Self-Reflection: Black Hole

Black Hole
by Hurit Nitika

Consumed by all and nothing…
Highest greatest widest deepest fullest vessel…NOTHINGNESS.
Nothing IS.
IT is nothing…
until it is born.
Nothing bears all…thought time space matter…
…and nothing.
I was before
I AM.
I will…
…again
be
Nothingness…and all.
Forever.

Spiritual Dialogue: Vibrational Storms

Problem: I end up in fear every time I plan to go to the dance club. I plan with people and then as the day is coming closer I think of reasons not to go. I think about my responsibilities at home, my family, my job, what the people at the club  will be doing, and what if something goes wrong. Then on the day of, I literally get an anxiety attack, and that becomes my excuse not to go. Then I feel safe again when the time has passed.

As a result, I’ve lost a lot of friends. Is this all in my head or should I really stay away from party clubs? I really do want to be social, make new friends, and have a good time while being responsible.

Solution: You are suffering with inner imbalance. Your external environment seeks to transform your inner peace, while your higher awareness is trying to maintain your inner peace.

What you fear is going “back” to where you use to be and what you use to do…and finding out that people haven’t changed.

Whatever is on that frequency, the people, plants, animals, is because their vibrations match that particular frequency. They are “locked” in that frequency, until they are ready to change. Your fear is actually an indication that you’ve grown or matured beyond that frequency. Your “present” vibrations are contrasting with your “past” frequencies, which never actually go anywhere, you just grow beyond them. Your fear, which is in fact a healthy signal, is telling you to be aware that something is not right between your inner state and in your external environment.

Humans are much like weather systems within a greater system. Sometimes before a pouring rain, is thunder and lightening. Thunder and lightening is caused by two very different temperament systems coming in contact with each other, so it is within humans. Within you may be a peaceful vibration, and  going into certain external vibrations can cause an unbalance in your being, thus the anxiety. The external vibrations are seeking to occupy and take over the same internal space, thus creating your thunder and lightening. The result will be a high or low, or happiness or unhappiness.

You are experiencing an internal/external “battle” within your mpral conscious mind. This “battle” causes unbalance in your whole being, which for many people, can result in mental and/or physical illness, if they are unaware of their inner unbalance.

If you listen to your vibrations warnings and take the steps necessary to redirect your thoughts early, you can void “falling” back into old ways–lower frequencies.

Instead of fighting with yourself about having a good time in old places, try something new…something different than what you did before. Meet new people where you are. Your goal is to enjoy your new life responsibly while being at peace within yourself, and being happy where you are and with the people you are around.

Spiritual Dialogue: Checking In

It feels like a lot to bear and sometimes I think it is…though as I might appear to be OK. As I’ve said before, I’ve taught myself to left go of illusion in moments, spend as little time in void as possible, gain the new ledge I require, wake up, write on it, share some, and keep it moving.

I admit…there are consequences to doing that…consequences to not resting…going without grounding for long periods. The body gathers too much energy and it becomes that much harder to release…at lease in an upright manner. The body muscles freeze in pain…and sometimes it vibrates so hard…it burns the hands and feet…or feels like a thousand needles sticking.

…and sometimes I can’t believe some of the things I say…until it solidifies itself as truth…usually through some synchronized event.

Not to say I don’t trust myself…its just new to me as old as it might be to the ancestral realms…it be heavy at times…the realizations…and the awakenings. And a good amount of that time I thinking how much I put myself through…how much I messed up.

I rarely get upset with those who blinded us to the truth…cause then I’d still be giving them my attention…to their benefit and my detriment. I try to tell others but like myself…there are so many awakenings and realizations to go through…for all of us. Don’t get stuck on any one truth…because another one…a newer one is surely going to usurp that current one.

Still others like myself are fast-tracking…I have yet to admit the realization to the reason…if I slow down and focus on the details of why, I might fool myself into believing I can’t do it.

As we view the various groups traveling together…they travel as one external being..but in a fearful manner called SAFE. While there may be safety in numbers externally…everyone is not on the same path internally. Internally many still hold tight to illusion while externally appearing to have moved into higher frequencies. Our energies tell us otherwise. Internally, many still have yet to answer to themselves.

Knowledge and experience are two different things…many are sharing knowledge…few are sharing their experiences…proving internal fear…of ridicule..or something, someone or other. Or self.

