I tell myself I LOVE YOU at least once a day. I say it. There is a very conscious love affair happening in me. This is the ‘light’ people are seeing. It’s not about me per say, it’s about loving the god in me and receiving love back.
And I get to gift myself with things I like and that come from my heart. And the larger gifts come from other people who experience even a wisp of my love…the god in me gets in their energies..and connects with another aspect of its god-self realized. Nothing to do with any one focused physical act being more powerful than another. God can readjust any heart…no matter the closeness or distance. It’s the human vessel that fights against change.
The more you become conscious of your depth…instead of fearing your own feelings and thoughts, say I love you. Much like you would to anyone else….you should encourage yourself…more than any other.
Other people may not accept you as you are..and may even judge you or condemn you…of course they’re wrong. As we know only the God in us judges fairly. So instead of helping people hate yourself, say to yourself, I LOVE YOU. And mean it.
Feel what happens after a while..THAT’S the love you kept trying to give away. Don’t stop. Just give MORE to yourself. You have every reason to be prosperous and happy. 😁💙🌸
Hey y’all this Sunday rising is a rather mind-sobering mood..I’m not complaining, it’s a good thing.
I’m out here like Father for(e)give me for being an asshole and not wearing my glasses that time. I pressured myself to pre-form…when I wasn’t even ready. Most people take their glasses off to see, I have to put mine on. That’s how I see what my father wants me to SEE.
Y’all ever did that? Engage in something prematurely? How could you not see the real horizon through the mirage in your face? Because you weren’t wearing your glasses…your righted mind! Your awareness and insight was off course!
In the future, wait. Give it another 24 hours. Let the heatwave simmer down.
Self Foregiveness and Self Responsibility have been my theme this month. My father god reminded me this rising about a discussion we had back on 12/20/12 in the Great Room. Sometimes we have to go back to the basics, no matter how far we’ve come.
Oddly, during that same sleep work, I saw the sun explode. So many people were burned up. I wasn’t and I walked right through the fire and falling ambers. THAT event was rather symbolic because my life HAD changed from that night forward. The process of Self-Healing had begun. As with anything else, the more of yourself you give to your DARKSelf, the better of your LIGHTSelf you will receive back. God’s remedy to heal any suffering soul, broken spirit, worn or broken heart, and any phase of a relationship is a process to be worked at with discipline:
–REVELATION: Opening oneself up to review of his/her faults and/or negative beings; their transgressions.
-REALIZATION: Now knowing and acknowledging to his/her transgressions and accepts his/her responsibility and role he/she played in revealed transgressions.
–FORGIVENESS: Asking for forgiveness unto ones God-Head is perhaps the most important part of healing. The bowing of the head acknowledges that one has realized and is sorry for their transgression against others and/or Self. Forgiveness is a confirmation of agreement with Self and/or between two or more beings, to move forward and no longer hold Self or others in a place of negative vibrations; or contempt nor condemnation.
Make a lovely day.
I would hate for anybody to assume that I hate them just cause I don’t engage anymore. I’m a fore-giving person. However, fore-giving doesn’t mean makeup and move forward.
Foregiveness means I’m giving myself CLOSURE to ANY situation that is proving to be be counter-productive to my goals and desires, to my integrity, beFORE I fuck up any further. My fore-giving is about ME. Just like the rest of whatever I got going on. Why would I dwell in darkness, harm my own wellness and hand someone else my healing?
My foregiving is about me. This is not some thing y’all gonna hear a common person say. I’m not common…this is why its so easy for me to share. I don’t worry about not being me. I just be me…in whatever capacity. Be you. If you have some shit to get out your chest in order to be you…do that. Your heart..do that…your mind…do that…your body…do that. And do it as quickly as possible. So you can have closure amd move in the next best thing.
Living your best life is not getting a thing and showing it off. Living your best life is a process of waking up, taking responsibility for your energy ouput and intake, overcoming the mis-takes, foregiving yourself, and enjoying the successes of whatever comes out of it at the time. It going to happen over and over through your life!
If you leave your foregiving and healing up to others, they will never let it go. They will never let YOU let it go…and they will work at tarnishing your character and always attempt to make themselves look good by making you look bad. And you shouldn’t have to spend good energy convincing other people that your not that bad. If someone of fucking with you, it’s because they’re afraid of you. That’s it, plain and simple.
I’m the confidante to several persons who lack the ability to foregive themselves. And believe me, it’s heavy shit. But I’M here for me…and people see that, and trust me to be there for them. As much as I share, I’m still a very private person.
Foregiving is for YOU to move ON with YOUR life…not forward with the bullshit packed away.
Our current relationship status doesn’t guarantee us happiness or happily ever after. The status has to be lived in real time. Many of us are in relationships acting as if we’re single at selective moments. And many of us are single… pretending to be attached also at selective moments. And many of us are simply in undefined relationships…playing it by the other persons level of contact…or mood…or how much sex we can get or make ourselves available for…under the guise that this is what an exclusive relationship is.
