartment somewhere “guarded” by some lowly beings. Honestly, you know what I thought? “How the fuck could I have allowed mySelf to even lay with such filthy creatures?!” I’m not regretful, becaused I asked. That means I was ready to face my mistakes. I don’t have a feeling to sit in regret. God knew it would happen and was happening, I just had to find mySelf and realize for mySelf what I was doing, and clean mySelf up and get back right with God. After my realization moment I walked around my house in the dark. I drank some water and found my way to the couch and prayed. Afterward, I went back to sleep.

I dreamed that I attempted to team up with some women that I know in this world, to create a childcare business. It was more like I was watching mySelf. I watched how the women teamed up behind my back to figure to get more money without me knowing and would eventually cut me out of the business. Then I was on a staircase that led off to both the left and the right. I don’t know where they led to, but I had to make a decision. I woke up.

This morning I observed mySelf, “I’m floating around here feeling completely light-headed. I turn my head; everything has to catch up with my view. Granted I have a lil nasty cold but this is unusual, I feel so light. Yesterday I thought I felt the ground move under my feet.” I broke out in tears crying and asked God for forgiveness. It really sucks that I was so distracted from my path. God is a good God to show me where I went wrong and who wronged me, I wanted to know—I needed to know. Some of my past boyfriends have asked me to forgive them in dream-state and in wake state. I just always said ok. I’d always blamed myself anyway for being so stupid for being with them. But I realize now, that if nobody does anything wrong but ourselves, who or what is the point of forgiveness?

Now I truly can forgive others without them even being present. Honestly, I couldn’t forgive anyone without knowing what I was forgiving them for. The process is to look at what of our highest expressions were prevented from manifesting, or taken from our Being after we REALIZE who we are being at present is REVEALED to us. As we gather back the different aspects of ourselves, and come back into our own true Self, we ask FORGIVENESS and forgive every transgression against ourselves and God. Otherwise, we spend our whole lives doing what others are doing, and matching Jones’s and being competitive and will end up in nothingness.

As much as I want to be around others and have a great social time and even become into a personal relationship with a man—it just isn’t God’s will at this time.  I’m cleaning my life up so I cannot be jumping back and forth over the fence. I won’t be tempted to do anything outside of my Self, even if I never have another friend in this world. There’s a whole new life for me somewhere else (yet it’s my old life at the same time), in some other time. I fell somewhere through something, into this nonsense. I really don’t want to go back home with any “lowly vibrations” of this world.

After revelation is realization and then forgiveness. After my wrong was revealed to me, I realized I had gone against God and I asked for forgiveness of me and all my past selves.. I also forgive whoever knowingly and unknowingly wronged me against my God. Bless