And so this is part reason why I travel alone…and meet others at intervals. Though I also admit…I don’t stay around long enough…I feel because much like in wake state…I also carry dual duties in sleep state. I’m working on me and still having to show others the way.

By the time someone gets my message I done moved on in my journey…not saying I don’t mind back-tracking though. I probably just need to utilize more tools to set the message out front.

Resources have come about enabling us to imprint guidance into the ether via the writing, video, and such.

Thanks. Thank you. Much.

Willful Relationships: I Love You Now Change

Sistahs…the hardest thing for many of us to admit is….”It’s ME!” Ok granted your man/boyfriend/husband actually is being “wrong” toward you—in any way that wrong may be described. You must realize it is YOU who keeps his negative flow fed; you continually tolerate the pain caused to you (physical, emotional, mental, financial) by allowing what he is doing “wrong” to live in your energy aura. In other words it’s YOU!

Your partner is going to be who he is until he learns to know better AND be better…and he’s going to do what he does…until he learns to do AND does better. Fault lies in the person who thinks they know a person better than that person knows them self…and attempts to change them. You’re implying that there is something wrong with him in the first place. Not the man God sent you…no way!!! (slanted)

What you attempt to see and bring out of them, you must first see and bring out of your self. In other words, for every wrong you see in him, what is it about yourself that limits your thinking to a negative state?

People don’t change according to OUR will— unless they fear us by some distress or threatening state we place them in. Who’s to say even still we are experiencing their truth? How many times have you heard of the prisoner to writes a “confession” under forced pressure? You can try to force someone to “stay” with you but for so long–eventually truth will split from the lie, leaving the lie exposed to address itself.

Who wants to live in a fear-filled relationship disguised as Love when in company of others (who are blind to truth)…but behind closed doors…o boy…you’re tearing his head off about every little thing? From him looking at other humans with his own two eyes…to the tone in which he said hello to someone. Where is the freedom to love and BE as each human with their own will?

SO we can scream and fuss and cry and pout and ask everyone between humans and heaven, “Why won’t he change?!!!” He won’t change even when he does…because YOU haven’t changed in order to see the change in him.

And he’ll move forward without you…because you still harp on his old ways and therefore cannot see the good in him…because you can no longer see your own good. You’re too busy fussing, being angry, and picking fights. You don’t trust him…because you don’t trust yourself. You hate him…because you’ve grown to hate yourself.

And if he does continue to transgress against you, you grow more into contempt, when you really should let go. Letting go is a strong message to ANYONE who hurts you. It says, “I love you but not enough to hurt myself for you.”

SO–your prayer was answered—and he did change…but so did you—for worse. How’s that working out for you where you’re at?

BEing Aware: Karma Doesn’t Have to Last a Lifetime

We all must put in the self-clearing work required–to revoke all agreements that we have made, either consciously or subconsciously to give our soul’s power away to external authorities. We experience unnecessary suffering or limitations, to bear “karmic” burdens that are NOT ours to bear.

This is not a quick process, and I am going through my own version of Karmic clearing on a daily basis. I’m so close within my own truth that sometimes I literally experience a chain of positive events on all “past present future” frequencies of self, when I do/be positive. And just a flip of my energy anywhere outside of my truth will thrust me into a quicksand of aggravation, distrust, causing dislike of self and limited un-thinking. In other words, we have the ability, when we are aware of SELF, to measure KARMA!

Who has time to worry about what “rackup” KARMA is holding when we’re working on ourselves in keeping in synch with our own truth? How does KARMA decide how much reward or punishment to dish out and when? In other words when we’re good, we’re really good, and we’re rewarded–by external forces? …and when we’re bad we’re really bad, and we’re punished–by external forces? Then why are negative forces “allowed” to enslave positive forces? Karma seems to dish that one out unfairly huh?

I AM as I AM. AWARE.

We seek to strike a balance among our many dimensional selves…some negative some positive but all acknowledged and respected.
We’ve come to a place where we know we’re are no longer experiencing “KARMA” but indeed we are experiencing SELF as I AM.

Sometimes we get “locked” into a particular frequency outside of our truth. When we make choices to “come down” and interact with anyone/anything unlike Self-truth, we experience a “sliding scale” of e-motions and/or beings…in other words…sometimes we ego trip…we compete…we compare…we judge(though we do redirect from that place very often)…we lust…we joke…we like material things too. (After all, we are multidimensional beings.) That doesn’t mean we’re going to suffer…for THINKING (contrary to popular fear belief).