I’m not saying two people have to sit each others feelings or constantly define their union. What I’m am saying, is that it’s OK to spend time with the people you like to spend time with too…away from the definitions and labels. It’s ok to be an adult in your own happiness, which may include openly seeing multiple people, while dating one person. Until you and that person discuss being more to each other, and define concrete purpose to each other, you are free to enjoy your time with other adults.
Some days ago I ran into a male associate whom I hadn’t seen in some years. During our quick catch-up he asked if I were seeing anyone. I said yes…long distance. He chuckled, reached in his suit breast pocket and handed me his business card. He told me to call him when I’m free for lunch or dinner and drinks. And he moved on…eye-ing me in the face. Now had he said that first, then handed his card I more than likely wouldn’t have taken it. But still, did he not respect what I just informed him? He didn’t give me a chance to deny him. But that doesn’t mean he had sinister motive either. I still exist with my own mind and purposes…but I wondered still. What if I hadn’t said long distance?
Recently, I’ve also observed that when I tell people I’m dating long distance…it reflects back as sorrowful or desperate. “Oh that must be hard for youuu.”…or…”How often do you see each other??”…or…”You’re not worried about him cheating?…you know he cheatin right?”…or “Wow there’s plenty of men here who would definitely date you…what made you go long distance?” I mean they wanna know everything! I have no answers. If anything…I’m left with questioning myself. It’s not like all the world knows and I just have to suck it up. But when I’m invited to events and I RSVP for one…or show as a single in a place full of adults…it just feels awkward. Few people know the details of this long distance thing…but even they seem to “forget” I’m dating someone, and regularly attempt to connect me to sorts of men.
It’s OK to want and even need definitions and labels. Your relationship isn’t for other people. But neither does it have to be a secret or undefined to the people around you. If you commit yourself to someone make sure you’re dating that person regularly and they’re committed to you, and all intents and purposes are absolute clear. You don’t want to look like a fool at any point should you be the more lovey dovey partner and want to be openly affectionate, whether online or in real life. There’s nothing more embarrassing than being publicly rejected, or to be subjected to watch other people openly flirt with your partner as if you aren’t there. Which means either they really don’t know about you or they don’t care…because your partner hasn’t created clear and concrete boundaries. People treat you how your partner speaks of you…if at all.
Annnd lastly, it’s absolutely OK to ‘not date’ or have any type of relationship with someone if you don’t see a future with them or cannot define absolute exclusivity — whether til tomorrow or years from today.
There are absolute stressful and despairing moments during soul clearing in which you’re grappling at the external environment because some shit you don’t need (but thought you needed) is being taken from you. It’s almost primitive behavior in which you fight so hard to rationalize this need to stay in a cave as the water is raising higher…knowing you can’t swim. That’s that system fragmentation I often talk about.
You don’t want to entertain the thought of leaving…not to find safer ground…but JUST THE THOUGHT OF NOT KNOWING IF THERE *IS* SAFER GROUND. This is evidence that you are still in your own mind, to NOT THINK AND KNOW THAT WHERE YOU ARE, CAN AND WILL KILL YOU. If you don’t know and don’t want to let go–get out–while you can WALK. This ain’t no bag of cookies and makeup. This is sweat and swear work!
SOUL CLEARING will pull you OUT your own mind and uncover the FIRST mind. It is not a new mind..it is the FIRST thought and it will reshape your mind back into and of itself. So not only will you be removed from the cave, there is a twinkling moment (I call it the voice/hand of god), in which you will find yourself in a completely different location. This process will happen several times throughout your lifetime.
This is my third wave…but I’ve done multiple simulations…I swear I’m going to “drown”…but my follow through is getting better. One time I just kept falling and was reaching for anything…but there was nothingness closing in…then it became so cold…there was some fear…I couldn’t speak…so I spoke in my mind to be released…and I felt the whishing of being pulled up. Yeah…I wasn’t so sure about that one…that wasn’t me. So anyway…what’s the purpose of it all…?
I wish I knew..but if you have to go to school you may as well learn the lessons…and be damn good at them!
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…some folks have short fuses for their own family/friends/man/woman…while loving anyone else. They even says hi to dogs on streets. Oh gosh..and they’re mad at you every other day…and you gotta pull nails to get the issue out of them. But they can easily talk shit about you…to anyone else.
And it’s usually some dumb shit, about you “ignoring” them while you’re off healing yourself (probably from the last dumb shit they THOUGHT you did, but didn’t) or working or just taking care of your business…and/or your children. If you observe this, assess your template and the company you keep.
That shit ain’t healthy. Plain and simple. Urge them to see a psychiatrist/or stop drugging/drinking(and not everyone can handle burning marijuana)…in a concerned way. Without accusing them, “I’m concerned about your wellness. I’ve noticed we continue to have disagreements frequently.”
Here’s a great motivational interview question you can ask him/her, “What do you think about talking to someone who specializes in behavioral conflict resolution?”