We suffer in BEING in our lower frequencies–unaware.

We suffer when we are anywhere outside of our heart’s frequency…not by thinking but by BEING. In the lower frequencies, we do without thinking. In the higher frequencies, we think before being–we are aware. So though we sometimes THINK about “going down” we have plenty of time to not BEcome into our lower frequencies (though we live among so many others living in their lower beings). Our lower thoughts are not feared or hated,  instead, they are acknowledged and redirected back to our truth–where they are ex-posed and forgiven.

Many do get “locked” in low frequencies even though it may not be their heart’s intention (because they are not thinking in their higher aware self, just doing…and eventually BEing lowly). The longer those ones stay outside of their truth frequency the more lost they become.

We are experiencing our SELF awareness. There are no rules to our experiences, because we are aware and we create as we go along…and we do it freely–as a sovereign beings.

KARMA need no longer reflect SELF –I am aware. KARMA is an external law outside of SELF. We can easily believe (as I have before this inner realization) that whenever we do something “wrong” this KARMA being is going to “get us back for it–if not right now, then some time into the “future”, when we least expect it. Should we worry over it and tread heavy hearted on ice? No! That’s called guilt or shame–and we do not suffer when we void BEing in lower frequencies that produce guilt and shame.

We are aware of who we are, what we are doing, how we are doing it…we are BEing SELF. No more cycling…no karma. I AM SELF, AWARE.

Creative Power: Make a Wish and Let Go

We suffer with trust issues, because we suffer with control issues. We keep asking for something/someone (why ask for something if you can create it for yourself?)…and before our desired thought fully releases its “seed” into the creative universe we snatch control of the “seed” AND figure we can decide how it should BE-how it starts…grows out…AND finishes. Then if it/they become something unaligned with our desires we build a distrust for it/them! Then we feel “stuck” and develop a negative view of the whole outcome.

I think it was last night…somewhere in the universe…I heard in my thought vibration, “Let it stream. Void trying to control what hasn’t happened yet. Let the manifestation of the thought as IS develop simply by BEing true to you.” That higher directive can be used in every aspect of our life.

I’ve experienced and witnessed so many positive things develop in my life in just the last two years alone-simply because I let go and let God (highest universal frequency) create for me. I have a lovely home (sanctuary) that survived Hurricane Sandy in and of itself, while all around it was havoc (I imagined God put a “mark” on my door or an energy bubble around the whole complex), and also I now have a great career that pays more than I ever negotiated for my experience, skills, and abilities (I was unemployed for two years-loonngg years). My family is growing together positively.

Spiritually, I’m becoming stronger in my faith and growing a sturdy relationship in knowing God as the reason for my being. And I’m being better! My heart’s dialect enables me to tap into different frequencies and vibrations, and various timelines–for pleasure, sight-seeing, school, gatherings or inspiration to create.

Knowing what those seeds produced, I’m convinced that my desire to create a good solid relationship uplifted in love is no further than when I truly choose it to be–if I let go of the idea of how I think it SHOULD be. Just being true to myself will attract what I desire, all I have to do is be open and available.

In the mean time, it may be that we have some aspects of our self that require our attention, for healing purposes. I admit that there are some ways and beings that would benefit to uplift my indwelling love; and there are some ways and beings that I would benefit to purge from my DNA. Thus, I am being true to myself in being able to let go of negative hangups, embrace my higher being and heal–to the benefit of all.

There’s no way we keep saying we’re better off by ourselves than with someone and not feel some sort of negativity about the reason/s behind our statements. That is a form of control in the aspect that we think we’re protecting self from “harm”, when we’re actually attracting “harm” to self and distracting from self what we truly desire. We also say we’re too busy to give passionate love, but find time to greedily partake of others wholehearted passion. And when they’re unavailable we strike out in search of someone who is available to give to us. That is control in the aspect of seeking for something that another possesses while being too selfish in our lower self to create our own abundance–and share.

We will never be satisfied, and will be forever seeking–until we learn to let go of the idea of how others should make us happy and instead create our own abundance of happiness–and share. As we change the greater scheme changes.

When we trust ourselves, surely we can find trust in another. It’s the same with love, compassion, kindness, forgiveness and such. In expanded thought, we DO have the ability to “create” the person we want to be with…BUT to a fault. Because how can we put into another what we do not have in our self? What is that one or two (and more for some) things you can’t seem to find in your relationships and/or that you want in that other person? Whatever it is, create it in YOU first.

But then again, if you’re an energy vampire(admit it to yourself) or have the ability to quickly detach (to void confrontation), than you are one of those who accepts people just as they are…to do what you will to only your benefit, because you either lack consistent clean energy and/or you possess a deficient self creativity “gland”.

However, when you know yourself, you know that whatever you create and then share, there’s plenty more where that came from–the universe in you.

You can create the man or woman IN your dream, but you are the creator OF your dream. Whatever is in you, you have the ability to create in reality-and whatever you put into your creation, will be reflected back to you.

I am grateful to God and all others. Peace Love and Harmony to you.
1/1/2014

It’s Dreamwork On The Side

This should suffice (for now). :0)

I could explain 5D and timelines and multi-dimensional travelers to you (in mass cut and paste understanding, not necessarily experience) or I could explain it to you through individual experience (but that would introduce you to a one-sided limited view of multi-dimensional travelers as a whole).

However, I also prefer to be out in the open so as not to have to repeat myself continually in in-boxed messages. In the mean time, you may want to read “Our Ultimate Reality” by Adrian P. Cooper (He is the closest truth I know of at explaining our multi-dimensional lives). Am I worried about who ever “THEY” is? No. Been there, done that. I work only for God.

I never was one for myself to get the quick answers from mouths. I enjoy research and investigation. I might’ve been such had I not a terrible experience with law enforcement in my past. I look often to my higher self for answers and references, which often drops in my view by “coincidence but not”. So I only know to encourage others to SEEK for their selves whatever they desire, though I may make reference points as it’s only right to guide; I’m an empathic way-shower, it is my duty. I pretty much know whether people are seriously interested or going for an ego battle. Either way, they learn something about me and their selves. As well, I.

I pieced together who I am and why I am here. I absolutely never expected any one else to do it because they only told me or others more lies, Yes ,even my so-called family (black sheep that I am yet provider to many). Sometimes, I think growing up in foster care was blessing. I never really attached to anyone I couldn’t vibe with—that was practically everyone—probably why I was in so many homes. I only learned to do wrong to people from those people doing wrong to me.

I have a habit of telling the truth (some call it “DANG!” every so often) or saying nothing at all. I let others tell what their mouths speak. I’m patient with truth as truth is patient with me. Truth could take years to be shown and known, as I learned from young. I do also have an impatient side but I leave that up to God…cause lord knows! A blessing could be a curse on the same token.

Recently, I had the opportunity and pleasure to indulge in higher energetic levels with very close company. I was opened to a whole other aspect of myself (to be embraced and manifested in 3D) that left even me in the willows weeping when I was alone (with joy of course). Since then I cannot seem to find the “right” foods to nourish my system…I’m working at it. Oh, I’m not against marijuana use, though some would believe I am. I just know from past experiences, it’s tended to enhance my natural abilities or “activate” dormant ones. I figured it had to be happening to others–maybe not. Maybe they just smoke to be cool and depressed from their spirits, or whatever. BUT when in Rome…lol! I just have to be able to vibe with Rome.

Anyway, I’m still regular ol me with responsibilities like most other people—I just do dream work on the side. Yeah, yeah people write us off as nuts, but ask them if they ever dreamed. Ask them if they ever woke up feeling inspired or brand new. Still some travelers wake up tired because they do so much work. There is no specific people to travel through dimensions, all it requires is Self-activation and regular spiritual and energetic conditioning. Vibrations and frequencies has a lot to do with too, we work out there as fearless beings; warriors. We get back here, it’s trash day, we can’t find our car keys, the kids are running about, the boss is a pain, and spiders freak us out.

People are going to be stepping up and embracing their Selves and “new-found” skills and abilities. And many will stay hidden, as they are now. It’s nothing off the charts, it’s not a miracle, nor is it too good to be true. 3D atmosphere is too dense for all the excitement you see on the screen, so don’t expect or challenge people to “show themselves” in some elaborate aggressive manner. There’s other spaces for that. Besides, we only seek to co-create love, peace and harmony, in the spirit of truth. Empathy, compassion, healing, active listening, kindness, love, hugs, smiles and such is what we give.

My friends that know me, know. God bless them for understanding my need for space and long periods of time to myself.

Bless